Renjana Song
Self Ego

The night always tells a different story. Such a heart must first be completely broken, before it is so sure to change course or dock.

On the third of this night, Ranum complained to his Lord to find a bright spot. He had resigned and felt he did not want to debate God's will. It just takes a little while. To find out if it is true that he who he loved in the last five years will be the end point of the search or it will be a turning point in looking at life.

He often discussed with God, but often he was disappointed, as if there was no power of God in every action he decided. But the feeling in the heart never goes out. Not turning around. Though it was full of bruises.

Ranum knows God well. He did not sleep and heard all his prayers. Those closest to him have said that God may be preparing answers that exceed all the expectations he often asks. Much better than I wanted. Maybe that's true. But it seems, what God prepared will still be the same.

He has now surrendered. Because it turns out to be human is not as scary as prejudice. Disappointed, injured, falling, getting up, excited, then falling again he went through the process. Some of the things the universe offers are sometimes unexpected. Sometimes sad is more frequent chatting, grief is easy to meet without him knowing how to close the door.

Never felt the loss of people who are very important in his life became the most painful part for him. He had felt a deep loss. Then, again feel abandoned by the people he loves. Which is what is sought to go. The awaited ones never come. Something like him, although disappointing but by his side there was a calm that he could not explain.

Only now the question is what is true happiness like? He said, happiness is born on small things when you relax looking at the world. Feel peaceful and peaceful. Spend time with loved ones forever.

However, there are feelings that need to be considered. Loving someone from the past requires reassurance in order not to become suffocating. A little bit of ego decline seems to be needed to find the happiness God promises. The one he loved so much that he became whole again.

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Early in the morning, Agam was already standing in front of the door of the jet-black house. He pressed the bell that was attached there.

''Father!'' elzein opened the door for his father.

''Good morning champ!'' sapa Agam who immediately brought his son into his car.

''Also papa!''

''Where's your mom?'' ask Agam by looking around but did not find the whereabouts of the woman he was looking for.

''Mom is cooking in the kitchen. Mama said that mama is cooking special for Elzein.'' answered Elzein honestly.

''His specialty is only for El, right? Make papa not exist?'' ask Agam in his sulking style.

''The father is like a child, it is not made with food or food.'' said Elzein with a chuckle.

''Huh, you are this.'' said Agam with anxiety.

''Breakfast is ready.'' Ranum exclaimed from the kitchen.

''Lho are you here?'' asked Ranum who was surprised because this early the man had gone to his house.

''And yesterday I said that from today I will take you to you, replied Agam.

''Are you also willing to become a driver now?'' ask Ranum.

''So the driver was willing as long as I was always with you guys.'' said Agam.

''Come, wombal! Guys if there is a desire it is so.'' exclaimed Ranum.

''Hey, I mean it!'' agam protest.

''Whatever!'' answer Ranum cuek.

After finishing arranging food at the table, now the three of them sat neatly like a harmonious small family. Elzein sat down so cheerfully as he felt this morning he was feeling very happy, it was very rare for them to be able to spend breakfast together.

''Why indeed?'' ranum asked, chewing his food.

''You should provide healthy and nutritious food for Elzein.'' said Agam.

''What did you say? Look, here there is already rice, chicken nuggets, sausages, broccoli vegetables, and also milk. Less is more!'' annoyed Ranum.

''Come on El, finish your food first.'' said Ranum by putting another piece of nugget into Elzein's plate.

''Yes, mama.'' answered Elzein obediently and greedily ate his food.

''Why ''Why? You don't like the food?'' ranum asked Agam because he saw Agam who had not touched a bit of his food.

''If you don't, give the food back. Wait outside and do not eat breakfast!'' Ranum took the plate that was in front of him.

''Uh ''Eh! Just yummy! I didn't say that I didn't want to. Here I'll finish all this food.'' Agam again took his plate from Ranum's hand.

Elzein was just smiling to see his parents who were fighting but instead looked funny in his eyes. He continued to pay attention to the interactions that occurred.

''Mom and dad are rich Tom and Jerry, you know!'' sahut Elzein cackled.

''Your mother, El. Papa time can not take breakfast.'' said Agam complained.

''Papa also makes upset mama, mama is tired of this masakin all for El. Besides, sir Ustad can't denounce food, papa. Whatever it is we must always be grateful, said Elzein wisely.

''Well, that's right!'' sahut Ranum felt victorious because his son defended him more.

''Alright, forgive papa son of genius!'' said Agam with anxiety to his son.

''Then let's spend it quickly, we'll be late!'' ranum warned.

''Ready, boss!'' elzein and Agam answered at the same time.

Ranum was so happy to see his son seem more enthusiastic than usual this morning. He also returned to thinking, sometimes with a little pressing and lowering the ego will all feel better.

After finishing breakfast, the three of them were now getting ready to leave.

''Come aboard!'' said Agam by opening the car door.

''I just bring my own car, said Ranum who suddenly felt doubtful and unwell.

''Why ''Why? Didn't you agree yesterday?'' ask Agam.

''But....''

''Why else? Are you not ready yet?'' tanya Agam saw the doubt in Ranum's eyes.

''Not that, I just don't want people to judge me for a no-no. All this time they always said that I was accepted to work because of the insider's path said Ranum and recalled the gossip of his office colleagues.

''Don't be too thoughtful and don't mind other people's words. You are accepted to work in the company because of your own abilities. Even I myself do not know that all this time you worked in papa company.''

''We will soon be getting married too, right?'' said Agam.