The Last Love of My Life
Nadhira or the baby

Rifki then carried Nadhira's body and took him out of the car, he then laid his body on the bench that had been provided for Nadhira before with slowly land.

"Please save my wife" Rifki said.

"We will try our best"

They then brought Nadhira into the ER and immediately followed by Rifki and Bayu, a female doctor immediately checked the condition of Nadhira, and then she was followed by Rifki and Bayu, he was so surprised when he found out that the condition of the fetus in Nadhira's stomach did not respond to it at all.

"We must immediately perform surgery, to remove this fetus, we ask for approval from you sir" said the Doctor to Rifki.

"Is there no other way than that Doc? Please save them both" Rifki said.

"Don't do that! I don't want my son why" cried Nadhira hysterically.

"There is no other choice sir, if the fetus is not removed then the mother cannot be saved, it may be a difficult choice, between her child or her mother"

Hearing that made Rifki's heart ache, where he was faced with two choices that were very difficult for him, saving Nadhira or the child in Nadhira's womb at this time, nadhira's screaming voice increasingly tormented his raging feelings.

"Well, do whatever is best for my wife Doc, please save my wife Doc" Rifki said in tears.

"No Rif! You have to save our son hiks.hik do not do that, I beg you" Shouted Nadhira who disagreed with Rifki's decision.

"I'm sorry Dhira, I'm sorry" Rifki's tears can no longer be contained.

"I beg you to save our son Rif, let him see the world of hiks..hiks..he is innocent, why do you want him dead, please Rif do not neglect that I beg you"

"I'm sorry Dhira, I don't want to lose you baby, I'm sorry"

"So please sign this file sir, so we can immediately perform the operation" said the Doctor and immediately gave a map and pen to Rifki.

"No Rif, don't do that I beg you, our son's life is worth more Rif, don't sign it, you're killing our son!"

"I'm sorry Dhira, I can't see you're gone, you mean so much to me"

"You evil Rif! I hate you! I hate you so much!"

Rifki clasped the pen tightly in his hand, without lingering any longer he signed the dossier with a heavy heart, the heartbreaking scream from Nadhira made it very heavy to do that, but he couldn't lose Nadhira's figure this fast.

"No!!!" Shouted Nadhira when he saw Rifki start signing the dossier.

"Do your best for my wife Doc, I will pay anything as long as my wife is safe" Rifki said, handing over the dossier.

"I hate you Rifki! You have killed my son hiks..hiks... I will never forgive you, I hate!" Nadhira continued to rebel with clenched hands.

Nadhira did not allow a nurse to inject him because he was sure that if he was hit by the injection then the life of his son would be lost right away and it made the hospital in distress.

Seeing that also made Rifki immediately dropped her body to hug Nadhira so that the sisters can perform follow-up actions for Nadhira, getting a hug from Rifki makes Nadhira continue to hit Rifki's body so that Rifki immediately release him.

Rifki did not care at all about the pain he was feeling at the moment, not only because of Nadhira's punch but also because of the stitch wound on his back, sobs began to be heard from the mouth of Rifki who was hugging Nadhira.

Nadhira continuously beat Rifki to get Rifki away from his body, he was very angry with Rifki because of the decision he had taken without thinking about his feelings, he was very angry with Rifki, losing a child in the womb is very painful for him.

"I'm sorry baby, I don't want to lose you, please understand Dhira, I will never be able to live without you, forgive me" Rifki said in Nadhira's ear sobbing.

"Why do you have to kill our son Rif, let him see the world, it's not fair to him, he's both of us, why would you do this to him? Why Rif? Why?"

