Tetu Keseh Keseangan Aa Doctor
66. If It's Just a Pura
A Zaka felt that Endra's emotions had gone up too high until he said that sentence. The man silently patted Endra on the back, wishing him calm down, but Endra immediately gestured not to touch him.
He's really mad.
So furious that Endra no longer retained tenderness but suppressed his sharp firmness.
"Who's responsible, Om, if Teh Gista commits suicide? Or we say 'who told you to kill yourself, the time is then until you die'. You think that's how you can live a dead person?"
Juli basically doesn't like hearing this kind of commotion. His heart was pounding hard and his tears were melting.
Neither he nor A Zaka could tell when Endra's voice trembled, he immediately remembered his sister, Nisa.
There is no one in this village who does not know about the story. Nisa, Endra's sister, committed suicide out of loneliness.
When Endra is busy studying in the city leave Nisa alone in this village. Actually, Nisa's not really alone. Nisa is very close friends with Yura. They were the same age and could be said to be like brothers.
But Nisa it's kind of.
She often said she was fine living alone in the house despite being forced to move to the Aunty Inah house by Yura and her other family. Nisa always said that she was not afraid, there was no problem because during the day she was with Yura.
Then at his peak he was fed up of pretending, Nisa committed suicide. Just left a few sheets of letters regarding his heart contents about that desolate.
Of course everyone was sad, but no one could help saying that Nisa was so stupid.
If he's scared, why is he so strong? If he doesn't want to be lonely, why does he say he's okay?
At the end of the day he's dead.
Many people think so. Blaming Nisa too much regardless of anything was at least understandable, that not everyone could speak of loneliness in her heart.
Therefore, Endra is very sensitive to everything about mental illness.
"I don't mind if Auntie wants to talk about her not being satisfied about Teh Gista. I'm maklumin. I know Aunt is disappointed about Yura." Endra clenched his hands tightly. "But if Aunt's talk only makes other people hurt, Om want to tell me to diem alone? If Gista Tea is that scary, Om think it's natural?"
Since long ago, Endra has always cared about one's mental health. More precisely since Nisa left. He always pays attention to things about people's feelings, until the effect he often exaggerates and thinks about things that are not important.
But what he said now was true.
"Om sorry about your aunt. He doesn't understand, Sen. What she thinks is Yura if you're the same as Gista Tea."
Endra's breath goes up and down. But as soon as she heard her apology in a gentle tone, Endra felt guilty as well.
The young man covered his face with both hands, repeatedly inhaling.
"I was wrong too. Sorry, Om. I'm emotional."
Endra gulped, as well as swallowed his anger that was overflowing. "I just can't stand if there's anything like that in front of me. Gista's tea is sick, by God, it's suffering our same thought."
Endra's voice shuddered saying it. Because deep in his heart also Endra felt very sad about the condition of Gista.
"Not all that severe pain must cry out, Om. Not everything. We get up early to eat this can want it up to you. Gista tea can't."
"Kiss the smell of hot rice just so he's crying. We drink coffee drink happy tea, Gista Nyium tea smells just can not. If it's just pretend, just show me once when Gista Tea diem-diem eat."
Because it is impossible for a human being, let alone living in this environment, to be able to live without eating rice, without eating side dishes, without eating vegetables, without eating anything but a few grains of orange every day, which sometimes bread is forcibly added.
There won't be.
If it's just pretend, just something done to attract attention, he really should be rewarded as the most patient man and totality in pretending.
Because even the most lying people in this world will not be able to do it.
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