The Heart When Forced To Share
Fainting Intent

Keenar who is still waiting for her husband to come home feels Was-was. It's been a few days Raihan hasn't come home. When contacted, Raihan only said there was business that he had to finish. But Raihan did not elaborate further, what business he was solving.

Keenar tried to contact Cindy, but from her voice it seemed Cindy was sick. Are you sick or crying? I don't know, Cindy obviously doesn't know where Raihan is. Keenar will ask further but the phone has been turned off first by Cindy. Keenar wanted to contact her in-laws but her courage was suddenly annihilated when she remembered her in-laws' hatred for her.

Keenar tries to believe in his heart, if Raihan does not meet the woman. Raihan will keep his promise. But when he remembered that Vivian was pregnant and claimed that the fetus was Raihan's child, suddenly his heart was pounding and his cold sweat came out. Vivian is not ready to face the fact that Raihan will leave her and choose Vivian.

" No, Mas Raihan will not leave us for that trash, we are more valuable" Inner Keenar.

"But what if it turns out that Raihan chose that woman samp?"

"No need to worry, if Raihan chooses that Samp**, I'll go and bring Zafran. I can also be independent, can stand alone without it. And it can also heal my own wounds"

"Would you be able to do it without him?"

"Can, should be able to. If he doesn't come home tonight, I'll go far and he won't be able to find me, forever*."

The inner voice of Keenar continued to echo in his brain. Finally with a strong determination, Keenar will wait until tonight, if Raihan does not also go home, obviously he has chosen the nala** that.

Keenar waited until 22:00, Raihan did not go home and did not contact him. The patience of Keenar was almost exhausted, with crying Keenar stuffed his belongings into the suitcase. Finished already, he thought.

However, when he saw his sleeping son again, changed his mind again.

"Do I have the heart to separate Zafran and his father? where's heart? why am I being selfish? just thinking about my ego? Zafran still needs his father. "inner Keenar.

He took out his clothes again and arranged them again.

"That kid, what if it happened to me? nobody admits who my son's father is? Have I never felt it? zafran was not recognized by his father. It tastes? so sick. That must have been what jal** felt as well. The law of karma applies. Feel it. But his son's not wrong, he's the son"

"Click Keenar, don't be flabby anymore. Let jal*** it enjoy its karma"

"Wait, Mas Raihan did not recognize his son Zafran, but it was proven that Zafran was his son. Then now the woman claimed the fetus she contained was also the son of Mas Raihan, and Mas Raihan refused to admit it. Isn't it the same? It could be Raihan's kid"

"Indeed bede** once the guy. What if Raihan doesn't want to take responsibility? and the innocent child was aborted? too bad..." Mas Raihan must take responsibility for his actions, do not be a coward"

"If Mas Raihan is responsible means he should marry Jal** that???"

"No, don't be weak Keenar. Don't be mixed. You have to hang on to your prinsil. Don't be mixed!!! "

"But if Raihan can be fair, why not? of course with a written agreement first".

"Don't stupid Keenar, where can any human being be fair? there aren't. You will continue to be hurt by that woman. Let it be, yes it's the consequence of his actions, his own wrong for adultery".

"But if they don't get married, they will continue to fornicate and the next babies will appear.no.no. they must get married!! "

"What about your heart Keenar? stop thinking about other people, now think about your situation first, think about your heart. Ready to share your heart? keenar Weight. Now it's easy to say, but when it's lived. You'll be sorry".

The voices in Keen's heart and mind echoed and made him even more of a dilemma. He threw his suitcase into the corner of the room, and Keenar ran to the bathroom. He ignored the cries of Zafran who was shocked. In the bathroom, Keenar turned on the Shower and soaked her body while crying. Confused, sad, the voice in his heart and brain continued to echo.

The brother of Aminah, who heard Zafran's cries, rushed to the room. At the sight of Zafran crying alone, there was no Keenar. Mbak Aminah raised Zafran and looked for Keenar.

Ma'am Aminah knocked on the bathroom because she heard a noise in the bathroom.

"Mom, this is Zafran crying ma'am" call me Aminah.

There's no answer.

Once again Aminah knocked and called Keenar but still did not answer.mbak Aminah began to panic and ran down to ask for help. Ma'am Aminah was worried, something happened to Keenar.

Luckily, Keenar's parents visited Keenar's house.

"Assalamualaikum.." Greetings Keenar's mother.

"Waalaikumsalam.alhamdulillah eyeang Zafran come, it please bu Keenar"

"What's wrong mbak? why panic like that? what's up with Keenar?" Cecar Keenar's mother.

"Bu Keenar is in the bathroom but not out-of-eye. I'm afraid something's going on" Ms. Aminah panicked.

"How Canaaa...." Kenar's father and mother ran straight to Keenar's room.

"Kee, honey, this is my dad and mom. Open the door" mother pinta.

"Kee, why are you, son? Keeeeee" father banged on the bathroom door.

Impatient and afraid of anything happening, Mr. Keenar immediately broke down the bathroom door. And he saw Keenar lying unconscious in the bathroom drenched.

"Yes Allah Kenar.

"Come, ma'am, help foster Mr. Keenar"

After the mother replaced the wet Keenar shirt, the mother asked Aminah.

"Actually what's the problem with Keenar? How did it get like this?" ask mother.

Mbak Aminah who does know the outline of her employer's problem, chose silence. He felt it was not his capacity to tell that even to Keenar's parents. Ma'am Aminah chose to answer not knowing.

"Sorry eyang Zafran, I don't know what's wrong with Kenar ma'am. But lately, Keenar ma'am is more daydreaming and often confine himself in the room. I came here because Zafran was crying long and hard. I thought Zafran fell, but it turned out Zafran was alone in bed, Keenar ma'am wasn't there. I tapped on the bathroom, there was no answer. Fortunately, Eyang came. Otherwise I am confused how to do" said Mbak Aminah at length.

"Where's it?" ask father.

"Anu eyang kakung, Raihan sir has not come home for a few days" Mbak Aminah spoke honestly.

"There must be a problem between these two. There is no way Keenar like this if there is no problem" said the father.

I just nodded and stroked Keenar's pale face and looked thin, very different at the last time I visited here.

Mother sighed and thought that the problem her daughter was facing must have been very heavy.