The Last Love of My Life
Don't go Dhira

Nadhira was still thinking with the voice of Rifki who called out his name, there was a heavy feeling now attacking into his heart and mind at this time, his steps were getting heavier for him, it was getting heavier, because of the sobbing sound of Rifki that he heard.

"Dhira, don't leave me" The voice again could be heard by Nadhira and made her footsteps heavier to step.

"What's up, son? Why stop arriving like this? Let's go again" Sarah asked as she sensed that Nadhira was stopping her steps.

"I heard Rifki's voice, she kept calling me Oma, it seems like I can't leave her"

"Back with him now, son, he needs you so much right now, you still think about him, that's what's damning your move"

"No Oma, I don't want to go back, she's so mean to Dhira"

"Then don't mind the sound again, forget everything about the world, never come back"

"But Oma..."

"If you're feeling heavy, then come back, son, Rifki needs you so much, misses your warm embrace, you're her only encouragement and your work isn't done yet in this world"

"I was worried about Oma, I didn't want to see Rifki again, but my steps were so heavy"

"Think well before we really leave this world"

A few moments later the figure of Sarah disappeared from the view of Nadhira, Nadhira turned to and fro to look for the figure but he did not find it too, suddenly he felt that someone was hugging his legs tightly.

A 6-year-old boy was hanging on his leg, the boy pulled Nadhira's hand, Nadhira then knelt in front of the little boy to align his height with the little boy.

Nadhira looked at the boy in astonishment as the child's face resembled that of a little Rifki, then rubbed the child's head with tears, while the child smiled sweetly at Nadhira.

"Mama" Call the boy to Nadhira.

"Mama? Why do you call me Mama?" Nadhira asked in surprise.

"You are my Mama, forever will be my Mama" the boy said with a kiss on Nadhira's forehead.

The kiss of the child also made Nadhira smile, somehow he felt very happy to meet the figure of the little boy, he did not know who the child was and why the child called him Mama.

"What are you doing, son?" Nadhira asked while holding his forehead which had been kissed just like that by the boy in front of him.

"Giving a symbol of love to Mama, I love Mama so much, I feel lucky to have a Mom like Mama, Mama and Papa are the best people for me"

"Why do you keep calling me Mama? I never gave birth to you, son, who are you?"

"Mama never gave birth to me, but we're so close to Ma"

"Whose name are you, son?"

"I don't have a name yet, you two haven't given me a name, I'm the child in Mama's womb all this time, I've been happy in His heaven Ma, although I've never seen the beauty of the world but I know it's all from Mama's breath that I've felt all along"

Nadhira immediately hugged the child tightly, he shed his tears when hugging the 6-year-old boy, his face similar to the little Rifki made Nadhira more convinced that this was his son.

The age of the child is still only 6 years old, just like the age of Nadhira who just turned 6 months old, Nadhira felt very happy when hugging the little boy in front of him, it was as if the boy was full of warmth.

"Mama don't be sad anymore yes, I don't want to see Mama sad, I will wake up a luxurious house in heaven for you guys later, and I will always wait for the arrival of Mama with Papa there, Papa there, I will be a shield to you from the heat of hellfire"

"Sorry Mama Nak, Mama can't protect you, Mama has failed to be a good parent to you, forgive Mama" Nadhira's tears fell on the little boy's body.

"Mom not wrong, this has been my destiny, I came here to meet Mama, please forgive Papa, Papa is suffering so much now"

"What cares about him, he doesn't even care about us two, son, he has the heart to separate us both, he wants you dead son"

"Papa didn't want that to happen Ma, he said if he could he would give his life for me, but I didn't want that Ma, Papa was a good person for me"

"Just like, your father was wrong, son, he deserves this punishment"

"Papa is not wrong Ma, this is my destiny, God has shown me what my way of life will be like when I was born in the world, I can not afford to see it Ma, Ma, I pray to God because I will not be able to live my life, and God granted it through Papa, you are both good parents to me, but in that life I dared to fight you both and I didn't want that to happen Ma"

"Mama feels guilty about you, son, Mama doesn't want to live without you anymore, we'll be the same towards the afterlife today"

"No Ma, Mama must not end at this time, Mama has a tough task, Mama just calm down, sooner or later your stomach there will be a child who will wipe away every tear Mama"

"Sorry Mama, Mama has sinned against you Son, because Mama you can not see the beautiful world Son, let Mama atone for sin Mana to you Son"

The little boy smiled brightly at Nadhira, seeing that smile suddenly made Nadhira cry more and more so then and there, but the little boy continued to wipe his tears.