"I don't have any other choice Dhira, I don't want to lose you so soon, I don't want to"

"I hate you, Rif, hate you so much now, I will never forgive you until ever, you have killed him, our innocent baby"

"I'm sorry baby, I'm sorry, you have to survive Dhira, I don't want to lose you just like that, I don't want to"

"I'll never forgive you Rif, you're evil! I hate you, I don't want to live without my son, I hate, I hate you so much Rifki, I don't want to live anymore"

"Don't leave me Dhira, I beg you, you should be fine for me, I don't want to lose you Dhira"

"I don't want to live without my son, you're evil, you want my son dead, I hate you Rif, hate you so much"

"I'm sorry Dhira, I'm selfish this time"

"Hiks.hiks... hiks..you are evil to me Rif, I do not want to see you again, I hate you Rif, hate you so much" The speech was very torturous for Rifki who is now hugging him.

"Dhira understands my feelings right now"

"You never understand me, Rif, the kid I've been taking good care of, you just killed him"

"It's for your own good, Dhira, you should be fine"

"To what you mean, you kill him when he can see the world"

Nadhira also felt a syringe piercing the skin of his hand, the liquid immediately made Nadhira's head feel dizzy and heavy, his vision began to twitch fireflies at this time.

"I hate you Rifki" Nadhira said before he was completely unconscious because of the influence of drugs.

"Dhira's..."

Slowly Nadhira's body land was weakly decomposed on the hospital bench, seeing it also made Rifki release his embrace from Nadhira's body very heavy, with a very heavy, Rifki glanced at Nadhira who closed his eyes before the hospital took him inside the operating room.

"Please neglect whatever is best for my wife Doc, I will pay whatever it is as long as my wife is fine" Rifki said.

"We will try our best, the rest only God can save him, pray to Him so that the operation he will undergo will be smooth and he can be saved"

"I'll always pray Doc, please save his life Doc"

The nurses immediately closed the door of the operating room, while Rifki was still standing in front of the door, from a distance, Bayu was standing staring at his friend with tears at the end of his eyes.

*****

Now Rifki and the core of Gengcobra are waiting for Nadhira's operation to walk in front of the operating room, Rifki looked dreamy throughout the hour and he did not want to be disturbed by anyone and preferred to sit alone.

Far from her there were both parents Rifki and her Grandfather who were always waiting for the operation to be completed, the Princess leaned on her husband's shoulders with tears that continued to flow.

Not long after the operating room door was opened, a beautiful nurse opened the room and followed by a Doctor out of it, seeing that made Rifki immediately get up from her seat and get closer to her.

"How's my wife doing Doc?" Rifki asked with a trembling tone as if she was holding back a deep sadness.

"Thank God the operation was successful, because the patient who had only one kidney made us not know when he would be aware, we will move to the ICU room, but sorry the child in the womb must be gone"

At once also Rifki's tears dripped rapidly, the child he had been waiting for was gone, too, hearing that made both parents Rifki then approached her son to calm the man.

"Oh my God, why does this have to happen, where is the body of my son Doc"

The doctor also allowed Rifki to enter the operating room alone, Rifki was wearing an PPE (Self Protective Equipment) before entering the room.

Rifki's body without it was so weak when he saw Nadhira lying there with so many hoses and other medical devices attached to his body, he also approached the baby box which was not far from where he stood, where his lifeless son was.

There was an innocent little baby wrapped in a blanket, his body trembled violently when he saw it until there was a soft but full of sadness from Rifki's mouth at this time.

"My son" Only that speech could be heard from his mouth softly.

Rifki also approached the baby Box to see the tiny innocent baby, the baby was very small and still red, Rifki did not have the heart to see it until his tears continued to fall there.

"My son is gone"

His hands trembled when he touched the baby box, unable to hold back his tears anymore, his chest felt tight when he looked at the tiny body that was not breathing, his heartache that he felt at this time, his heart ache, and also his body that looks limp after seeing the baby.

"I'm sorry Papa Nak, forgive Papa's negligence so that you must be gone before you can see the beauty of the world, the paradise of your best place, son, forgive Papa yes"

Rifki could not hold back her tears that continued to fall, Rifki's face was flushed with sweat that soaked her body because of crying, because the duration of crying made the man's face reddened.

"I'm sorry baby, maybe my decision will make you hate me, but I don't want to lose you Dhira, I'm sorry" Rifki said as she stared at the weakly lying Nadhira.

