Romantice In Love's
I Give Myself Up, And Condemn My Hope

In the garden, Fika sat alone. He still can't stop his tears now. The problem is too heavy. It turned out that the shadows that had been haunting him all along, the shadow of the carriage and everything that was terrible. It has to do with his past. The crying has not stopped. Life is so heavy. You have to accept what happened. This love has grown. This love is hard to lose. The person he loves the most is his biological brother, even he himself does not know what to do. The love between Fiki and Fika must not be continued, especially until it is taken to the temple. They are siblings. They are both brothers. They can't get married.

His body felt weak after the incident. It feels helpless. Fika doesn't know what to do. To gather energy, he found it difficult. His mind is so fucked. He even felt dizzy in the head. The dizziness felt more intense, becoming an unbearable pain in the head. His chest was hard to breathe, many times he tried to take a deep breath. It felt like someone was knocking on his airway. He was even panting at that moment.

The shadow came back again. The car looks so clear speeding, he felt in a car that drove quickly, at once also heard several times the sound of the car horn is very loud, even very deafening. Panicked atmosphere was seen, many people who passed by were saving themselves. It was so hot, the fire was everywhere. The sound of fire sirens repeated over and over. The screams of the people asking for help and all the chaos, he also saw corpses lying around him. Everything was clearly visible in his mind. Fika could only cry and endure the pain of her head. The cry made his chest grow tighter. Suddenly the shadow began to disappear. His headache had even subsided, and his breathing was already relieved again. Fika just resigned with the coming of the shadows. He was still sitting in the garden chair.

“Fika...” looks Fiki approached Fika who is sitting in the park. Fiki sees Fika still crying and does not even care about the arrival of Fiki.

“Fika, you're okay-why right?” Ask Fiki who is worried about Fika's situation. After Fika chooses to leave the house, Fiki attempts to chase after her. Although he was devastated by the event, he could not leave Fika alone, his sane brain was still very functioning, he was still very worried about the state of Fika. As she learns, Fika is her own younger sister. And he must bury deeply his desire to marry Fika.

“Fika.. I know you must have been hit with this incident.” Fiki stroked Fika's hair. “I was also very devastated, the person I was going to marry was my own biological sister. I love you so much Fika, even to this day. No less than one part of my love for you. I'm still like I used to be, I'm still the Fiki who loves you so much Fika.” Fiki hugged Fika's shoulder, and Fika leaned her head against Fiki's shoulder. Fika still could not say anything. He still cries. With Fiki's shoulder, he shed his tears.

“Fika, stop crying. I'm not here for your cries, I'm here for your happiness. Smile dear. I love you so much, and now I worry so much about you.” Fiki held back her grief, at least she could cover up her sadness in front of Fika.

“I also love you Fiki.” Fika Sahut. His voice sounded hoarse, almost inaudible. She hugged Fiki. Fiki also hugged him with love. Unable to hold back his tears, powerless to cover his sadness, finally the man cried also in the arms of Fika. He could not imagine if his passionate love would eventually disappear. Love is forbidden and cannot be continued. They both cried in their arms.