"Mama love me?" Ask the boy with a very gentle look.

"Mama loves you very much, son, loves you very much"

"May I ask Mama something? But Mama has to give it to me"

"Say son, if Mama can, Mama will do anything for you"

"Back Ma, Mama's job is not finished in this world, I don't want Mama to leave with regret, pity Papa who is crying at this time"

"Mom can't do that, son, Mama won't go back to the world again, your father is so mean to us, Mama hates him"

"Mama can't possibly hate Papa like that, Mama is just upset over my death, pity Papa who is crying Ma"

"Mama just wants to be with you, son, Mama doesn't want to part with you"

"By returning to the world with Papa, it has made me happy Ma, does Mama not want me to be happy? Listen to Papa's crying voice, he never cried all this time Ma, but this time he cried beside Mama, I was sad to see Papa like that"

"Mama ngak want Nak, Mama already hates her so much, Mama does not want to see your Papa again"

"Don't Ma, if Mama hates Papa I will be sad in his heaven, do you want me to be sad there? It's not all Papa's fault, Papa made that decision because he loves Mama so much"

"Let Mama hold you, son, Mama is eager to hold you, to calm the restless Mama's heart"

"I belong to Mama, forever will be Mama's, Mama can hug me as much as Mama's heart"

Nadhira also tightened his embrace to the little boy, he was able to feel a bond between the two very closely, Nadhira felt very happy when feeling his embrace.

"My son, I'm sorry Mama, I can't protect you properly, I'm sorry Mama can't do anything to save you"

"Your father has chosen a name that suits you before, son, Mama will use that name to name you"

"Who Ma? What name did Papa give me? Turns out Papa gave me a name"

"Arifin, and will be called by the name of Arif, Arif the son of Mama and Papa"

"Great name, thank you Ma, come back Ma, convey my gratitude also to Papa, it's time Arif went Ma, Arif love Mama and Papa, Papa, it's time, Arif will build a magnificent palace for you in His heaven later, Arif said yes Ma, Arif does not have much time to be here"

"Sorry Mama, we're going to go together, son, Mama can't live without you, Mama doesn't want to part with you"

"But Papa really needs Mama, is Mama so happy with her? Poor Papa Ma"

"Mom don't want to see your Dad, Mama will go with you"

"Mama can't be like that"

(Author : Before we were born, we were shown a picture of what we would go through, from birth to death, as long as we are in the womb the angel comes to see us to ask if we can be born, not once or twice the angel asks, but 77 times a day,

Just imagine, every day asked like that many times, but you still force yourself to be born, it means you are able to face your life, you are great because you dare to be born, it means you are able to face your life,

Many foetuses miscarry because they cannot see their way of life, whatever they face, still your spirit is amazingly great, do not give up, let's rise again, let's rise again, patience is added because the world is often joking, he said,

As long as you do not get angry with the Author, the Author is also an ordinary human, inculcate your heart if you are sad "There is something extraordinary in your life, so you are desperate to be born

God gave you great trouble to make you strong, God did not grant your request so quickly that you learn the meaning of patience

No creation of God is in vain, take his wisdom, do not complain, you are brave enough to be born when you know what your life will be like in this world since the womb"

Keep smile, even though the groove makes tears flow, like my love for you guys <3 )

Nadhira hugged the little boy in front of him very tightly, he was very afraid that if he let go of his embrace, the child in front of him would disappear for a long time from his presence, he was very afraid, he didn't want that to happen.