Both Rifki's parents immediately took care of the death of Rifki's child so that Rifki was immediately allowed to bring the baby home for immediate burial, while Nadhira was immediately moved in the ICU room.

Rifki clutched her baby body with the blanket wrapped in her chest, she walked down the hospital hallway followed by Bayu and Reno behind her, the man's face looked exhausted and both eyes looked very good looking straight ahead.

Rifki's view seems to be empty, he must accept the fact that his son who had been waiting for it was gone, Bayu who was behind him was able to feel the sadness experienced by Rifki.

*****

Rifki and the members of Gengcobra are now burying the baby, seen Rifki is so injured at this time because his view will look at the emptiness in front of him, it was as if his passion for survival had vanished from his body.

The tiny baby was buried next to Theo, apparently the members of the Gengcobra had finished burying the deceased Theo and other members of the Gangters who had died, Rifki stared nanar at his son's grave and alternately looked at Theo's tomb.

"Sorry Papa Nak, Theo please take care of my son there yes, forgive me for not being able to take care of him properly, you must be very angry with me at this time because I cannot take good care of my son, I'm sorry" Rifki said, kneeling in front of Theo and his son's grave.

Rifki was not stopping to say sorry to the two tombs, he did not forget to pray for both of them to be happy in His heaven, seeing Rifki who never got up from his knees it made Bayu come closer to him and patted twice on his shoulder.

"Rifki don't get too late in the grief, I know what you feel right now Rif, you have to be strong for Nadhira who is in the hospital, if you are weak then how can Nadhira be strong? You are the only power he has Rif, you must rise for his sake" said Bayu and immediately squat beside Rifki.

"Nadhira would have hated me Bay, hated the decision I had taken, I couldn't stand it"

"Rif I know that she'll hate you because you saved her not the baby, but you also have to be strong because you're her strength right now"

"You're right Bay"

Rifki also rose from his knees followed by Bayu, where it was an empty land purchased by Bayu for the private burial of members of the Gengcobra and Rifki's extended family, the plan of Sarah's tomb will be moved to that place as well.

"Let's go to Bay Hospital" Rifki said after offering prayers for everyone buried there.

"Rest at home first Rif, we treat the wound on your back first" said Bayu who saw blood spots in the Rifki that had dried up.

"I want to see Nadhira"

"Later Rif, I don't want our leader why napa, we should treat first after that we go back to the hospital"

"I don't care about my wound Bay, it doesn't hurt more than I feel"

"Rif, you have to be strong for Nadhira, he needs you to always encourage him, do you want if Nadhira will recover instead of you who are sick?"

"He hates me Bay"

"That's just a word that comes from a mother who lost her son Rif, she won't be able to hate you, you're the person she loves the most"

"And I'm the one who has taken away the happiness that Bay has, I'm evil, I'm cruel, and I've made him tormented"

"By the trials there was always the guidance of the Rif, maybe now you are tested to fetch the great happiness God created for you someday, you should not give up just like that"

Rifki finally obeyed Bayu's words after Bayu continued to persuade him, the two rushed to Rifki's house to drive the man to his house and treat the wound on his back.

Rifki also undressed after arriving in his room, Bayu also brought a box of P3K that is in the house to treat Rifki's wounds, he then opened the bandage in the body of Rifki slowly land and the bandage looks stiff because of the blood Rifki has dried.

"Your stitch wound is bleeding again Rif" said Bayu.

"Just clean the blood, then bandage it back" Rifki said coldly.

"Yes Rif"

Bayu also took a cloth and then he wet it with water in the bathroom, then he cleaned the blood on Rifki's back slowly, after being exposed to the water made Rifki feel the pain on his back again.

The pain was nothing more than the sadness he felt at this time, he seemed to lose the lamp that always illuminates his day, the lamp is now dim and if exposed to the slightest angis blow will be extinguished.

A drop of Rifki's tears fell, as she recalled Nadhira's previous words that Nadhira hated her so much because she had separated Nadhira from her son, it may look like a cruel father but he will not be able to lose Nadhira.