Sharing Love: Complicated Love
CHAPTER 06. Shut up and hold

Eve awoke from her sleep and saw Tala her husband who was still sound asleep next to her with the distance between the two so close.

Can Eve see Tala's thick eyebrows with a big nose and a firm jaw do not forget with small lips and thick Tala's make Tala look very handsome for anyone who sees it.

The thing that Eve liked the most was Nabastala's eyebrows, which Eve said no one had replaced. Too much but that's the fact Tala's eyebrows are so alluring in Eve's eyes.

Eve had the whole body and heart of a Nabastala but she was a temporary wife who had no love in her. In the heart of Nabastala there is only one Adya Parabawa the first wife who is kind and beautiful apparently.

Waking up to clean themselves after previously taking the clothes he wore last night that were scattered on the floor due to husband and wife activities that must be done by the wife and become the right of a husband. Soaking to make the mind more calm and relaxed even though Eve's heart felt like screaming if only the heart could talk like a mouth.

After Eve went to the bathroom, Tala opened her eyes and looked at the closed bathroom door. Raised his body from his sleep and put on his night pants. Sighing heavily as Tala thought of Adya's state away from her.

For the first time Nabastala had to leave his first wife. Usually wherever Nabastala goes Adya will definitely follow him, Tala will never leave Adya alone.

Tala is afraid that if she leaves Adya then Adya will do bad things like she used to. Adya is very valuable to a Nabastala Affandra Werawan.

The soothing morning scenery made Nabastala feel very comfortable and peaceful. If only Adya was here with him it would feel more fun and meaningful. “Halo Adya's favorite, why call?” Sapa Adya across the phone while receiving a video call from her husband Tala.

Nabastala smiled when she saw that Adya was fine and looked very excited and cheerful as usual, “Dreams Adya has not answered the question. Why call hmmm?” Adya asked gently not to forget with a smile that always made Nabastala very long.

“I miss very much.” Tala replied spoiledly it sounded from Eve's ear just coming out of the bathroom. Eve glanced at Nabastala who was on the phone while looking at the scene outside the window.

“New two days already very long how if there is no me forever.” Canda Adya it makes Tala's smile dim to hear the words thrown by Adya.

“I've told you not to talk strange things.” Tala said coldly to remember Adya. It was inconceivable that Tala would have to lose Adya in this world.

“I'm just kidding why you're always so serious, baby. Then there is Eve who will accompany you forever later.” Reveal Adya with her cherry while Eve who heard her name was mentioned stopped her activity to comb her hair for a moment.

“There is no one but you that I want only you and live alone with you forever.” Tala said coldly regardless of Eve who was in the same room with her who was listening.

Eve felt the pain in her heart but Eve could only remain silent because it was not her right here she was only the third person between the two. Sighing heavily trying to be ordinary so that Tala did not hate her more. Out of the crocodile cage into the tiger cage as Eve felt now. Just being able to calm down and comfort yourself was already a common thing for an Elakshi Feshikha. Alone in sorrow and adversity without anyone comforting themselves.

At times like this, Eve is very fragile but has to pretend that nothing happened. Eve knew trying to be okay in front of everyone to try to make people not uncomfortable with her was the best way for Eve at least Eve did not have to hear insults or spicy words from those closest to her.

Being friends with yourself is common. Loneliness becomes an atmosphere that is always there wherever and wherever he goes. The last step is to cry as much as possible if the feeling of tightness and depressed mind that can not be controlled.

“My wife wants to talk to you.” Tala said coldly and hung up the phone's voice speaker so that Adya would not hear her cold words to Eve. Tala's words made Eve flinch from her daydream, no smile and no gentleness.

“Halo kak Adya.” Sapa Eve cheerful who previously sighed for a moment so that people do not get uncomfortable with her. Tala returned to the sofa by the window without a word after giving her cell phone to Eve. Almost thirty minutes Adya and Eve told him that Tala had to immediately stop talking between the two.

“Have told him, it's late at night there and it's not good for your health.” Tala said that seizing her cellphone in Eve's hands to make Eve surprised by Tala's movement. While on the other side Adya pouted at Tala's words which stopped her conversation with Eve.

“You should immediately stop your conversation with my wife. Are you still so selfish that you don't think about the health of others. You yourself are a doctor should know that a good time to talk linger let alone the health of my wife now is not like anyone else or you.” Omel Tala coldly and fiercely told Eve while Eve remained silent while holding a wound in her heart that was very painful and piercing.

“I'm sorry next time I won't do it.” Eve said with pain in her heart. The words Eve always said when she was in this condition. Whether it is his fault or not Eve must apologize and bear the consequences of mistakes or actions committed by those around him.

After saying very hurtful words to Eve, Tala left the hotel room without saying goodbye to Eve. “Sabar Eve.” Eve wiped her tears that you did not hear the sharp and spicy words of Tala. “You live in this world indeed have to accept all the impingements and deeds of people around you. At least your life means something to the people who vent their emotions with you. Remember Eve you are just a doll, your position is nothing more than that.” Said Eve trying to encourage her wounded heart and positive thinking.

