The Last Love of My Life
Nadhira Cemetery

Kinara woke up from her stupor, finding herself in a huge room. His head felt extremely dizzy, and he immediately rushed up from the place. Kinara did not know where she was, as the house looked very foreign to her.

A very luxurious house, even one that had only been a dream for him. Kinara ran out of the room, and down the stairs that were there in a hurry. When he was in the lounge, he saw Bu Siti and Siska who were sitting there.

"Tante, Auntie is here too?" Ask Kinara.

Siska immediately got up from her seat, and immediately scattered her embrace on Kinara's body. There was a sound of sobbing coming from Siska's mouth behind her veil, but Kinara was not fully aware of what was happening.

"Patient Nara, son." Said Siska while rubbing Kinara's back slowly.

"What does Aunt mean? Why are we here? Whose house is this?" Ask Kinara.

"Mama Nara is not there, who is sincere?"

"Mama..."

Kinara was crying right then and there, seeing that Siska immediately scattered her embrace to Kinara to calm the girl down. It was very painful when he just realized from fainting but he was too late to be able to meet with Nadhira, and he was crying as much as he wanted to meet with Nadhira.

The people who were there were so foreign to Kinara, that he did not even recognize them all. Suddenly the figure of Rifki was approaching, he knew that his son had awakened and wanted to welcome him.

"You awake, son?" Ask Rifki gently.

"Why did you bring me here!! Where's Mama? I'm going home!" Kinara Sentak to Rifki.

Dada Rifki was also hurt because of the jolt from Kinara, but he was able to understand it because of the situation that made Kinara like that. Hearing Kinara who said in a high tone to Rifki, Bu Siti immediately got up from her seat to come to Kinara.

"Grandma never taught you to be rude, Nara. You can't say that to your father" said Ms. Siti.

"No papa, Mom. Nara can't accept me yet" Rifki told Ms. Siti.

Rifki also walked away from that place, preferring to accompany Nadhira for the last time. They had just arrived at the house, and Rifki immediately rushed to meet Kinara after hearing that Kinara was awake.

"Rif, it's time to bathe Nadhira, son." Said Lia who approached towards Rifki and rubbed her back slowly.

"I'll bathe him myself, Ma." Rifki said without looking at Lia.

"Are you still capable of that, son?"

"God willing, I can still, Ma. I don't want my wife to be seen by anyone else,"

"All right then."

Rifki also brought Nadhira to the bathhouse, and he began bathing the body of his beloved wife. Either so many teardrops fell from his eyes, but there was absolutely no sobbing coming out of his mouth. This was the last day for her to be able to see Nadhira's face, before the body was covered by the ground.

His heart is broken at this time, but he must be strong for the sake of his son who still needs affection. Circumstances that continue to force him to be strong, but circumstances also that make him very fragile.

Finished bathing him, Rifki also put the shroud to him. After she finished, she lifted Nadhira's body towards the guest room to be sholatan, and seeing it immediately made Kinara cry hysterically and Siska immediately hugged her tightly.

Refraining from crying in public hurts, that's how Rifki feels right now, she wants to cry but she can't do that. Losing a loved one is the worst right for anyone, but all Rifki can do is recoup Nadhira's departure.

"The robust rifles, son. I'm sure you can do it" said Haris who approached Rifki because he saw Rifki's body slightly staggered.

"It hurts, Pa. Dhira left so quickly," said Rifki, who tried to die, holding back her tears.

Rendi understands how Rifki is feeling right now, although a million patiently he says will not be able to eliminate the sadness in his son's heart. Rifki also rushed to clean his body, he was about to pray Nadhira's corpse.

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After that dusk so sad the clouds also mengabu

Your departure leaves me with grief in my life

I asked to regret the time why first

I didn't say I loved you a million times a day

Even though I can still smile

But not after before

Now I'm lonely

You and all the memories

Unite in the running time

And I'm alone now

Looking at you is only a shadow

Nothing is more painful

Than to lose you

My love cannot change

To death is only love for you (for you)

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Rifki also led the funeral prayer with a soft sob, he himself became the priest to take Nadhira away. Every prayer reading there is always a pause for the sobbing, this is very heavy, very heavy.

When the prayer was finished, his body suddenly collapsed near Nadhira's body lying down. In the distance Rifki saw the figure of Nadhira's spirit who was standing while waving to him, and with a warm smile Nadhira gave to Rifki.

"Dhira, why did you have to leave me so soon? I'm not ready to let you go yet, but I have to" Rifki said, staring at Nadhira.

Nadhira did not say anything to Rifki, he just shook his head to see Rifki who was crying. Haris approached Rifki who was crying as he pleased, so heavy it felt if he could let go of his loved ones.

"Rif, wish Dhira all the best, huh? Must release it even if it is difficult. Now only prayer can deliver his departure, don't burden him with your tears" Haris said.

"Yes Pa."

Rifki rubbed her tears violently, so fragile she was at the moment. Rifki also rose from her seat, she also approached Kinara who was not far from her. Kinara who saw the arrival of Rifki immediately threw away the sight of Rifki, she did not want to see Rifki at this time.

"His shroud will be closed soon, kiss your mother one last time, but her tears will not come upon her body. We'll soon take him to his final resting place" Rifki told Kinara.

"Mama," said Kinara softly and immediately ran towards the lying Nadhira.

Rifki sighed to see Kinara running towards Nadhira, and she immediately followed him to get closer to Nadhira. Rifki rubbed gently on Kinara's back to calm the girl down, but Kinara's hand instantly removed Rifki's hand from her body violently.

"No papa, ma'am. Not the time," Rifki said as she shook her head.

