Sharing Love: Is My Husband Yours?
Fail Faithfully

'Abort the child in your womb! ... Your content hasn't been up to four months. Just drop!' Those words were ringing in Alya's ears.

That was the word he said to me first. At that moment he took out those sentences very consciously from his lips.

'Could this be karma from my words?' thought Alya. He still could not fully accept the fact that his son was no longer there. He even sometimes hopes that everything he experiences is just a dream. But not so the truth. She finally cried again after thinking about it all.

He is currently recovering after curettage surgery. Mas Darwin continued to give Alya his spirit and tried to raise his heart. However, in Mas Darwin's mind still crossed my shadow.

In his office he thought, 'Why do I keep thinking about Rania? I should focus on watching Alya, she needs my support in her difficult times right now.'

However, his mind to me was stronger than all the other things he had in mind. 'Maybe I really love Rania to put my feelings aside for Alya?'

'I cannot be like this, ' Inner Mas Darwin. However, his thoughts about me still made him upset.

'Rania ... What is she doing now?' think Mas Darwin.

Then, Darwin tried to call my phone. I was busy making people's orders and didn't hear my phone ring in my room. Darwin tried to contact me again so many times. But, it remains unanswered.

Darwin saw my status today. I posted a photo of my peyek in status. Darwin shifted my status. Still a peyek photo with the words 'receive order' and there is also my phone number.

"Rania.." murmured Mas Darwin. 'He did this to get a divorce from me, ' Mas Darwin thought.

"Maatkhhhh...." Darwin took a long breath.

She again looked depressed when she recalled my insistence on divorce and my mother's insistence on divorcing Alya. 'I can't divorce Alya, ' Mas Darwin thought. 'At least, right now he just lost our son.'

'But, on the other hand, it was also very heavy for me to release Rania. Moreover, she is pregnant with my son.'

Darwin didn't know who to talk about his feelings to. He has no place to tell stories. Suddenly, a phone call came in from his father.

"How are you, Darwin?" ask dad.

"Okay, Dad" replied Darwin.

"How's your household doing, Rania? Is it okay?" ask dad again. "Tempo the day he called me and asked about Alya."

Darwin was confused as to what he wanted to answer. 'Should I tell Dad all this?' think Mas Darwin.

"Why are you quiet?" Ask dad. "It's a sign there's a problem with your household."

"I'm okay, Dad. Just my feelings lately are pretty fucked up."

"Tell me dad! Maybe I can help you."

Darwin fell silent as if he didn't want to tell Dad. However, his mind was completely overburdened. He needs someone to share.

"Rania already knows about Alya, does your mother know?" Dad lured Mas Darwin to talk.

"Here it is, Dad," replied Darwin.

"Oohh, so that must be your problem" I guess. "Your mom won't let go and just shut up, will she?"

"Yes, Dad," replied Mas Darwin slowly. "Mother urged me to divorce Alya. Meanwhile, Rania urged me to divorce her."

"Then?" ask dad.

"I can't just leave Alya. He has sacrificed a lot. In fact, she was willing to just be Siri's wife long ago. She loved me so much that even though I remarried and a few days ago she just lost our child, her fetus is not growing."

"If so, are you going to divorce Rania?" ask dad again.

Darwin paused for a moment and said, "I can't either, Dad. It's too hard for me to let Rania go."

"Why?"

"Hmmmh.." Dad's voice sounded heavy. "Darwin, it looks like your loyalty in marriage is being tested. And, you know, you actually failed that test."

"Why did you say that?" ask Darwin not to understand.

"Aware or not, your heart has actually turned away from Alya" replied the father. "You defend Alya ..it is not because of the will of your heart, but it is circumstances that make you forced to do so. Circumstances that require you to be loyal to him. Because he has sacrificed as much as you said. To speak is your logic, not your heart."

"There are so many reasons for you to defend Alya. Why are you still confused and want to keep Rania?"

"When you were asked why you couldn't let go of Rania, you didn't know the reason why. Your logic asks you to let go, but it is your heart that refuses. You can't lie to your heart, you want Rania by your side."

"I can't just leave Alya, Dad," said Mas Darwin.

"You chose your logic. If so, divorce Rania!" said father.

"But, Father...."

"Why?" ask dad. "Your heart refused?"

"You've failed to maintain your loyalty, Darwin. Your heart has fallen on Rania."

Dad ended the phone. Darwin was confused and then he rubbed his face with rage.

'... The longer you hold me, the more you will only hurt me, Mas.' The sentence was spoken many times in the ear of Mas Darwin.

Darwin stood up, staring out the window, trying to find the answer to his turmoil. However, he could not find anything there. Only the inner upheaval he felt was becoming more and more.

****

The weekend has arrived. Darwin knocked on his door in Kayuagung. "Assynnya!" he said from outside.

"Yes, just a second...." She answered while walking towards the door.

"Relsek!" The door opened and, "Darwin." Mom muttered spontaneously.

Darwin wanted to kiss my mother's hand, to shake hands. However, the mother immediately held her hand while saying, "You came home too at last. Divorced Alya?"

Darwin was silent. It was not a question he expected to welcome his arrival. However, the mother was still standing at the door with her sharp gaze, making Mas Darwin have to answer.

I peeked out of my bedroom window. I saw Mas Darwin shaking his head and slowly saying, "No, ma'am...."

Then, as fast as lightning, I immediately said, "If so, get out of here! You don't need to injure your feet here anymore! You prefer Alya to this mother who gave birth to you. Don't call me mom anymore! Leave this house!"

"But, Mum...."

Not yet had Mas Darwin say his words, mother immediately threw the door and closed it. Darwin fell silent and realized the harsh nature of his mother would not be easy to persuade or fight. Therefore, shortly afterwards he walked off the porch of the house. I saw him get back in his car.

Darwin got into his car. He was in the car for a long time, but I never heard him turn on his engine. I don't know what he's doing. I finally stopped seeing him from the window.

Shortly after, my phone rang.

"Rania, go to the door!" said it.

I rushed back to look at him from the window. I saw Darwin standing at the door. Slowly, he walked back to his car. He got out of his car and called me.

"What's it for?" my many.

"Just do it!" said it. "I can't stay here long. I'll get more emotional if I don't leave soon."

Then I heard the sound of the car. Darwin ended his call and left home.

I walked out of the room and opened the door. I saw on the porch seat there was a pocket. I picked it up and saw the contents inside which turned out to be water and my wallet.