The Last Love of My Life
Deteriorated

Rifki locked herself in her room after delivering Nadhira's departure, locking her door from inside so no one could open it. It has been 2 days Rifki was in the room without going out, even in that time there was no food or drink that entered his body.

Rifki was sitting on her bed, staring at a picture of her marriage to Nadhira. He did not expect that Nadhira would leave so soon to leave him, even Nadhira would never return to the world to be with him.

He seemed to have run out of tears, even Rifki looks very bad at this time. Rifki did not want to meet anyone, and she also locked herself in her room without eating or drinking.

It hurts when abandoned by a loved one, even it feels like this life has absolutely no meaning. Rifki clutches a pendant that she has not given to Nadhira, but Nadhira has already left her.

Geck... Geck... Geck...

Suddenly there was the sound of someone knocking on Rifki's room door, but Rifki did not take her eyes off a wedding photo. Several times the door was knocked, but no answer was given by Rifki.

"Rifki, open the door now! Or do you want this door Papa to break down now?" Tanya Haris who was standing in front of the door of Rifki's room.

"Don't bother Rifki, Pa. Rifki wants to be alone" replied Rifki from inside her room loudly.

"Rifki, you should also pay attention to your own health, son. Two days ago, you just came out of a coma, don't make us worry like this,"

"Better Rifki don't get up, Pa. Let Rifki can go together with Dhira,"

"Don't say it like that, son. If it was up to Dhira to hear it, wouldn't he be the one who would be the most sad? Do you want to see Dhira crying there because of you? Rif, Papa please don't be like this, son. Not only did you torture yourself, but you also tortured us all by acting like this."

"Let me alone, Pa."

Two days of not eating, making Rifki's face look very pale and not powered. Not long after, Rifki heard a very loud voice, it turns out Haris and some members of Gengcobra are trying to break the door of Rifki's room.

Hearing that made Rifki look very upset, he then got up from his seat and rushed closer to the door of his room. Rifki rushes to open it, after the door opens, Bayu and Reno's bodies hit the floor of her room.

Rifki was so surprised to see the two people who fell, not because they arrived both entered but because they both hit the floor very hard. Not yet had time for Rifki to be angry with the two, Haris immediately held both shoulders Rifki.

"I told you, didn't I, Pa? Don't disturb Rifki," Rifki said angrily.

"You haven't eaten in two days, son. How can Papa calm down? If you're why, how?"

"Pa, there's no problem if Rifki why. He won't be able to scold Rifki either, right? Why does Rifki care about herself?"

"Aware Rifki. Whether he is or not, life goes on. If you look weak, what about your son?"

"Pa, Rifki felt it was a waste to learn martial arts, but Rifki could not at all protect the people Rifki loved. What's all this for? If Rifki can't live happily with Dhira?"

"Riffy! Papa knows how you feel, not only you feel lost," Haris's touch while shaking Rifki's shoulders, and can be seen a drop of tears in his eyes.

Haris no longer knew what to do for now, even his own thoughts felt very complicated. Without a word, Haris immediately pulled Rifki's hand violently to get out of Rifki's room, Rifki could only resign when the strong pull from Haris made her feel sick.

Rifki had not had time to protest over what was done by Haris, Haris violently threw Rifki's hand. Rifki almost fell because of her very weak body, but luckily she was still able to hold on to a table nearby.

"Look at all of them, what can Papa do? Say it!" Sentak Haris to Rifki.

Rifki looked around, there were only blank stares left from all the residents of the place. No one is able to get excited about this, even all of them look very bad because of the departure of Nadhira.

Nadhira is like the heart of the house, without Nadhira it feels like there is no joy whatsoever there. Kinara who was leaning on the shoulder of Bu Siti was looking gloomy, all efforts have been done by Bu Siti and Siska was just in vain.

The princess was leaning on a sofa, but her gaze was so sad and very dark. There was no joy on his face, and only regret was left because he had once blessed the relationship between the two who currently had to be like this.

"You don't want to eat before you eat, son. Look at him, can you see him like that?" Haris asked while staring at Rifki who was now increasingly silent in his place.

Rifki doesn't know what happened to them, why they can be like this he doesn't know. It was so sad to see right now, everything seemed to look so worst without any spirit to get up again.

Hearing the commotion immediately made the whole turn to the direction where the source of the sound, the Princess approached her son who was already willing to come out of the room. The view of Princess and Rifki was met now, without Rifki realizing that her feet were slowly approaching towards the Princess, and the Princess immediately ran towards her.

"Rifki," said the Princess as she spread her arms to her son.

The princess was crying in the arms of Rifki at this time, so isak right it sounds so sad for Rifki. Rifki also slowly raised his hands to embrace the body of the woman trying in front of him.

"Until when are you going to punish yourself, son? You shouldn't blame yourself like this, no matter how innocent you are."

"But all because of me, Ma. If I'd been around right away, maybe he'd still be here with me,"

"Can you change your destiny? Whoareyou? Even if you punish yourself like anything, it doesn't change anything at all. You're making things worse, Rifki. You're not just punishing yourself, you're punishing us all like this." The princess let go of her embrace and looked directly at her son's face.

