SHAKING
NUMBERS AND DANCERS

EIGHTEEN

It was November 13, 2021... I don't know what time I forgot..

It was late at night and I remember being a little sleepy.. While lying down, when half sleepy suddenly appeared just like that. the number 18..  !!!

Why did the number eighteen just appear in my vision...?

Does the number I got have any meaning? Certain clues? Could it be a date? Or maybe it shows the clock...? Or kilometers? Could it be the house number? Or what???

I don't know what the number eighteen means, I don't understand. Why do I suddenly see this number? What the hell is going on? What should I do after seeing that number?

After that, so that I do not forget, as usual I wrote on my Facebook account will be my vision just now...

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I don't understand why I should see it.....

Eighteen!

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DANCER

Sunday, November 14, 2021. at 18.35 WIB..

Every Sunday night, as usual, our family always attended mass online. At that time we had arranged, cleaned and prepared a prayer room. At mass, we light candles and to be more solemn, we turn off the lights. It was more shady to follow the online mass in the candle dyes on our simple altar..

My eyes were staring at the television screen. I focus and concentrate fully. But, without me realizing it, when I focused, it turned out that I was "not there".

At first, I felt ordinary just sitting at Mass. Suddenly without me noticing the change in the situation, I noticed something moving on the right side of the television screen. How is someone dancing??

Once I focus more, I'm no longer in that room. I was in a dark place. There was a paved road with shady trees on the side of that road. There was a woman dancing in the wild.

The woman was wearing a kemben. I couldn't clearly capture the color of his return because he was dancing in the open and the night was so dark. But, I can see the color of his golden shawl.

Who dances these nights? I was curious to know who the golden-clad woman dancing these nights was.

It seemed, I raised my gaze towards his face. But suddenly I remembered...

Lha, am I not having online mass at home???

Why am I here??? Why do I see this woman dancing in the open??? Am I not at home???

This sudden realization of mine made me suddenly "back". I could not see the face of the dancing woman, only had time to see the shadow of her long black and beautiful hair, the last thing I could see before returning...

I was still sitting in front of my television screen... Still following mass online... My eyes are still open and I am not asleep...

Hufffft...

Does this mean? Who do I see dancing? What does it mean I saw this? Is there something he wants to say? Is this a symbol of something or just my delusion and empty hallucinations while concentrating on staring at the television screen during online mass?

I am the servant of the Lord, I leave all life and life into Your hands, O Lord...