The Dimensional Explorer
Chapter 94: Which memory of my brain is missing?

Juline Pov.

I don't know how long I've been in this world, time is so fast leaving me. One by one, new things and happiness came to me. But it was only a short while before fate finally took its place and replaced it with pain.

I came here with a great desire to meet and reincarnate with my parents. I thought it would be easier because I didn't use my heart. I put aside things that deal with the heart because it will only make me weak. I go through the days with the hope that time will be a little kind to me.

There was a god who always came to me, he was like a guard, he gave me a reason to survive in this strange world. A world where the weak cannot survive.

I live with a kind man, he is the father of the girl who owns this body, unfortunately he also has a heartbreaking destiny. The fate that ultimately became my dependant. The days we spent were pretty ordinary but quiet.

The nice guy loved me so much that I asked him to follow me to move to the city, to a place he didn't really want to visit. And my biggest regret is why I asked her to move.

I bought a house, and everything we needed to be able to live in the city. In order not to be underestimated by people I bought some buildings and plantations for the good man so that he did not feel bored.

One by one good thing began to feel, starting with the two children of the good man came and chose to stay with us, the two men I called brother. The nice guy I called dad didn't know if I met the woman who hurt him, the mother of his children. I even cursed the woman, the woman who proudly called herself mother but did not deserve that name.

I can feel the happiness of my father when I see his two sons coming, although not all. There is a slightly treated longing. From then on we stayed together, I started practicing swordplay with a master who was kind enough and patiently taught me. He's Roman's master, the one who eventually became my brother. And because of him too I found two good friends. Genny and Melanie, they were very nice girls to me and have always followed me.

I felt a change in my body, my eyes began to ache, my strength grew more and more terrifying so I had to wear a hand T-shirt to cover my strength. But on the other hand I feel happy because with my strength I can protect people - people I want to protect even though in the end I can not do anything.

I met that guy a lot at the Academy. I try to avoid her every time I meet her. She has beautiful sea blue eyes, perfect facial lines, her smileless face is so beautiful and makes anyone want her. I often saw him from afar while he was talking to fellow Ing. She rarely smiles but somehow that makes her look more attractive. Then that night I saw her meeting a female InG, they were like her close, I felt ashamed of myself, how could I think of her and let me off guard.

She used to look at me, I know her gaze pierced my back head. I was afraid to see her, I was afraid if I fell in her gaze so deep but I tried to ignore her. I'm not someone who deserves to stand near her. There were also two men who were always close to me and were very kind. They both made me feel comfortable with them.

Until the harsh reality leaves my eyes open if Sean is a vampire and kills his own brother, Dean. I couldn't accept the fact that, to be honest, I almost collapsed because of it, the two good people who always accompanied me had to face a terrible destiny. I know Sean purposely relented and allowed himself to be killed by me, I could see something in his eyes, I knew he had an incredible love for me that eventually led him to death. And because of that, I closed my heart and distanced myself from that damned feeling of love. I hate that stupid feeling that has taken them both away.

After killing Sean, I moved to kill all the black vampires who were the culprits, I turned them all off, I could still hear their screams in my ears, he said, heartbreaking screams as their souls were forced out by a terrifying force.

After that I really felt the same loss as when I lost my parents, I stayed away and finally reached the Demon Kingdom, the kingdom where I felt loss for loss that almost made me lose myself.

I kept waking myself up to my purpose in this world but knowing I couldn't see them anymore made me unable to endure my pain. I started to lose my race, I don't know anymore sad, happy and angry it all feels the same even I feel like I have lost my humanity. Am I really a demon? The question kept getting answers but I don't know why I was ever satisfied with that answer.

One by one the truth continues to be revealed about my true purpose in this world. The truth that if I may not want to know. My job is to save this magical world by getting rid of the ruler of darkness who is actually my father. Does this make any sense? The father I know now is no longer there, then where did this father come from?

Now I was sitting looking at the faces of two men who were lying helpless. These are the men I call brother, Alec and Aniel. They make me angry for letting those bad guys hurt them. I almost lost them and it made me unable to hold back. I hope they wake up soon.

Still with the same question, who exactly am I? I was getting confused, no one could give me an explanation of this fact. Is there a secret about me that I don't know? Is there something I forgot? Which memory of my brain is missing?! I beg anyone there to give me a hint so I don't lose anyone else.