Eve was very hungry because Eve had done it last night as a wife. When Eve was about to call the receptionist to prepare for her because it was impossible for Eve to leave this hotel room without permission from Tala. Eve must appreciate Tala as her husband and Eve remembers clearly how her adoptive mother who always paid her respects to her adoptive father first when she wanted to go anywhere.

 “It's okay if I help?” Eve asked the two hotel service employees but Eve's hands still did it. The two service employees smiled politely at Eve without refuting.

“Thank Miss. May your honeymoon be fun.” Said one of the service employees to Eve and was replied with a smile by Eve. Nabastala who had just come from outside saw the food that had been served on the sofa and stared intently at Eve and the two service employees. “I'm sorry Miss and Master. Enjoy.” The waiter saw Tala standing by the door with her cold, flat face.

“Are you too ordinary to put men into the room. Remember your limits lest you embarrass me and my extended family.” Tala said coldly that made Eve again have to listen to a painful word.

“I'm sorry next time I won't do it.” Eve said without making a defense of herself. Because it would be very useless for Eve to explain something to someone who already really dislikes and hates us because they will close their eyes and ears. Tala only snorted and stared intently at Eve and left Eve alone again.

Eve food that has been provided by the hotel and which is delivered by the hotel service employee earlier. Tears have become commonplace for humans, especially for Eve. When eating, tears are common things Eve spilled while eating. At least Eve needs energy to drain the negative emotions in her heart and mind through tears. After breakfast Eve sat pensively on the floor covering her legs, looking out at the view outside the window that only Eve could see from inside the room.

THE POV ON (EVE)

I could only keep quiet because I had no right to speak even to defend other than to say the apology I always said to everyone. Can only sigh patiently to strengthen my fragile heart and take care of this weak me. Brother Zee was right that I was just a puppet to everyone and I thought that I was indeed a puppet that people could do as they pleased.

At least in my mind, I was useful to them so I did not want to be anything other than what Brother Zee said about me because the truth is that I am. I should be like a doll that has no taste and soul no matter how people treat me, dump me, ignore me.

My mind is a puppet always embedded in my subconscious as it is today no matter what Tala does and says as my husband then I have to accept it because I am a puppet. I thought that this honeymoon-themed vacation would be a lot of fun and win the thought turned out to be the same but at least I should be grateful as Aunt Bora said that I could get on the plane, she said, living in a nice place, good food because of the pity of the Adwitiya family and my husband Nabastala.

Indeed, who would accept me as a wife to see my unclear origin like this does not exist. I don't like this sad Eve and always wondering. Forgive me God my thoughts and feelings sometimes do not thank you.

About what I should do after two years of marriage, I'll go where and what work I should do. I can't possibly hold the title of surgeon like this because that's why I got it from the money that the Adwitiya family had spent on me.

“Amut why are you so strong to carry the load.” I said my own monologue when I saw an ant carrying food on its head. “You're great and you guys get along well too. Can I be a part of you.” My own chuckling words.

Talking to myself is normal for me if I feel lonely especially now that the panda doll is not near me so I can not play with him like when I played when I was a child and still in an orphanage.

Orphanage yes, maybe later after the divorce I will return to the orphanage to dedicate myself there. Kids will look very pure and not full of pretending like adults like me. But, what if I get pregnant and have a child yes if I am given the right later to meet with my own child. See now I'm back crying it's true I'm very weak so it's natural that people around me really like to bully me.

“Semut what do you think I'll do after two years. Will I stay sane with my situation like this.” I asked the ants who certainly would not be able to answer my question. “People always give bad judgment yes ants without listening to the explanation of the person. I'm so stupid who believes in a child like me is not there even I don't believe in myself.”

I stepped on my foot when I heard the ringing sound of my phone ringing I could see that it was a friend of my profession but the difference was that he was a psychiatrist. “Halo Elakshi, where are you why are there no news?” Look at him still chatty only he's the only friend I have.

“Why are you getting chatty.” I said to him with a smile hearing a caring sentence from the mouth of my friend.

“You didn't do anything weird right?” Ask suspiciously look my best friend knows that now I feel down without me telling you it is really a psychiatrist my mind said.

“I just started talking to myself not but with ants.” I said with a smile. I could hear the sound of breath coming from his mouth. “Don't worry I'm fine, you know I'm very strong and great. In the next two years I'll be back to see you and be free. So, you should get ready with my chatty attitude yes.” I immediately turned off the phone and blocked my best friend's phone number.

I did it on purpose so my best friend wouldn't worry about me too much. I sighed heavily then my eyes fell silent staring at the man who had become my husband was looking at me sharply and coldly.

This time I thought especially yes the mistake I made maybe even in his eyes I was breathing would be very wrong in his eyes. I could only be silent and slightly lowered my head while waiting for the words of pearl to come out of his mouth.

Without me being able to predict that she was directly kissing my lips, I smelled the smell of alcohol from her mouth and body. Is that how it hurts people who are near me to have to damage themselves with drinks that are not good for health. I just accepted what the man who became my husband did without much protest. Although actually I was very tired and bored in the room but how else I was a wife who had to serve her husband. I have no right to ask for and express what I feel and what I want because I am a puppet.

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