The Last Love of My Life
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When happiness goes away for a long time from this world, it feels like this world he does not want at all. No one was able to make it to survive, no one was able to make it excited in living that life, and there was no longer any desire to be able to continue living longer.

"Where are you, baby, why did you leave me so soon? Are you no longer willing to live with me in this world?"

There was no more happiness, no more joy, no more hope, no more laughter, no more laughter, and there was no longer a figure capable of making him survive. Now everything has vanished and disappeared along with the figure of Nadhira who fell to the brink of death.

There is nothing left in his feelings, only fragility that without knowing when will rise again, could he be able to rise to become the figure of the previous Rifki or himself follow the departure of Nadhira? Everything was just a game of fate toying with his current feelings.

Rifki was really fragile this time, no one was able to make her smile again like before. He did not think that he would lose Nadhira forever, he did not expect that soon his beloved wife left him alone in this world.

He wanted to be angry, but who was he angry with? He wants to express all his feelings of sadness, but who is the same? His life is really falling at the moment. Being in a coma is bad luck for him, when he has to lose the person he loves the most.

Aryabima, who was always there for her, supported her every step of the way, accompanied her time of grief and suffering, always guiding her with love and affection, and always asking for it and teaching it the truth is now gone forever.

The land where Aryabima was buried began to dry up a little because of the length of time Rifki was conscious. Rifki had not had time to come to that place before, because since returning from the hospital he wanted to immediately return home and away from the crowd.

Nadhira, who always makes her laugh, always protects her when she is in danger and becomes the first shield to guard her, who always accompanies her and loves her whole heart, supporting her in making a choice, and even being the only reason to stay alive is no longer in this world.

"Why should this happen to the people I love? Why don't I die to take their place, Dhira take me with you. Your dream is real, baby, you want to die before me, so you never feel what I feel. You know that this parting was so painful, that you chose to leave before me,"

Rifki also massaged his forehead that felt very painful, suddenly his head seemed to want to break at that moment. Nadhira's departure in his life really made him tormented, he did not even want to linger long in this cruel world.

The shadow of Nadhira still plastered clear in his memory, he approached the nightstand next to his bed to look at the face of his beloved wife. In the photo is seen the face of Nadhira who is very happy together with Rifki.

"Where are you? Why did you leave me so soon?"

Rifki rubbed the picture frame slowly, he felt a very deep loss. By accident he saw something coming out of the drawer, he wanted to justify it and put it neatly.

When he opened the drawer, involved a gift box that had been prepared by Nadhira before to surprise their 1st wedding anniversary. Rifki took out the box and put it on her thigh.

"What'sthis? Since when is this here?" Ask Rifki who knows.

Rifki also opened it because of his curiosity, he saw a dress that had been neatly arranged there and engraved the name 'Kinara' in the snow, it made him shed tears. There was a sense of tightness in his heart when he saw the shirt, he took it out of the box he was holding.

There was a letter between the folds of the shirt, Rifki took it. Rifki then opened a piece of paper that was deliberately written by Nadhira before, and he read it slowly.

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For my beloved Rifki

Heppy's 1st anniversary, baby

Dear Rifki, thank you for being present in my life all this time. Being a good priest and always guiding me tirelessly, you always make me happy and only you can understand me.

Likes and sorrows we have gone through together, my love for you is so great it is not even able to be written in words. Thank you, you are the best husband for me, hugging me warmly when I am sad, and kissing me affectionately when I am happy.

Rifki, I love you so much and will forever be like that, on the day our marriage took place that time, you have accepted me for who I am. Teach me many things, you are the best priest for me who is able to draw near to my Lord.

Hopefully in the future, our love and affection will never go away. Even though our bodies will be separated, but rest assured that I will always love you and only you are in my heart, and may you too.

Oh yeah, I prepared this surprise for you a long time ago. I know you're too tired to work to support me, maybe this little surprise from me will treat your tiredness dear. I hope you like it baby, the gift is in this little box, and thanks for reading it, I hope that I will get a kiss from you right now.

From your beloved wife, Nadhira

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And Nadhira's last hope will never be realized at this time, Rifki is late to open the surprise so that Nadhira has left for good. He also clasped tightly onto the shirt that said 'Kinara', there was a feeling lost in his heart.

"Dhira, forgive me for not being the best for you. I'm sorry for not being able to save you that time, I didn't think that on our wedding day, you just left me forever. Come back baby, give me a clue where you are, come back for me baby,"

Tears continued to pour and wet the clothes in his hand, his hand shook to take the small box mentioned in the letter by Nadhira. He opened it slowly and there was a test subject that contained two lines there, he took the long small object and held it with both hands.

"Dhira's pregnant?"

The question was as if it would make his heart like slashed sepat sembilu, the surprise that should make him happy was immediately made him feel even more sad because of the absence of Nadhira beside him at this time.

He was too late to save Nadhira's life, so Nadhira had to fall from the cliff with the child in his stomach at that time. Rifki really lost her dream to be able to raise the child together with Nadhira.

*Flash back on*

"Why are you smiling like that alone? Is there something you're hiding from me?" Rifki asked who saw Nadhira smiling as she finished cleaning her body after work.

"Nothing, you will know for yourself, baby, if the time has come. You will definitely be a very happy person" said Nadhira as he rose from his seat to get closer to Rifki who was only wrapped in a towel.

"Hmmm... What's the matter? For me, being with you next to me makes me the happiest person in the world,"

"You can do it, Rif. Oh yes, soon our wedding anniversary, right? Have you prepared a surprise for me? I hope you don't forget yes" Nadhira said with a frown.

