The Disclosed Seed
not feel guilty

I tidied up my appearance in the office bathroom there is no way I came out with the appearance like this my clothes have been torn out fortunately there is a long coat owned by a prank that I can use. my heart aches so much for what Mr. Bangga did tonight, after harassing me he was instantly unconscious from a heavy hangover, my bottom it hurts so much my tears can't stop flowing, my tears can't stop flowing, but I have to get home before Mr. Bangga wakes up, I'm not ready to meet him yet.

The online taxi I ordered arrived, in a hurry I took the taxi. In the taxi I leaned against my exhausted body in the seat, looking out the window of a different type of vehicle passing by a very beautiful lamp shone along the street adorning this quiet night, my tears came back I hit my chest it felt so tight and sick how could this happen to me ?

" What should I say to my parents and zaki ? What if I'm pregnant ? What the bastard will be responsible for seems unlikely that he loves his lover so much and he has the power, the proud sir can do bad things to me and his own son because we are unwanted, he said, no no no I can't think like this everything will be fine I can't possibly get pregnant ".

dina spoke in her heart.

After paying for the taxi I went downstairs and walked over, when the door opened I saw my father and mother laughing together while watching tv they looked very happy, he said, if they knew what had happened to me, they would have been very disappointed.

" dina you've come home son ".

My father said warmly, he was a very patient father even as long as I was his son he never scolded me even if I made a mistake.

" yes dad dina has come home ".

I kissed her hands and mother's hands.

" dina now eat first mother has cooked your favorite food ".

My mother she stroked my head very gently it was very soothing, I just nodded smiling at them and immediately headed for the room, my body felt very sick and tired. I tried to close my eyes and think positive that tomorrow everything will be fine.

I finally fell asleep.

One month later......

Everything went as usual, her husband also behaved as usual like nothing happened even the word "sorry "not spoken from his mouth, one week ago he married his girlfriend Zafira.

that anger and hate that I currently feel for Mr. Pride, but I can't do anything even just to protest I can't.

I am currently alone with Mr. Angga in the meeting room while waiting for guests to come.

" let's go on you have to be professional ".

My words in my heart encouraged myself.

Suddenly the man gave me two medicinal pills, the confused me just kept quiet.

" drink this in I don't want you to get pregnant, renandra's offspring don't have the right to be born from your womb ".

Said the burdenless man, My heart beats much faster than it just now, I tried desperately to be casual about what was going on between us while Pak Bangga seemed to be very easy for him, and this really ignited my anger.

" pak angga, you do not forget if this is 100% of the father's fault ? ".

My hands clenched holding

fury

" i know my mistake in that I don't want you to be interested in further problems, if you get pregnant then everything will be more complicated, so it will be more complicated, I'll give you whatever money you want to come from follow my words and let no one else know of this ".

The man looked at me deeply.

" i did not expect a famous Renandra mango who is kind and perfect turned out to be just a man who thinks narrowly and likes to demean people, even say sorry you can not, but, not only because you are rich and powerful makes you think that all problems can be solved with money ".

I came out of the room without saying a word and the man was silent.

Just one step out of the door I was surprised to see Zaki standing here, he looked at me with a face that looked disappointed without saying anything he suddenly left, he said, I silently stared to see if my beloved Zaki heard my words with her husband.

after the office hours were over I rushed home by ordering a taxi online, but I was surprised that my office mates looked at me cynically and whispered to each other like I was talking about me even as I tried to be friendly with a smile they looked away wryly, what was my fault ?

" so many people can only get a secretary position because of the boss's seductive ".

I stopped my steps to hear the words clearly addressed to me.

I approached those who were talking about me.

" what's your max ? ".

Clara, my office mate, came closer and smiled cynically

" eh in one office also already know that you like to tease pak angga for the sake of rising office, and also said you are pregnant with other men but accuse pak angga who impregnates ".

" plaque ".

I slapped clara until she turned her head and touched her cheeks which were now reddened, everyone watching us.

" who has spread such rumors, I am not pregnant and I have never teased anyone, including her husband, so no one ever speaks carelessly about me or I report the police for defamation ".

Everyone is silent including clara I immediately leave this place, how can my fate like this I have been abused and now still vilified for what I did not do.

Since that incident my life has become more messy my lover zaki always avoids and ignores me, the rumors are not true is also increasingly widespread and become a warm conversation in the office.

but I have to keep working professionally because getting this job is very difficult, someone knocking on my door, I told him to come in. It turns out he is zaki.

Zaki sat in front of me, I smiled brightly seeing him in front of me because honestly I miss him a lot.

" zaki please explain to me why lately you've always been avoiding ".

I asked him who was looking at me deeply.

" dina I want us to end this relationship ".

I was surprised by the sudden words of Zaki, I got up from my seat and looked at him sharply

" why zaki ? Are you ashamed to have a boyfriend like me for being consumed by that cheap gossip ".

My eyes are already heating up to cry.

" i heard everything you talked about with Mr. Anga ".

My heart feels like it stopped, it turns out my guess has been right all along.

" i know your big secret with mr. Nangga dina, that day I wanted to give the financial sip to Mr. Angga but I accidentally heard that my lover had sex with another man ".

Zaki also stood up, his breathing was seen hunting.

" zaki do you know that I was harassed ? You must have heard that too, you should as my lover defend and accompany me when I am in a state of slump like this, but what ? You weren't there when I needed you, without asking for any explanation you just dodged and are now asking to end this relationship, I thought you were different but it turns out you are the same as those who always corner me for mistakes I did not make.

Zaki just silently heard my words, I shook my head revealing that I was very disappointed in him.

I immediately left the room and went out, my head hurts so much to even just talk longer with zaki, I need a little calmness.