SHAHDU IN THE SENDU
The Love of Servants
...Part 25's...
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“Za, don't stop, don't hide yourself, turn around, Mas beg”.
Keep grasping this hand, continue to accompany Mas in this search, do not go, Mas need you, Mas realize that Mas really need you, do not go dear”.
“Shouldn't Mas be happy, now Mas has a chance to really end our marriage. Isn't this what I planned from the beginning?
This divorce is what I always promised to Ilna, right Mas?”. Zareen asked calmly with tears continuing to flow
And now that God has given Mas this opportunity, Allah is pleased with Mas's feelings for Ilna”
“Then Za, that was when Mas's heart was still frozen, when anger overpowered Mas's soul. Darkness enveloped, and God let Mas drown in the injustice of his own heart. Until that night, in God's unconsciousness, the soul of Mas was far away, and God led it back to His way, He saw His light. Mas realized, Mas's heart trembled, and at that time Mas returned to Him”.
Your shadow, your shadow Za which Mas saw in Mas's sleep. I remember you in the subconscious of Mas, with the chants of His holy verses that you often echo, the light that comes and leads Mas out of this restlessness”.
Mas's heart has been attached to you, without Mas knowing, and Mas does not know it started since when.” His voice grew louder, staring at Zareen who was just as frustrated as he was. With both eyes that have been moist and tears that continue to fall to wet the khimar.
“Za, give Mas a chance yes, to atone for all the sins that Mas has committed on you”. Lirih Zain tried to grasp both hands of Zareen.
Zareen brushed aside, “Ask your heart Mas, the deepest heart, what he really wants, really knitting the despair that has broken off, or just skedar for the solace of your heart that is tangled”.
We both ask God, Mas, what is best for us”.
Zareen wiped her tears, then stood up. Walking left Zain who was fixated staring at his disappearance.
“I will ask your heart to return to my god my wife. The heart that I already have, I'm sure it's”.
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“I love my husband ya rob, ever since these eyes opened for the first time after my unconsciousness, since these eyes are staring at his manik for the first time back then, I have loved my husband ya rob, since, I love him, hiks..”. Zareen sobbed in the face with her hands closed, the white face that Zareen was wearing was soaked with tears that kept falling.
Zareen rose, her heart willing to look at the husband's face right now. After a long time with God, pouring out all the turmoil that dwells in her heart, all the doubts that gripped her heart finally found faith, she wanted this marriage to last, she wanted the love of her husband, she wanted the love of her husband, she said, because she loved her husband, long ago.
Zareen glanced at the clock that showed three o'clock in the morning, no matter what her presence would wake her husband up or how, obviously, she wanted to see his face, looking at the long face that he missed so much.
Zareen closed the door of her room slowly, then walked towards the room of Ema, where her husband slept. Zareen turning the door knob slowly,
“...O God, I am a fool who cannot understand Your knowledge, until I ignore the good you have given me in my life, I hurt his heart, I stab his heart in my heart, I look away from him, staring at what you have forbidden me to do. I'm really sorry God, I'm really sorry”.
Give me a second chance, God, I don't want to end our marriage, I want to fix everything, I want to live the rest of my life with her, with my wife who can hold my hand, I need it, O Allah, to take my steps to return to Your way, I am grateful to be present. Is it really too late, God?”
I'm the stupid one, rob, hiks.”
“Mas..”.
“Zareen..”.
“Mas, God has guided my heart, I want you Mas, want this marriage”. Zareen said softly while kissing Zain's hand.
Zain gasped when Zareen finished saying, then he shrugged Zareen's shoulders to sit down and cupped his wife's cheeks.
“What do you say dear, did Mas not hear wrong?”
“I love you Mas, my husband”
“Allah”, Zain hugs Zareen.
“Thanks Darling”. Zain murmured on his wife's shoulder. Zain hugged Zareen tightly, very tightly. A heart sore in this longing finds its soulmate, making it the antidote.
Long ago, Zain finally let go of his embrace and returned to look at Zareen's face, replacing their two beads. Wiping away the tears that kept flowing from those beautiful eyes that he liked.
“Allah knows how this heart is empty when these eyes do not see you, a soul that thrives to be able to meet you, like a withered flower that worships water, Mas miss you’. Zain lirih
That day, when Mas loses the tender that Mas dreamed of, and Ilna leaves Mas, Mas's heart is completely broken, Mas is annoyed, resentful and very disappointed.
Mas lost everything, however, this heart was very agitated, when Mas could no longer see you at home.
Mas confused, is it true what Mas felt, is not this because of the loss of the tender, or pain because of the abandonment of Ilna?. Until that night, when God opened the veil, and there he realized, that this empty heart, because you who had taken it away with you”.
“Hati Mas has been attached to you Za, and since when is it?, Maspun does not know.
Whether since you left Mas, or anything since you cooked fried rice for Mas, what ever since you were ushered home by your friend that night, or even earlier than that, ever since Mas saw you lying weak with blood soaking your khimarmu that night. Mas don't tau”
The starch, at this time Mas has fallen in love with you my wife”
Zain pulled Zareen and fused their eyebrows together,
“Thank you dear, already want to open your heart to Mas, for this stupid man filled with arrogance, really Mas need you and Mas do not want to lose you again”
Zareen held the hand of Zain cupping his cheek, and,
“You are my husband, I should have opened my heart and given you this love Mas”
Zareen put some distance between them, and her hands were raised, wiping away the tears that also soaked the husband's face.
“Let us visit this bridge of marriage with the faith of Mas, accompany this love with His love, join this struggle by simply expecting His riddho, he said, that our household may have the right to dwell in His Jannah.
Because I not only want to be with you in this world, dear, I also want to be with you in His heaven, my husband”.
TO BE CONTINUE
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