The End of Hope
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Naya stopped and turned her head, seeing that Ares was already beside her. He still wears a cocoa shirt and a pecinya.
"What's up, sir?" Naya asked as she lowered her gaze, nervously.
"I want to talk to you."
"What's the matter, sir?" Naya said without looking at Ares.
"Why are you always avoiding me?"
The deg! Naya's heart is beating. Not expecting to be asked something like that at this time with circumstances and places that do not deserve to talk about personal things. Ahk, man, why is it always insensitive, si?
"Sorry, Sir. I don't think it's the right time" Naya said as she stepped up, however.
"Until when? What am I wrong?"
Naya frowned when she heard Ares speak. It's not about someone being wrong or not. Some things are sometimes difficult to change, some things are not easily forgotten, some things are also sometimes difficult to leave behind, and some things are also sometimes incomprehensible, but only need to be sabari. Naya sighed deeply, still not looking at Ares then said,
"Sir Ares is not wrong ... ?" Naya was silent again, the sentence that came out hanging in the air.
'But I was wrong in judging the situation, so forgive me'
"But __" said Naya disconnected again
"But what? Can't you forget your husband?"
Naya shook her head. Not about that either. Because ever since she learned of her husband's illness at that time, she had learned to mengikhlaskan. She was ready when her husband left. Every time Rudian came to his senses from his sleep, and asked who you were, or said forgive me. He had forgotten Rudian, but he had not forgotten his pain.
"Sir, I'll talk to you later. But not now." said Naya firmly, and left Ares who was staring at Naya's back with a clueless look. He is not ready to say the reason.
Without them realizing there was a pair of eyes that saw and heard what they were talking about from behind the door, she was Rasti, the woman seemed to be sighing deeply.
That day Naya spent time with Dinda's family playing with Yoni and Raya, teaching her some things to sing along with. Naya had already relieved Ares's duties that day as her nanny. Rasti looked at all the events in his house with a feeling of excitement and joy. It's been a long time since this atmosphere disappeared.
Rasti wants to talk to Naya for one thing and a certain purpose, but Ares repeatedly holds her mother back, not saying anything about the match with Naya, because she thinks it's not time yet.
He invites his mother to enjoy the development that exists until God's destiny brings them to His terms, while continuing to hope that there is someone, who is right to replace Nindy as his daughter-in-law.
In the past, when the family married Ares to Nindi, in the house it was like getting a blessing for kindness, and the breadth of Nindy's religious knowledge was better than theirs. Remember, all in the house were converts who were thirsty for knowledge about religion.
Ares converted when he was ten years old when his parents received Hidayah from God by accident. Yes, they are all converts, except for Dinda, who was born after both Ares' parents had embraced Islam, therefore Dinda has a good name, namely Dinda Fauziyah. The name Ares which cannot be changed in his birth certificate, remains Ares Jonathan, however he has a hijrah name given by usradz who guides them is Fanan, which means different.
That's how their lives went as Muslims, until then Ares became an adult and had a permanent job, then Ares was betrothed by an Ustaz who became a guide or teacher of religion to his father and mother. Nindi is the son of the old friend.
Ares's parents received guidance when they traveled to several countries. At that time they saw and knew several countries that had different religions, different books, with different languages. But one thing they understand is that in each country there is one religion that has a book with the same language, namely Islam. Once they were eating, and resting in a restaurant located in front of a building, it turned out that the building was a mosque. They listened to a Dzuhur adhan at that time, which made the father of Ares realize that the voice of the call of worship from the religion was the same call wherever they were. The call has not changed, even though the countries have different languages.
This is the beauty and glory of Islam that shows the perfect majesty of aharan. Until finally they were called to learn this religion better, and Allah guided him to embrace Islam completely.
When getting guidance, and both parents ares become a Muslim, it becomes not easy for them, because then they get challenges and obstacles that many, including , ''em ,the family relationship was broken by his relatives and relatives, until the position of Ares' parents who were originally the leaders of a family company was revoked. Then they pioneered his business from the bottom and returned to success until now they became entrepreneurs procurement of electronic tools and had several merchant kiosks in a market in the city.
Ares chose his own business and work, he did not want to continue his father's business. He wanted to be independent and did not want to depend on his parents, so his father gave the management of his company to Dinda, until Dinda who managed it until now.