Rifki also approached Nadhira, he kissed Nadhira's forehead for the last time. After that, Rifki also covered Nadhira's face using a shroud. Rifki, Haris, Bayu, and Reno then raised a coffin in which there is Nadhira.

An ustadz immediately recited a prayer for Nadhira, and when the coffin was lifted at once a hysterical cry sounded louder in that place. Siti hugged Kinara, and the men took Nadhira away.

"Yamaa!!!" Shouted Kinara as Nadhira was taken away from there.

"Dhiraaa!!!"

So many hysterical cries that led to Nadhira's departure, they all felt lost and no one was able to treat the loss.

Every step of Rifki's foot felt so heavy, and they delivered Nadhira's departure for the last time. Nadhira was buried near the grave of his son, and they buried him, then immediately prayed for him.

One by one they began to leave the burial place, and only the Rifki family was left. A momentary silence in that place so that only the sound of a gust of wind was heard, and the footsteps of the person who slowly left the cemetery.

"Let's go home, Rif. It's gonna be late in the night, soon," Take Haris.

"You guys go home first, I still want to accompany Dhira here. I'm afraid he's lonely" Rifki said.

"Alright, but then hurry home."

"Yes." Yeah."

They all left Rifki, but not with Bayu who faithfully accompanied Rifki. The two stared blankly at the tombstone bearing Nadhira's name, and both still did not expect that Nadhira had left them all.

"O Allah, lighten the torment of the grave for him, and forgive him all his sins for life. Dhira is a good woman, we all love her very much." Bayu.

"Dhira, calm down in there, baby. Sooner or later I will definitely catch up with you, the angel of heaven will always accompany you. I'm sure you won't be lonely there, you're a good woman willing to sacrifice anything for the happiness of others without thinking about her own happiness."

*****

Rifki and Bayu walked together towards his house, and on the way there was absolutely no conversation between the two. Until the two arrived at the gate of the Rifki house, he saw Kinara and Bu Siti and Siska were about to leave his house.

"Where are you going?" Rifki asked as she approached the three.

"Nara invited us home, sir. So we can't refuse him" Siska said.

"Nara, from now on stay here. This is your house" Rifki told Kinara.

"No! Nara doesn't want to stay with people who never cared about me and my mom. Let's go home, Grandma." Kinara pulled Bu Siti's hand to leave the place.

"Nara," Call Rifki.

Kinara did not care at all about the call from Rifki, she continued to walk away from the house without even looking at him. Rifki immediately chased after Kinara, he immediately blocked Kinara's path just like that.

"You can be angry with Papa, at least stay here a few days until your Mama's tahlilan is done. After that, Papa won't stand in your way" Rifki said.

"No way."

"Nara, listen to Papa just once. Don't leave Papa this time, Papa please take Nara,"

"I'm going home, Om. I have nothing to do with this family,"

"Nara, Papa beg you. Just once, let Papa make amends for Papa all this time,"

"No!"

Kinara was about to step foot away from the place, but Siska stopped him immediately. Kinara could not believe what Siska was doing to her, and that made the big question appear in Kinara's head.

"Let's stay here for a while, don't come home" Siska said.

"Why? Why can't I go home?"

"Didn't your father tell you to stay? Never argue with your parents' words" Siska said seriously.

"I've never had a parent like him. If Auntie doesn't get me home, I won't go home but I'm out of here."

Hearing that made Rifki hold onto her painful chest, for some reason Kinara's words made her heart so sore. Rifki could only remain silent without being able to prevent Kinara's departure, as how hard she prevented Kinara from getting any harder Kinara would rebel.

"Nara, if you don't want to stay here with Rifki. Stay with Grandma here, this is the place where your Mama was bathed and delivered to her new place, do you want to make your Mama sad there?" Suddenly the figure of Lia appeared from behind Rifki.

Kinara stopped her footsteps from hearing Lia's soft voice, turning her back and looking at the middle-aged woman. Kinara just kept silent, she knew that Lia had just remembered everything so it was not without reason that Lia left Nadhira.

"Grandmother promised me that your father wouldn't bother you here. Grandma's gonna tell you a story about your Mama's childhood, do you want to?" Lia continued because she did not get an answer from Kinara.

It is very difficult to persuade Kinara, but that does not mean it is impossible. Kinara who was curious about the story of her mother finally nodded her head slowly, and made Rifki smile thin despite a glimmer of tears in her eyes.

"You two live here, too, huh? Dhira loves you so much, how can you leave Dhira at a time like this?" Rifki hopes that Bu Siti and Siska will stay there for a few days.

"But Sir..." Siska said hanging.

"Don't be too shy. Dhira already thinks you are his family, so you are my family too."

"We're just strangers who happened to meet him, so we're not that important here,"

"You have taken good care of Nara, and have accepted both sincerely. I'm so grateful to you, did you reject my wish?"

"We dare not, sir. All right, we'll stay here for a while,"

"Thank you."

They also went back into the house. Kinara felt dislike in that place because everything was so foreign to her, but she wanted to know about the story of her Mama. Kinara sat down with Lia in the guest room, where many guests came to worship.

"You are very similar to Dhira," Lia said as she watched Kinara.

"The people said my face doesn't look like Mama's" replied Kinara.

"Your face looks like your father, but your stubbornness is like Dhira's." Lia also rubbed gently the top of Kinara's head.

Kinara frowned when Lia said that her face was similar to Rifki, but she did not want to have that face because it was similar to Rifki's. How can it not be similar? While he is Rifki's biological son, he refuses to be her biological child.

"Day is getting late, Nara should rest first. Let tomorrow move again," Lia told Nara.

"Say you want to tell me about Mama?"

"Ah yes, Grandma forgot. All right, let's go to your room, and then Grandma's gonna tell me there until Nara goes to bed,"