Tetu Keseh Keseangan Aa Doctor
20. Aa Sunda Bikin' Candu

Gista tried not to show despair when scooping soup water. He put it in his mouth, swallowed but rushed to pick up citrus fruits to remove the fishy taste in his tongue.

"Can't ya, Tea?" Endra sighed.

He also felt desperate.

Gista is extraordinarily afraid that Endra also says he is a burden and abnormal.

"Not to feed me." So he will try not to cause. "Acruck is enough. The others do not need to. Thanks." Thanks."

"Try not pa-pa, Tea" replied Endra patiently. "If you don't try where we know it turns out Teteh ate starfruit too."

Yes, the super-wry little starfruit added salt and cayenne pepper, where A Zaka and Juli secretly wonder how he could eat something like that.

That was all Gista could swallow after the orange and steeping spices.

"Don't care too much about me, Endra."

Gista could still feel the remains of the disgusting soup in his mouth, but he tried not to look at it. Choose to focus on what he thinks should be discussed.

"I know you're good. I also know you want me to be hopeless. But ... don't do it. I'm like this not pa-pa."

"Teh—"

"Don't let me be spoiled with you, hoping you'll keep helping me like this. I'm not as good as that you keep helping."

"...."

"I'm alone not pa—"

Gista's talk stopped because Endra suddenly smiled holding back a laugh.

Whahuh? What's so funny? Gista even wanted to cry because of his own words and he laughed instead?

"Endra?"

The young man was really laughing now. "Yes, Teteh said A when in reality B."

"Huh?"

Ap ... huh?

Gista gawked at the sweet young man putting his soup on the table, then looked at Gista as if there was something he really enjoyed there.

"Susahin, Tea."

"What?"

"Yes. It's hard for me, not pa-pa. Teteh want me to turn over also I turn over. But if you can do well, I never try. I'm a medical boy, Tea. Rarely my sport. When I was treated the same. If I turn over, I'm afraid I might poke."

Why is he even talking about a somersault?

"But if well, Teteh really want me to turn over yaudah. If I can make a smile Teteh mah I turn over. Or do I want to walk by hand? Yes it is impossible for me, Tea, just if entertaining anyway well I try first. Teteh said, Tea. Please."

Buset, what does this guy Gista call? Good or gob—no, hideung well Sundanese language?

"Endra, I'm not acting"

"I don't like to look at a cry."

When saying that, Endra silently looked sad. It was as if remembering something that made him languish.

"I don't like it if Teteh ngurung himself because tired. Especially if Teteh nangis like yesterday. Especially if Teteh was to commit suicide. Yes, I know I do not understand the condition of Teteh. What pain I really don't know."

Gista's heart pinched his taste.

Especially when Endra smiles.

"But as I know, I can't stand it. So if Teteh feels I'm hard, you're hard. What do you want, what do you need, say to me. Want me to be repotinated, Tea.. I'm the one who said. No problem anymore, right?"

The problem.

The problem is because if he keeps this up, Gista becomes opium. If Gista is opium, does he want responsibility?

*