The End of Hope
67 Eps. Make Peace With the Situation

Naya smiled in response to Rudian's invitation. For Naya, actually they had indirectly been referred to, when they were hugging each other yesterday and being nice to each other. But maybe Rudian needed some firmness to convince himself.

"Yes, I understand." replied Naya as she tidied up the pillow and bolted and sat down next to Rudian.

'Even so, all will not be the same as before, when my heart has not been hurt. Especially after I left, maybe Yola's sleeping here'

"Don't think about Yola. Let him give in this time," Rudian said as if understanding what Naya was thinking. Hearing that, Naya smiled again as she looked at Rudian with a look of disbelief.

"You think Yola wants to do what I did? Just look at it later."

'And what would you do if Yola rejected you. Are you going to defend me this time?'

"Yes, I will defend you later," Rudian said with a close eye, again Naya did not know if she was sleeping or getting a pinch.

Naya was normal when Yola came and she was still sitting by Rudian's side on the bed she used to sleep with her husband. Yola knew Rudian was coming home from the hospital today. It was just that he had not expected to see Naya sitting on that bed in an intimate position with Rudian.

Naya immediately put down her cell phone, when she saw Yola enter the house without saying hello and now she was standing by the bed, their gaze met with a hot gaze that came out of each other's hearts. It was as if the sight contained fire.

"You? How dare you sit there, that's my bed!" yola said in a high tone. Hearing Yola say so, Naya chuckled and replied,

"Hey, that's also my bed, even before there's you." getting out of bed and staring back at her phone screen trying not to care about Yola's next distraction.

Naya walked out of the room to prepare dinner for Rudian and also ablution, the time of magrib will soon arrive.

"You did take care of Bang Rudi, but you can't do anything here. You're not his wife anymore" said Yola following Naya.

"Eh, Yola. Eat there. This is food from sister Sania. There are still many," Naya replied out of Yola's statement.

"I'm not hungry."

" Whoa, nice dong. So I can eat more" Naya replied as she took the food into the tray.

" Yeah! Are you pretending to be deaf?!"

Naya, laughing again, calmed down by taking a deep breath, "Yola," he said, stopping his activities to take the rice. Then he said, "Rudian has asked me to refer. I accept it, that I may be free to take care of it until it heals or God wills otherwise for it. So I'm gonna sleep in that room or you're gonna take care of her the night she needs something. How's it?"

"What does that mean, referent? This is impossible. What about Dero, if you sleep there?"

"Where do I.he's a man, can sleep on the couch right?"

'Ahk, yes... O Allah, there are men not muhrim living here'

Yola was silent, she could not get up at night to take care of Rudian, she would be too tired after a long day of work. But giving that place away was also not willing. Moreover, he pityed Dero if every night had to sleep on the sofa. Irritatedly he stepped back into the room, he approached Rudian.

"You're just a hassle." Yola said as she folded her hands in front of her chest. But then he sat down near Rudian and clasped his hand. Then said,

"Get well soon, so we can be together as usual. We haven't eaten out in a long time."

"Just do good to Rudian if you still feel at home in this house," said Naya who turned out to be in the room while carrying a tray containing food and medicine Rudian. His face was also wet from the water.

Yola did not respond to Naya's remark, she came out after taking a quick glance at Naya. Adzan magrib began to reverberate. Naya first pray. When finished, he cleansed Rudian to be holy from uncleanness, after which let him pray alone while lying down. Naya just waited for him to finish after it helped him eat and take medicine.

"Let me eat alone without being fed" Rudian said after finishing the prayer and Naya offered the food on her plate. Naya helps Rudian sit down and eat by himself. Such was Naya's activity in caring for Rudian from morning until tonight.

Yola had finished bathing and eating, she was about to take a nightgown when she saw Naya sleeping on her side with one hand over her husband's chest.

"Hey, Naya. Do you realize this room is not your own room and I also have the rights to this room?"

