Sharing Love: Complicated Love
CHAPTER 40. Where did Eve come from

Eve was still crying as much as she could over the rooftoftoft while Tala was long gone.

Now Eve's eyes seem puffy from crying and Eve is lucky that no one currently goes to rooftoftoft and sees her with puffy eyes.

However, everything Eve thought was wrong there was someone who had always been there and looked at Eve in silence.

From the beginning Eve is brought by Tala to the rooftoftoft until a husband-and-wife quarrel that occurs between by Eve and Tala the man listens.

Who else if not Raka doctor but here not only is Raka doctor but there is a woman who is also watching but the woman did not watch until the end and waited a little longer after Tala's gone.

Looking at the vast expanse of the sky accompanied by a gentle afternoon breeze wagged Eve's hair that was not pigtailed.

Maybe Eve does not realize that her current appearance is very messy and Eve does not care about it.

No friends for Eve to share her story and complain about.

Eve becomes a person with her increasingly reclusive personality.

The great wall of Eve always pairs when meeting people even though it has been a long time

That is what Dr. Raka felt. Doctor Raka knows a little and understands what makes Eve like this. Evidently, Eve's marriage did not make Eve happy.

Having a friend Eve did not want to call and shed her complaints because she felt it had become a burden for the friend.

Eve has since been married to have severed all connections involving herself with her best friend so that the friend does not feel worried about her.

Eve's sometimes bad thinking is that she will always be someone's burden and Eve does not want her only friend to leave her or be disappointed with her for always hearing her endless stories and how much stupid himself.

Close relationships with others Eve lacks self-confidence.

Sometimes Eve tried to get up but often stopped sometimes Eve also wanted to give up and choose to live alone.

Eve is very lonely and lacks affection.

Utilized by the people around him and not appreciated make Eve low confidence to socialize so as to make Eve a closed person.

A crushing blow from the past that affected the present made the confidence in Eve even further mired in.

No twinkle of light would be emitted in Eve's eyes if people were really observant of it even though Eve was smiling so kindly.

It was able to make the Raka doctor who saw the lonely and dark gaze like a magnet that attracted him to know and better understand and become the backup for Elakshi Feshika Adwitiya.

Patience and determination Eve make Raka doctor more interested especially to protect and provide happiness eyes like black pearls.

Doctor Raka wonders what makes a Nabastala Affandra Werawan so dislike or rather hate Elakshi Feshika Adwitiya.

But today they clearly seem to have an unfinished past.

Inside Eve's mind with her blank eyes Eve still blamed herself for all this.

Eve knows that what she did to Tala was wrong.

Betraying the heart of a man who was so sincere in love with her and always accompanied her just because she used to be so thirsty to seek more attention.

So that makes him forget that there is a heart of someone who is hurt by it.

Though what Eve did at that time was her carelessness for an affection that she wanted to achieve plus she was disappointed by the name of a friendship.

Her openness about the problems experienced and harbored by Eve alone made her relationship with Tala more distant and distant.

It was a waste and a trifle that Tala would definitely return to him and would never leave him.

In fact, everything does not return to how it used to be when the opportunity where he wanted to explain everything all bad rights just happened in the blink of an eye.

It was a dark time where both of his adoptive parents left him for ever. Making Eve a teenager at that time was getting worse and thinking about her fate that was always not considered by the Adwitya family.

Think again in those days where Tala always accompanied him wherever he went.

Adhering to whatever she wanted and holding her hand, Eve longed for the attention and affection Tala gave her.

He did not want to open up but Tala tried to understand it by always saying. "It's okay if you don't want to tell a story I won't force it. But, let me always be by your side and accompany you. I'll always wait for you to tell me."

Remembering the words that Tala put out when Eve was a teenager at that time Eve just said thank you and smiled.

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However, every time Eve wanted to tell a story there would always be something that made Eve doubtful.

Tala's sincere affection makes Eve afraid of losing Tala and does not want Tala to stay away from her just because she was born as a child.

So that made Eve vent it with many friends. Eve's friendship scope is not only among school students but students.

Eve is indeed a popular girl and the reason Eve first received Tala is because she already feels caught off guard with everyone who wants to ask her out.

