The End of Hope
34 Eps. Giving Up is Simple

Naya turned her head for a moment and answered lazily.

"Now it's not too late, it's only ten in the night. And I came home because I wasn't picked up by Kanda. So long wait ojek." said Naya and immediately entered the room daj closed it.

He felt no need to defend himself in front of Yola. I don't know what Yola thinks of her, she doesn't want to prolong the problem. Although his heart aches seeing all these things, he can't be angry, right?

He saw how Rudian helped to tidy up Yola's belongings and spend time together, in his room.

Naya felt no need to cry anymore, had she cried this time and her eyes were swollen, then she would have been thought to be a weak woman. Not at all not. Crying is not because of weakness, but because it is one way to make the heart relieved.

Although women are known to be weak creatures, and it is natural to cry, but Naya will not show it in front of Yola. He must be strong. He just wanted to show that he was okay.

"Naya, are you asleep?" rudian said as he opened the door of Naya's room.

Rudian stroked Naya's face gently. Make sure his wife is asleep. If Naya is asleep then she will sleep with Yola. He just doesn't want to bother Naya. Because if Naya isn't angry, then it's already very good for her. Rudian looked quite tired today, until he fell asleep next to Naya, in his own room.

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In the morning, Naya woke up with Rudian by her side, bending her body tightly, making her smile bitterly. He was happy because Rudian chose to sleep with him. Although they did nothing but sleep, it made Naya feel that Rudian still valued her.

"Wake, Kanda. It's dawn." said Naya while shaking her husband's body. The sound of the alarm sign at dawn was almost coming from behind Naya's phone.

"Hmm.." said Rudian still closed, he only moved a little to the side. Then I asked, "are you praying now?" Naya nodded. And Rudian smiled faintly. Still sleepy.

Before Rudian married Yola, he was a little impatient that Naya was menstruating. He will often ask if Naya has finished her period? But since Yola was present at her wedding, Rudian no longer asked about this, he already had a woman who could serve him when Naya was unable to.

"Hooeek..hooeek!" there was a loud noise from outside the door, a voice like a person vomiting.

Rudian immediately rushed out by throwing away his sleepiness. Maybe because this was a new experience for him so he looked so panicked.

'Hey. This is common for pregnant women....!'

"Are you sick? Do I have to go to the doctor?" rudian said while gently massaging Yola's neck in the bathroom. Nothing came out of his mouth

"It's okay. It is common for pregnant women. No need to go to the doctor. It will also disappear if it has been three months" said Naya. He also wanted to fulfill his wish there.

"Have you ever been pregnant. Don't be so damn ignorant!" yola straightened his back.

The two women looked at each other by implying their respective feelings. To Yola, he was unhappy with Naya's words as if he thought her spoiled.

"I've never been pregnant. But I know about it from friends and I read about it on the internet.

" You know, but you've never felt it, have you?" said Yola.

"Easy-after. Let's pray don't make a fuss in the morning."

'You should have known it would be like this if you lived together. Ah, indeed most men if polygamy does not know the knowledge and do not know how. Always demanding understanding from his wife.'

"Awas.." said Naya as soon as Rudian finished speaking. He has been going to the bathroom ever since.

Yola and Rudian moved away, sitting on the sofa waiting for their turn to the bathroom. They look friendly to each other. Rudian rubbed Yola's flat stomach. Yola rubbed Rudian's back gently.

" Ahem!" Naya came out of the bathroom with a thud, gesturing them not to indulge in the affection in front of her. He has a heart too, right?

"You're done?" ask Rudian wrong behavior and pleasantries.

Naya went to her room without looking at Yola. However all Rudian's equipment is in his room, Rudian will certainly meet his needs there more.

Sure enough, finished from ablution and brushing teeth, Rudian to another room to prepare for congregational prayer.

"We pray, the same as Yola" Rudian said while wearing his sarong and cocoon.

'What does it mean, it is better to pray in the mosque for men.'

"It's okay, Nda. Pray in the mosque as usual."

"Jamaah, let it be more familiar" Rudian said.

'What does Akrab mean? The familiarity of the polygamous woman is as clear as the washing water of rice.'

"Are you familiar?" asked Naya, a little surprised. Rudian was too hopeful.

"Yes, you have to give up a lot. Yola is pregnant. Moreover, you as the first wife should be able to set a good example."

"Do you think I set a bad example? What's a good example for your second wife?" silent for a moment then said again, "Why should I give up?!"

"Why are you, si. How early in the morning even ngajak quarrel, I just give advice as a husband" said Rudian with a loud voice which of course heard by Yola. The woman seemed to be smiling faintly.

'Well, whoa. So I'm the wrong one here? what did he say, I have to give up? Have I not given up so much? That's right.'

In the end they prayed together as well, after interspersed with drama, Yola returned vomiting which made the prayer late.

No problem for Naya to pray congregation, but actually what he did not willing is Rudian's request to surrender. Does this mean he must be willing if one day he does not get justice as he should? It would be naive if only it were true.

Naya thought in silence, still pensive on the prayer mat. He felt it inappropriate to argue about it while Yola was among them.

Giving up does not mean losing, and giving up to win is a good thing. But in his case, why should he give up? Shouldn't my husband be wiser? Giving up is a high level of science.

'Will I be strong? God, don't I have the same rights? To me, giving up was just a simple word, but to do so, not everyone could.'

Giving up is a special word.

All the pain, disappointment, dissatisfaction, all mixed in his chest. Stiffness, want to spill it in the form of crying, complaining and grieving but can not.

It feels like Naya borrowed the power of the wind to expel all Rudian's indifference to his feelings, then destroy the wisdom of all men in women, or become a nail that clawed the selfishness of the husband to his wife.

But isn't Yola also a woman, who has the same feelings as her? Ahq...

Yola should also understand, what if she was treated the same way as this by others. A grudge? This is one of the things that is forbidden by religion.

It feels bad Naya just sits on the floor alone in the living room which increases its function into a prayer room. Naya tidied up her prayer utensils and went to the kitchen to wash clothes. If he gets an afternoon ship, then he will wash his clothes in the morning, if the ship time is morning, he will wash at night.

As he looked at his basket of clothes, he noticed that there were some clothes that he did not know who belonged to. Her thoughts were about Yola's clothes a few weeks ago.

'This... Yola's shirt?'

'You....!" Naya screams at the next room that is now Yola's room. Since the end of the morning prayer, her husband entered the room while holding Yola who looked limp, and until now Rudian had not come out.

'Should I wash her clothes too? Won't be!'