Hearing Yola sound loud enough, Naya gestured for no fuss by keeping her index finger on her lips.

"Sstt..noisy! Let Rudian sleep." said Naya. Then he got off the bed slowly and he came out of the room.

Yola changed her clothes, with the nightgown she used to wear. Then Naya sat on the sofa. Tonight the bed business must be finished. Naya must decide when she will take her clothes at the boarding house or not.

Naya only has one shirt she brought yesterday. Coincidentally Naya has a habit of always carrying spare clothes, since the rain event in the parking lot at that time. So, when he was forced to stay overnight in the hospital, he already had a spare suit for today. But for tomorrow, there's nothing or he has to bring his suitcase back.

"So you slept in my room tonight?" yola said, sitting in front of Naya while crossing her legs.

Coincidentally, Dero came in on a Rudian bike and entered without saying hello.

"Dero, it is better if anyone enters the house, especially the house of others, must say hello. Let the devil not come in here!" said Naya.

"Here, don't shy away from your problems, Nay!"

"I'm not avoiding. Just saying just know if your sister's habit if you want to enter the house must greet."

"So, what's the answer, you want to sleep with Rudi?" ask Yola.

Dero frowned at the chatter of two women sitting opposite each other. He sat on the sofa between the two of them.

"So Mbak Naya now lives in this house again?" tanya Dero doesn't seem to like it.

"Dero, bang Rudi is home and needs people to take care of him, so Naya is here for brother!" said Yola.

Naya laughed, laughing at herself as well as Yola's words. How could he consider others to be that low? What if he had the same action? The eye of karma, that is, karma has eyes, is observing every action of a person to be reciprocated in accordance with his actions.

"Yola, Rudian has already referred to me. I went back to being the owner of the house and the room" Naya said after stopping laughing, then looking at Dero as she said, "Dero, you can stay here, but there's no bed left, so if you want to stay here you have to sleep on the couch or share a room with Yola. Okay?"

So he finally accepts that he has to share a room with Yola. At the boarding house he always shared with his sister. So he got used to it, only he was less free because there was Naya. Moreover, she was increasingly disappointed because her sister was unable to take care of her own husband because she was tired of working.

That's how it ended up, Naya slept in her old room with Rudian sometimes waking up just making sure Naya was next to her. Once he can see Naya's face then he will fall asleep again, unless he needs something or needs to change the diapers only.

-

That day, Naya asks Sarita to look after Rudian, as she is about to go ask him something to check with the nearest midwife. Think about it a little disturbed because it is now almost two months he did not get his period. He always had his guests on time. Two days late from the calculation is reasonable.

Sarita has arrived when Naya has been neatly packed. He took his wallet from his suitcase. Since he had brought his luggage and belongings from the boarding house, he had not moved them from there, his closet was already full of Yola's stuff and clothes, he had only kept a few clothes in the drawer near the sofa.

"Why do you keep your stuff in the trunk, Nay?" ask Sarita. Naya smiled and replied,

"What's wrong, ma'am. Not enough closet. The drawers and small cabinets over there are already used for Dero's stuff."

"Yes, later I bring a small closet from home, let Bastian bring if you want to see his sister."

"Yes, Bastian's brother hasn't been here in a week. If you want to come here, take Sania, ma'am." said Naya.

"Yes, I'll tell Bastian. What do you want to do to the doctor?"

"What's wrong, ma'am. It's just a check, I got a stomachache from yesterday. I'm afraid I have stomach acid. So just wanna know."

"Yes already. Careful."

Naya went to use the ojek to get to a place that has been a long time so he checked his health during his stay there. It's a simple clinic. But it is quite crowded, in addition to the affordable consultation rates, the attending physician is friendly.

Naya sits in front of a beautiful midwife and is familiar with herself, Naya opts for a consultation with mother and child services. Naya recounted her complaints, that she had not gotten her period, she had her last period for a week before parting ways with Rudian and until now she had never had sex with anyone again. Naya recounts her unusual state of her last period. Then the midwife suggested that Naya do a testpack right then and there.