And Tala who also really likes him makes Eve use it.

Being a popular girl, coming from a wealthy family let alone bearing the clan Adwitya the number 2 richest family in the country I this makes Eve lulled and feel happy.

The thirst for attention from people who want to be close to her that Eve did not get when she was in the Adwitiya family who had picked her up made Eve forget herself.

And making the heart wound of someone who sincerely loved him Nabastala Affandra that's the name Eve knew at that time.

Eve was very sorry for wasting a sincere person on her to get the satisfaction of the affection she had never gotten.

"Wind, don't I deserve it. If I were him I would be disappointed and not want to meet the person who has given me the pain." Said Eve with a smile.

"Really destiny is so good."

Eve immediately got up and wanted to do something to vent her sadness by writing.

Doctor Raka who saw Eve standing up and walking hastily followed Eve.

Eve who was unaware only focused on her desire to be done.

Locking the door to his study and sitting at his desk after earlier looking for a desk drawer lock and taking his book.

THE POV ON EVE

It's been a long time since I've written normally lately I've been thinking too much negatively.

I've always written a book with the same title that I was the main lead in my life.

The main cast is so sad and heart-wrenching.

Compared to the happy story I wrote many sad and heart-wrenching words that I poured in it.

This is because many negative thoughts enter the mind.

So sometimes I can't choose what is reality and what is dream.

Trying to be strong so that people around do not feel burdened just because there is me.

However, sometimes I give up on being strong when I am alone and feel lonely to be everyday life.

Just make friends with books and dead things like this diary I wrote.

Many words if, many words if I want to start to start an imagination that can make me happy.

Deteriorated in the past, harboring many things, including feeling ashamed.

I know for sure that the word if it is not good, I also understand that the word if it is very bad.

Because if I say it then I am the one who is never grateful.

So far, I'm the only one I can trust. Trusting even the most sincere people I doubt. Many questions passed.

Are they really sincere because I have a beautiful face?

Are they sincere because I'm so easily taken advantage of?

Are they sincere because I come from a distinguished family.

I want people to see me for who I am, not because I have anything.

But, in fact it is very difficult if I still can not rise from the past.

Because the eyes of the mind and heart are still closed and make me put up a big wall.

He used to say that he would not force me to tell stories and would always accompany me but in fact he left me even though I knew that I was the wrong one here.

I am always wrong whatever I do is always wrong after all I am a place of impingement and desire of the people around me.

I smiled considering how sad it was and felt a little happy that at least I could be useful as a human being for being a place of impingement.

Huh, thinking about the thoughts that come more and more often I think soon it will explode by itself.

I'm afraid that I'll be a soul sick person if it continues like this. However, if I say so then the people who are currently going to stay away from me.

Let me hold on a little longer to fight it. Fight the tightness in the chest and fight the negative feeling in the soul.

I just hope to God that I want to be happy and find happiness that makes me even more grateful.

Be strong, rest assured that you can Eve stay a little longer that you will come out and go far from those around you who recognize you.

Abandon everything you have achieved and become and seek the simple life you have always dreamed of.

In Werawan's grandfather's ward a conversation about Eve again occurred where Werawan's grandfather was eager to meet Eve.

"Is Eve still a long time I want to talk to the granddaughter-in-law." Werawan's father's words made Tala's aunt and uncle speechless along with Geya who was in his room.

Tala who heard him see the watch coiled around his wrist has been two hours since he left Eve in rooftoftoft.

"Calm the cake, Eve will come here. Let him rest." Tala.

"You always said calm down. Don't you know how much your grandfather wanted to meet and talk to his granddaughter-in-law." Said Werawan's grandfather who was upset.

The sound of the door was heard so that it made the attention of everyone in the room Werawan's grandfather felt surprised there were still many people who entered the room

"Grandfather." Calling that soft voice made Grandpa Werawan very happy.

Grandpa Werawan's summing smile was displayed and Eve immediately came hugging Eve tightly.

"You from anywhere. Do you know how much we're worried about you." Said Werawan's grandfather

"I'm sorry grandpa had a patient come." Said Eve with a smile.

"Good then."

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