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That day Naya was sitting in a chair in her house, she was enjoying her time alone. Today he was back at the weekend, last week he was at the home of a warm family who received him with pleasure and joy. But this week he enjoyed it himself, keeping the shop unaccompanied. He gets word that Rama is back in his hometown to see his sick mother, but that also Ida who went to see her mother.
'Why are they so compact anyway?'
To fill her free time, Naya reopened her phone and looked back at the contents of her message, with Ustadzah Hanifah. A few days ago he had asked about his problem facing his situation he had said a little about his feelings, fear, worry, sadness and also feelings of pity and reluctance to leave the children.
About his feelings of fear and worry, Ustadzah Hanifah said that,
"Naya ... eliminate the prejudice that you will get the same fate if later married will get the same fate as the previous man? Aren't they different people? Why don't you pray for a better life with a better person? So take your worries away, and replace them with a sense of gratitude that He has been met with a family that loves you completely."
About the bad memories he always remembered when he saw Ares' face, then the ustdzah's answer was,
"Naya, dear.I have also experienced the same thing, never disappointed with the husband, never disappointed with the circumstances, never disappointed with what was experienced, but then I think, hopefully, what became my experience can be Naya picking up for the next good."
The Ustadzah said that, when he experienced disappointment and sadness, he replaced all those feelings with the opposite feeling.
"Yes, it was a bit difficult indeed .. "so said the ustadah at that time.
He kept talking, often smiling and telling himself that everything was going to be okay. She replaced her feelings of disappointment, by seeking kindness from her husband, by thinking about the good that her husband had done to her, until the thought of kindness covered up her disappointment and sadness.
Likewise with circumstances, think of better circumstances, pleasant circumstances, circumstances that make us grateful, that we have experienced, he said, to be able to cover up the disappointment or sadness of fate that makes us miserable. God sometimes gives a lot of pain to awaken man.
"Nay ... So, when you see the man think good things about himself, do not think sorrow, every time you meet him, think that maybe at that time God is lowering the helper that becomes an extension of His hand. Eliminate the sadness little by little when he sees it, by remembering the good he has done to you."
"So, dear Nayai, from now on you should give yourself a sweet smile, and say that everything will be fine accept all your circumstances and forgive yourself."
Yes, sometimes a selfish man always feels himself right and judging others have been guilty of him, whereas judging others is always wrong is a mistake. So that's the importance of cooling the heart, reconciling the feelings by forgiving himself.
" Thank you ustadzah "That's all Naya said in her reply at that time, which made her realize the mistake until tears.
"Assalamualaikum" a small voice came from outside the door.
Naya looked out from behind her stall and she saw something, which she did not think was in front of her.
"Rich. Yoni.You guys here?" he said shouting while stepping out. Ahk, of course there's the papa, right? It must have been a raya that told her the place, who else if not her.
" Are we interrupting?" said the owner of the heavy voice, as soon as Naya was outside her house.
Naya looks at Ares in class, then shakes her head, while stepping closer to Yoni and hugging him.
He said, "how's the sweet boy, breakfast not yet today?" And the little boy shook his head, and wrapped his two little hands around Naya's shoulders.
"Just Yoyo who was asked what she has not eaten, I was not asked what has not been eaten?" raya
"Sister idi. Is that time for jealousy?" naya said while pinching Raya's nose.
" Here come in." said Raya as she walked and carried Yoni in her carriage.
He sat Yoni on a carpet that lay in his living room, then he went back to get a drink for them. While Naya was in the kitchen, Ares looked around the house, and he found several small containers, made of clay containing a keepsake flower. The container is placed in several corners of the house, even in the middle of the carpet there.
A few nightly plants that are spread out with flower pots and in the yard of his house add a different atmosphere.
Seeing that, Raya whispered something to Ares, it was something she had not told her Papa before. About the customs of Raya that are similar to her mother. After listening to the story of Raya, Ares nodded his head in understanding. He sat cross-legged while leaning his body and folded his hands in front of his stomach.
"Well, does Papa think the same? Yueni can be close to Uma, because she has the same habits mama, if close to Uma also smells like mama."
" Maybe it's just a coincidence." Answer Ares.
"Yes, it could be. But who knows it's destiny." said Raya.
"Ck! little kids know what destiny is" Ares said.
"Father, that's why tell dong!" greater Sahut.
"You know what...?" tanya Naya suddenly appeared while carrying a tray of three glasses of sweet tea.
" You live alone here? Oh yea. Where is Rama's house. He said he lives around here too?" ask Ares.