How shocked Naya was when she got the result, and it turned out positive, she was pregnant! Midwives advise to do ultrasonography for more details, because several times the blood spots in the first trimester pregnancy are very worrisome.

Because of high curiosity and also a sense of happiness that arouses, Naya immediately enrolled herself to an obstetrician who is also in the same health clinic. Her face looked cheerful, as cheerful as the faces of mothers waiting in line for their turn, full of gratitude.

She did not expect to get a chance like this as well eventually, although she was not accompanied by her husband like other mothers, she was already very happy. His mouth did not stop uttering the feeling of gratitude, with hope, all was well.

'Didn't have to call Rudian, ahk.he couldn't take the call himself. It'll trouble mom. I'll tell him directly later'

Until Naya's turn, the doctor was also a sweet female doctor, she smiled at Naya's complaints and she asked Naya to do the next examination.

"Mom, Naya," said the doctor softly and kindly. And talk while showing a picture that is not clear to Naya.

"Mother is pregnant, this is the baby's candidate," showed a small blurred dot on the screen that was quite large, but still Naya did not understand, the image was unclear.

"But unfortunately the prospective fetus in the mother's womb does not develop, the gestational age of the mother is about eight weeks, if it develops well, then the shape will be like this," the doctor showed a picture on the wall of the consultation room.

The deg! Naya's heart beat faster, she was not willing to hear the condition of the fetus in her stomach like refusing to live.

'But why, son? Do you know through your mother's feelings that life will be too cruel for you to hold back even before God blows your soul, son?'

Naya's tears trickled down without her noticing. His son even refused to live with him to bear this deep wound.

Naya sat down while wiping her tears. Then he went back to the consultation table and the doctor said again,

"I know, mom must be sad. Moreover, Miss Naya has never been pregnant, ma'am, according to our records?" hearing the question, Naya nodded.

"Mother must do a currate to remove the blood from the mother's womb, because otherwise the blood is frozen and will trigger the onset of other diseases, such as cysts or myoma,"

"Yes, doc. Just do it now. I don't have much time" said Naya, remembering she had to take care of Rudian.

"Mom should fast before doing it, didn't you eat this morning?"

"I happen to have not eaten or drank from last night," Naya Crater, he was too busy taking care of Rudian who was in pain in some parts of his body from last night, so he did not think to eat. Moreover, think also chaotic about coming the moon.

"Then, we can take action now the sooner the better."

The doctor and nurse made preparations while Naya continued to shed tears. Try to be patient again until the end, but I don't know when.

Hasn't everything been written in the lauhmangfhus about all these events since fifty thousand years before the earth was created?

'Son, even before you rejected my own life I was used to giving up my hopes of having you? But this soon you're gone, after I know I have you? Do you live to give me hope? That I could get pregnant someday but not for now'

"Mom, Naya. It's done.." said the doctor, showing blood coming from Naya's womb. Now Naya's cries completely broke, seeing a blood clot as blackish-red as a cut of squid in a round stainlessilver container. That's son! The child who refuses to stay in his home.

After completing all the actions on him, Naya paid his administrative fee. He had already spent some of his savings for this action.

He sincerely, he came out of the clinic with a variety of positive expectations, it is not like others accuse! Moreover, the doctor and also the nurse who treated gave him spirit, hope and do'a kindness for Naya next. He still has plenty of opportunities to have a baby.

Naya gets home After the day starts in the afternoon, Sarita welcomes her with joy. He's been waiting a long time. Naya entered after saying her regards.

"You just got home, Naya? why are you so pale? You're okay, right?" sarita asked when she saw Naya was weak and pale.

Naya did not answer Sarita's question, she entered Rudian's room, sat down by his bedside and clasped his hands.

'Should I say that I'm pregnant but lost a future fetus at the same time that I found out, should I? Will he believe?'

"King..." Naya shed tears.