The Curse of Love
Part 216 Sultan's Diary 2

I kept an eye on Sania who almost fainted at Miko's funeral, but I again hated myself for not being able to do much to help her.

I could only try to comfort her so that she would not continue to sink into her grief.

Saturday 1 february 2020

I checked my health with the doctor because I often felt pain in my left chest.

The doctor's answer made me feel scared and anxious.

I have heart disease. I was shocked to hear it. If I'm sick who will take care of Sania?

Moreover, I carried out an important task from Miko.

My diary, I was too happy to write down my expression of happiness.

Whether I was selfish or what, but before Miko died, I was mandated by her to marry Sania so that I could continue to look after them.

But how can I keep looking after them if I'm sick?"

I must not be sick, I must look strong in front of everyone.

Sunday 23 february 2020

Who the hell is that? I heard he's Miko's twin brother. His name is Juan Niko Saputra.

She looked familiar with Sania and her children.

Why have I not dared to reveal that I love her, that I have mandated Miko to marry and take care of her...

I'm a cowardly man.

I'm afraid Niko will take Sania from beside me again.

Monday 2 march 2020

What the fuck? Sofwan uses the show to approach Sania again.😡😡

My competition is so much anyway?? yes Nikoq, yes Sofwan..then who else will be my rival?

Monday 4 may 2020

How yes? I've been trying to tell Sania for two months, but Niko keeps sticking to her like a hammer.

Only now do I often feel pain in my chest getting worse.

Please do not take my life before I see my Sani I am truly living happily even though he is not you destined for me.

Sunday 7th june 2020

Whaties??? Saniaku has blood cancer😭😭

Oh no...why should he??

Why am I not the only one to suffer all the pain?😭😭

How'this?? where should I look for a sum sum sum bone transplant?

If my sum sum bones can and match, then take as much as possible, do not say only my sum, life if I can give, I will give it to him.

Monday 15 june 2020

Who else is this guy named Riko?🤔🤔

According to the story I heard from Sania, Riko used to be a child she used to care for.

It seems safe.nga maybe Riko likes Sania, as they age by a dozen years.

Monday 13 July 2020

There is happy news😊😊 Sania's sister who has long disappeared finally came again when Sofwan also found and brought her home.

What was his name, huh?? oh yes, sister Della her name.

But why is there no similarity between the two, right??

But that's not important because according to the internet, siblings can most likely be taken sum sum for Sania. Hope you can!!

Just one request of mine, Sania can heal as she was.

Amynn...

Thursday 13 august 2020

What the fuck is Niko??? You son of a bitch.tega-tega you have your wedding with another woman out of town sana😡😡😡

You think Sania's just your escape.

That's how you better be blind forever.

You and Miko make no difference.

Yes no different!! they are twins definitely the same nature, both like to play with the feelings of women😡😡

Watch out for you Niko, if anything happens to my Sani then I will kill you with my own hands.

Poor Sania, again she had to end up hospitalized because of the two damn twin humans😡😡

Monday 20 august 2020

Praise and gratitude I say to you, O Allah. Sania finally recovered and came out of the hospital.

Good sister Della, just keep Sania out of Niko's reach so that they no longer meet which results in Sania stress and pain again.

I was thrilled to hear of their decision to move to the old house😋😋

So I can see him any time I want.

Sunday 4th october 2020

What the fuck???

Turns out I misjudged😭😭

It turns out that Riko does not think Sania is just a aunt doang.more than that he loves Sania.

Duh...bocil it..why did I not take into account his existence, huh??

So what should I do??😓😓

Saturday 10 0ctober 2020

Today I am so happy!! it was because of this heart disease drama that had to end up in a hospital bed.but Sania visited me, waiting for me and greeted me😍😍😍.

I almost jumped for joy if I didn't remember the infusion needle that was resting on my left hand.

Our moment together was exactly like when Sania was pregnant with the twins first.

If this were a dream, I wouldn't want to wake up so I could be with him forever.

Wednesday 11 november 2020

What the hell does Sofwan want?? he wants to leave 2 weeks to Jakarta and promised when he returned home will propose to Sania again?

Hasn't he hurt Sania in years? why Sania? is that how he loves his ex-wife??

I don't think my heart is willing to let Sania and Sofwan go back.

Sunday 20th december 2020

Nice yes Sofwan...really like your animal behavior😡😡

Good thing Sania hasn't agreed to remarry you otherwise, what will happen to her?

How you Sofwan, you betrayed that fragile heart again...

Do you know the disease suffered by your ex-wife, Sofwan?? just a little depressed he will be fatal to his physical condition.

That's why I never dared to tell Sania all your disgrace.

This is all I'm doing so that he doesn't experience prolonged stress.

Until here I read the diary of the Sultan I paused for a moment and sobbed again.

"I'm sorry Sultan, too much sacrifice for me and my family!!"

"Why don't you say it from the beginning if you love me!! would you be insensitive if I also had the same feelings as you?"

"There's no way I feel like I'm the woman who revealed it first."

"I can only wait for the expression of your heart for so many years that I'm tired and think that you've never liked me."

"I realize who I am, where perhaps a righteous, well-established and handsome man like you would be with a widow who has many children like me."