Rifki is not who can change everything that has happened, he will not be able to revive people who are gone. No matter how hard he punishes himself, the destiny God has given him will not be able to change including death.

It hurts to be against his own heart, Rifki tries to convince himself that Nadhira is still alive but his belief is wrong. No matter how much he tried to convince himself, but the truth was so bitter to feel.

"You won't be able to bring to life a dead man, Rif. Nadhira's tomb land is still not dry, but you actually make himself hampered as it is today. He won't be able to calm down if you act like this, do you think Dhira would be happy to see you like this, huh? He would definitely be sad to see his loved ones punishing himself like this."

Rifki's face looks so very pale at this time, he has just healed but he has not eaten anything for a few days. His body felt very hot, even his breathing felt like emitting very hot steam.

Because too long standing makes it feel very dizzy even it feels like fireflies, especially in conditions like this have been limp but have not entered anything. At once Rifki's gaze began to darken, not realizing that his consciousness was disappearing.

With his swiftness, the hadith that was not far from the two immediately rushed to capture Rifki's body. Herself and aided by members of the Gengcobra immediately bring Rifki into his room, Rifki fell unconscious at that time because his body is not well.

*****

Rifki slowly began to open his eyes, he felt something soft and cold was on his forehead. When he opened his eyes, he saw the figure of a doctor examining him.

Not far from where he was lying, there was a Princess who was sitting worriedly while staring at Rifki. The doctor also injected something in Rifki's hand, making Rifki squint his forehead feeling a painful liquid enter his body.

"If continued like this, he could be exposed to more severe disease and threaten his life. The lamb had been scratched, because no food had entered his body from the beginning he was in a coma until now. Nerves in his head have not fully healed, especially after a coma. If this is left unchecked, it can be fatal, " said the Doctor who looked worried after examining Rifki.

Hearing that made the Princess look so worried, she did not want to lose her son too after she lost her daughter-in-law. Rifki just listened to him in silence, indeed at this time his head felt so very painful, even more painful than usual when he had a headache.

"Well what can I do, Doc?" Princess asked worried about the state of Rifki.

"Please strongly, your child should not be late to eat or take medication. For further results, I'll take the blood stamps to the lab for more detail."

"Yes Doc."

The doctor also took out an empty injection from the bag he was carrying, he immediately injected the empty injection in Rifki's hand. The doctor tried to take Rifki's blood, but there was absolutely no blood that he could take because Rifki did not eat anything.

"Mother's blood pressure is only 70, very below average in general. And it makes the blood difficult to take" said the doctor, as he continued to try to draw Rifki's blood through the inner elbow.

The doctor continued to press the injection to make Rifki scrunch his forehead, and can be seen the presence of blue marks in the needle that has been stuck it. After a long time of trying, he was able to take the blood of Rifki.

"Then I say goodbye. For the results, I'll tell you later, "Said the doctor after putting Rifki's blood in his bag.

"Thank you, Doc. Let me take you out" said the Princess.

The princess also let the doctor out of Rifki's room, and let Rifki to rest for a while. Rifki also positioned his body to feel comfortable, at a glance he saw the shadow of someone in the distance.

"Nara, why are you standing in front of the door? Come in" said Rifki, gritting her forehead with the pain in her body.

The figure of Kinara also appeared behind the door of Rifki's room, he also walked into the room Rifki slowly land. Kinara was only able to remain silent without much talking when looking at Rifki's weak body, looking very alarming for now.

Rifki also tried to sit while leaning on the back of the mattress, he smiled towards Kinara who was standing not far from him. After a long time, only this time did Kinara come to visit him in that room.

"What's up, son?" Ask Rifki with a heavy voice.

"Om sick what?" Ask Kinara curiously.

Rifki could only put a faint smile on her face, when it was Kinara who called her with the call 'Om' instead of 'Papa'. Rifki thought it might be so difficult for Kinara to acknowledge her as her father, let alone Rifki who never took part in raising her.

"No papa, just soy sauce. It will also heal" replied Rifki with a smile full of sadness.

"But the doctor said...."

Kinara had yet to finish his words, but Rifki just cut them off without letting Kinara continue.

"Don't think about it, it's just a guess. Have you eaten?" Ask Rifki who is trying to divert the conversation.

"No, yet" replied Kinara flatly.

"Why?"

"There's no Nara's favorite food here, Om. Nara doesn't like it,"

"What do you want? Let Papa tell Bi Sari to cook it,"

"No. Nara wants to go home to Aunt Siska, Nara doesn't like it here,"

"Nara, don't go, will you?"

"Nara doesn't like it here!" Touch Kinara and immediately rushed away from the place.

"Nara don't go! Don't leave Papa, son! Nara!" Shouted Rifki trying to stop Kinara.

Rifki tried to get up from his sleep to chase after Kinara, but when he stood up suddenly his legs felt so weak that he fell down. Rifki's call was ignored by Kinara, even Kinara did not care that Rifki was falling at this time.

Rifki also put his head on the floor because the power was drained, it was able to make Rifki like being out of breath. Pain, that's how he feels now, not only his physical pain but his heart also hurt because of Kinara's actions.

Rifki also shed her tears, she did not think that her son had been rude to her.

"My mistakes are inexcusable. Is your hatred so great for me, Nara?Forgive me, Son."