"Mama loves you so much, son, Mama doesn't want to part with you"

"Sooner or later, we will meet again in his heaven, Arif loves Mama and Papa very much"

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Rifki came to Nadhira's face clingy, the face he always missed was now lying weak on the hospital bench, the always cheerful face was lying helpless, helpless, Rifki really misses being with Nadhira all this time.

"Until when are you gonna fall asleep like this, baby? Are you really angry with me? I'm sorry baby, sorry, I'm wrong with you, please forgive me, I'm sorry Dhira, I'm sorry"

Rifki looked at a monitor located not far from Nadhira, he saw the line there as if it was beating for so long, he stuck his ear to Nadhira's chest and felt his heartbeat.

Nadhira's heartbeat slowed down and it made Rifki immediately panicked to see the condition of his beloved wife, he then pressed the emergency button near him repeatedly, several hospital staff came to check on him.

"Dok, the pulse is getting weaker, please do something for her Doc" Rifki said frantically.

"I'll check first"

The doctor approached Nadhira and looked at the monitor located near the hospital bed, he also pointed a flat object to Nadhira's chest to check Nadhira's heartbeat.

"Sus take further action! His pulse is getting weaker, we must immediately save him" the doctor ordered when he felt Nadhira's heartbeat getting weaker.

"Sir, please come out first" said the nurse drove Rifki away from the room.

"Please save Nadhira, I beg you" Rifki said with a trembling body.

With a heavy heart Rifki leaves the room to let the Doctor and the sisters work to save Nadhira's life, The doctor then turned on the AED (automated external defibrillator) device used to give a shock to Nadhira's heart to return to a normal beat.

Dugs... Dugs... Dugs...

The doctor several times attached the tool to Nadhira's chest but Nadhira did not give a good response at all, the slow pace was experienced by Nadhira's body but Nadhira's heartbeat never returned to normal.

"Mbak, Mbak defending, Mbak must fight against the critical period Mbak" Shouted the Doctor.

"Doc, the patient is not at all willing to respond"

"He's like he has no hope of living again, we have to try to save him! Mbak must fight against this critical condition Mbak, Mbak must be able to! Don't give up like this"

Nadhira did not want to give a response at all, as if his life was no longer meaningful so that Nadhira did not want to try to get out of the critical period.

Several times the doctor attached a device to spur the heart but the results are still the same and even the heartbeat was getting weaker, Nadhira did not want to listen to the call from Rifki.

His pulse weakened so much that everything in that place immediately panicked and struggled to restore his heartbeat back to normal as before.

*****

"What's wrong with Dhira?" Ask the Princess when she saw the Doctor and some sisters running around to enter the ICU room.

Shortly afterwards Rifki came out of the room with tears soaking her cheeks, as if she would have no hope of survival.

Seeing Rifki makes the Princess immediately rushed to meet her son, when the Princess asked Rifki precisely it made Rifki dropped her body on the Princess' legs arrived.

"What happened to Dhira, say son" said the Princess worried because of her son's attitude.

"He punished me like this Ma, he punished me so cruelly, he was so angry with me Ma, he didn't even open his eyes, he wanted to leave Rifki, please don't take him away from me Ma, save him, Rifki beg you" Rifki kneels in front of the Princess.

Seeing that made the Princess crouched in front of Rifki and hugged the child's body tightly, the sound of sobs Rifki like a lash for the Princess, and the sound of sobbing, Aryabima and Haris who were not far from him also wiped his tears several times because they did not want to look weak in front of Rifki and Princess.

"Well you know how you feel, son, it will be difficult for Nadhira to accept that, we can only pray that Nadhira is okay" The princess who was not strong to hear the cries of her son was also sobbing softly.

"Why would he punish Rifki like this Ma? Why did he have so much heart to Rifki, Rifki wrong Ma, but why did he punish Rifki so heavily? Rifki doesn't want to live anymore Ma, Rifki wants to be with her"

"Dhira must be fine, Mama is very sure that she is a strong woman"

"If Rifki's drought is what he wants, why not just get up and kill Rifki Ma, why should he be injured like this, Rifki would like to replace Nadhira's current position"

"Don't tell me it's son, Dhira doesn't like you talking like that the most, trust Mama that she'll be fine"