I sobbed as I leaned against the bed and stared out the window that afternoon it was so cold as to represent my freezing feelings.

"I'm also very lonely without you next to me Sultan."

"Usually in this moment you always come with me, teasing me so that it makes me laugh again."

"I never cared if Niko got married, and Sofwan fucked 1,000 women, but I don't care, which I want you to come back to me, Sultan."

"Why is it that until the last moment of your life you never want to say you're sick? you always try to be a very healthy person to always be able to take care of me and protect me without you paying any more attention to your own circumstances."

I hugged the Sultan's diary as if I were hugging him. Feeling every grievance that was on sheet by sheet of the book as if he was the one who was telling me and me as the best listener.

"Sania...."

Suddenly, Della's voice called out to me.

I quickly erased the trail of my tears and first kept the diary under my pillow. My intention later after the atmosphere calmed down a little then I will continue to read it again.

"Well, what's wrong with Della?" I shouted from inside the room.

"Come out for a second, Nia...!!"

I rushed out when I saw Sofwan in the living room.

"Dek, Sofwan mas pamit want to go back to batam first, maybe after from Batam mas want to go to Yogyakarta to pick up Aisyah and bring her back to Balikpapan."

"Mas wants to go back to work at the company in Balikpapan only!! it may be true that in Batam mas earn a much higher salary, but I do not have the peace of working there at all.mas always think of you and the children here, deck!!"

"You're okay here!! I promise I'll be back soon for you" Sofwan told me.

"Do not make too many promises if in the end Sofwan himself will deny it!!"

Sofwan was momentarily silent at my words that perhaps to him I had subtly insinuated.

"Yes deck, I know sins and mistakes are too much for you that's why I want to try to fix little by little the mistakes of our family."

"Thank God if you've realized it, I'm only human I have no right to judge anyone's mistakes even though I'm basically here the one who has been hurt.

"Greet Dina and Juned well, deck!! mas tau Juned especially Dina hates Sofwan mas very much."

I just nodded. Even as Sofwan clasped my hand tightly and looked pityfully at my suffering.

"Well, you take care of yourself!! remember there's a lot you have to protect since Riko and Sultan aren't around."

"Be more determined to be able to survive the storm as hard as anything!"

Then Sofwan hugged Syifa who is now sitting in the 6th grade SD.

"Your youngest son is already a big man.who recites the same mother yes son!! pity your mother, dear father Syifa."

Sofwan kissed Syifa's head with a mixture of taste in his heart.

"Pamit mas first yes deck, sorry mas can not accompany you meghadapi these difficult times.but mas promise as soon as possible and finish the work in Batam so that mas can come back here again."

After saying goodbye to Della, Sofwan finally flew back to Batam.

I intend to continue reading Sultan's diary which was delayed when suddenly some employees of the cafe owned by the Sultan came.

"Assynoltom..."

"Waalaikum Salam." I replied.

"What are you guys so many coming here?" ask them all.

"Mom, we hope Sania's mother will be a replacement for Mr. Sultan as our manager so that the cafe that has been established for many years can still run.

"We know the Sultan of the deceased has entrusted his mother as his successor, let us work together shoulder to shoulder so that this cafe can remain standing, our wife's son is counting on the salary from this cafe."

My heart was touched by them all.

"Well from tomorrow I will come to the cafe so I will be helped by Tini and her husband first" I said.

"I must rise to that last wish of the Sultan. I can't be in continuous sorrow, the fate of these cafe workers is now in my hands."

From inside Della smiled at me who was excited again.

"Don't worry Nia, big brother will keep trying to help you!!" said slowly.

"Sultan...I will always take care of all your relics, you don't have to worry, I won't cry anymore..You are calm there huh??"

I smiled at the photo of Sultan on the front page of the blue diary.

I just realized now, how handsome a sweet black man of mixed Javanese Indian blood was.

How kind the heart of the owner of the face was as if it were made of flawless gold.

"You are right, even if you have gone very far, but you will always remain close here.in this heart.." I whispered slowly as I unraveled my smile.

I decided that starting tonight, I had to reorganize my life which for a week was tacky since being left by the Sultan.

I have to be a useful person for the rest of my life who I don't know how much longer I can survive this disease.

I stepped towards the dining table. I haven't touched food very well in a week. It will worsen my own physical condition.

I was too devastated as if I did not believe in the sudden departure of the Sultan who left me.

"Sir Della, is Raftar asleep?" I said I saw Della's sister in the living room already slapping the mattress so that the twins Miko and Miki also Raftar can sleep together outside.

"Have been..just now!! it seems that he was very tired of studying on his stomach all day!!" said Brother Della while commenting on the smile caressing Raftar's head.

"Thank God!! I've been paying less attention to my children this week because I'm too drowning in my grief." I kissed the three and lay down with them.

"You should eat first, Nia..later fall asleep!! Said sister Della.

I just nodded so I lay down and went back to eating.

Dina went into the dining room to take a drink so stopped when she saw her mother had started to eat again.

"Dina is very happy bun, seeing the mother can return as before.we are all very hit with the sudden departure of the Sultan.but do not then make us also dissolve in sadness!!" said it.

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