"How could I forget, baby? I've prepared a special surprise for you, you'll know what I'll give you when that day comes."

"really? What surprise is that?"

"Secret dong, if I say it so no secret again. Have you prepared a surprise for me, baby? Watch out if you forget, I won't forgive you and I will punish you for not being able to walk again,"

"You're being punished now? I'm ready,"

"No! I'm hungry, I want to eat your cooking, baby. Make it!" Nadhira's orders.

"I change clothes first, cook out of the room with a towel only anyway? It's funny, honey. What is there will make Bi Sari crazy, your husband is sturdy," said Rifki arrogantly.

"Dare to tease Bi Sari, sleep outside!" Nadhira said firmly and pursed his lips forward.

Seeing that made Rifki did not hesitate to stick his lips to Nadhira's lips, Nadhira felt it immediately made him stay silent for a while, Rifki did not like jiks had to argue with Nadhira.

"Riffy!" Shouted Nadhira with regret because what was done to him.

"Sorry baby, it's so sweet, I'm addicted." Rifki answered without guilt.

*Flash back off*

His heart ached when he realized that Nadhira was pregnant at that time, and he wanted to make a happy surprise for Rifki. However, his surprise has now turned into something full of regret for him, regretting the departure of Nadhira.

"Is this the surprise you mean, baby? You want to tell me that you were pregnant on our wedding anniversary?"

Rifki also saw a letter in the small box, seeing it immediately made him move his hand to take a letter. Rifki then opened it and read it slowly, a sense of tightness enveloped his chest to make himself a little difficult to breathe.

The letter seemed to be longer than the previous letter, slowly reading the letter due to the tightness of his chest which he was unable to read a letter written by Nadhira earlier.

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Congratulations, you're going to be a father.

This is a surprise from me, hopefully you will be happy when you read it and know that I am pregnant with your child at this time. I promise I'll take good care of this kid so we don't both lose him like our first kid.

I once dreamed that I met a beautiful girl, in my dream we were playing happily with our little girl. You look so happy and you run around with the girl.

Among the beautiful flowers, I sat down to enjoy the fruit salad you had given me, while you were running around with our son in the garden. We will be parents, because of the presence of our child in my stomach.

Rifki, your dream to become a father is now realized, and soon the figure of a little angel will complete our family.

May you continue to love me, and make me the only one in your heart. I love you so much Rif, I don't want your affection you share with other women, no matter what happens, believe that I will always love you.

Rifki I'm scared, afraid it's happening again. No matter what happens we have to be together, and protect our children, I went to the doctor and the doctor said that I was pregnant with your child.

I feel very happy Rif, I want to share that happiness with you but I want this happiness to be special. It's soon our wedding anniversary, and I want to surprise you about the news of my pregnancy just a few weeks into it.

On that special day, what surprise did you give me? You promised he'd give me the most beautiful surprise. Don't forget to surprise me, baby, I love you so much.

You're my greatest man, the man who's always been my encouragement for survival. I don't know what if I lived without you, baby, I might have died a long time ago without marrying you. Because of you I can feel the happiness of a family.

Your love and affection are so great for me, a child who never felt loved by a sincere man, like my Papa. In fact you have given me immense love, never complained about my faults, always trying to make me happy in a million ways.

I'm sorry yes, I can't be a good wife for you yet, I will strive for that. Rifki, maybe you're smiling at me right now, right while reading this letter? I will also smile at you as a happy word to live with you in this world.

I will always be with you and accompany your day, if one day my body is gone then remember that my soul will always be with you in times of joy and sorrow. A wife's heaven has the soles of her husband's feet, and I will try my best for you alone.

From your dear wife, Nadhira

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Rifki cried as much as she could after reading it, the cry of a man was a cry of deep regret. A man cannot cry, but he is like a woman who can cry if her heart is attacked.

"If you're here this might be the most beautiful surprise to me, Dhira. But your absence here, this being the biggest wound for me, I'm too late to know that I'm going to be the father of the child you bear."

Rifki still did not think that he had lost the body of Nadhira, now Nadhira is no longer on his side. There is no happiness that Rifki now feels, and there are only regrets that he was unable to save Nadhira at that time, so Nadhira fell into the abyss of death.

The shock that had been prepared was so beautiful it turned into an endless tear, the news of Nadhira's pregnancy made her even more hurt. Not because she did not like Nadhira to get pregnant, but because she was unable to save him from the events he experienced at that time.

Nadhira kept everything a secret from her, and Nadhira wanted to let her know when she was celebrating her wedding anniversary. Since it was indeed the time that was close to the day that they were married, a marriage full of sadness, how could it not be? That very day Sarah had left everything for good and would never return.

"Daughter Mama, did I hear Rifki's coming home from the hospital? Where's she?" Ask Nandhita who just arrived at the house.

Nandhita had landed in the country 1 month ago, and she decided to live together at her Grandpa and Grandma's house as before. Grandpa and Grandma who had not existed since then also made the house empty but still well maintained because he paid a maid to clean the house.

"She locked herself in her room, she didn't open the door, and she didn't even eat at all. I don't know what to do now" replied the Princess sadly.

"He must have been depressed, waking up from a coma but not finding the whereabouts of his wife. It's been 5 months since Nadhira left us, but it's only a few days that Rifki feels the loss, I'll see him." Nandhita.

Nandhita actually felt very lost the figure of Nadhira, but the time that has made him mengikhlaskan departure for ever. He knows how a Rifki feels today, especially after waking up from a long coma he finds out that his beloved wife has left him.

"You're right, son. So he shut himself up in the room,"

"Can we see him, Mama Putri? Who knows if he'll open the door for both of us" Stevan said.