The Last Love of My Life
Painful hug

"Don't come any closer, or I'll hurt you!" Threaten Kinara, and instantly make Rifki stop his steps.

The two gazes met each other, a sense of tightness as if it would burst into Rifki's chest over the behavior of his son. But Rifki was unable to blame Kinara's actions, as it was true what Kinara had said earlier.

"Do you want to hurt me, son?" Rifki asked with both eyes that had glazed over.

"I don't care who you are, I hate you so much! You're all bad! I hate you all so much!" Shouted Kinara hysterically.

"Sorry Papa, huh?"

"No."

Kinara pointed the knife towards Rifki's stomach, because the distance between the two who were getting closer made the knife was not spaced with Rifki's body. Rifki's tears also dripped and hit the hand of Kinara who was holding the small knife, making Kinara's hand tremble.

"Kill me, son. Let Papa know how great you are that can kill your own father" Rifki said with her lips shaking violently.

"I never thought of you as my father, because he died before I was born!"

Degs...

Rifki was very surprised to hear that, and the words managed to hurt her heart the deepest. No longer unstoppable how the pain of his heart, hated by his own child is the worst thing for a parent.

"Nara!" Lia's touch heard it. "Dragon's talking,"

"You hate me, Nara? Is your hatred for me so great?" Rifki asked with a smile full of disappointment.

"I don't want to see you in front of me anymore! Go, and never bother me!"

"Alright then, do what you want, and I will do whatever I want" Rifki said with a heavy sigh.

Rifki stared at Kinara, a faint smile rising on Rifki's face even though her tears kept flowing without anyone stopping her. Rifki stared nanar at the small knife pointed at him by Kinara, there was absolutely no distance between her and the knife.

"What do you want to do!" Tanya Kinara was suspicious.

Kinara did not understand what Rifki said, and she did not know what Rifki meant behind his words. Rifki held onto Kinara's hand holding the knife, Kinara thought Rifki would try to throw it away, but his mind was wrong.

Unexpectedly by anyone who was there, Rifki directly thrust it into his own stomach. When the knife pierced through Rifki's stomach, Rifki screamed in pain, feeling the knife, and even more pain that his son did not consider himself to exist.

Seeing that instantly made Kinara very surprised, and wanted to pull out her hand that was holding the knife. However, Rifki actually pulled his body into his arms, and Rifki hugged his son's body very tightly even though the knife stuck deeper.

"Riffy!" Shouted Lia who was watching it.

Kinara tried to pull out the knife, but because of the distance Rifki hugged her body so close, Kinara could not do that. Kinara cried hysterically as she could not pull the knife, and Rifki also did not let Kinara do that.

"Is this what you want, son?" Tanya Rifki slowly eared Kinara.

"No! What are you doing! Release!" Shouted Kinara.

"Papa loves you so much, son. Let Papa embrace you as my shady healer, Papa promises that after this Papa will never bother you again. Forgive Papa," said Rifki in Kinara's ear.

"Let go! You could die!" Kinara continued to rebel to be able to remove the knife from Rifki's stomach.

"Do you know how much your heart hurts right now? It even feels like Papa will not be able to withstand the pain. Forgive me, Son?"

Rifki hugged Kinara's body very tightly, and did not allow the slightest amount of distance between the two. With such a distance, it was difficult for Kinara to pull the small knife out of Rifki's stomach.

"Love, Papa's heart aches when he hears you hate Papa. It's all Papa's fault for ignoring you all along, Papa doesn't blame you for hating Papa at all. Papa knows that Papa's mistakes all along will not be able to get an apology from you," Rifki said as he rubbed Kinara's head gently with affection.

Kinara could not hear Rifki's words, especially when Kinara heard Rifki's sighs that were holding back the pain. Whatever he tried to release the hug, but his strength will still be defeated by Rifki who continues to hug him without interruption.

"Listen to Papa once. Papa asked you, what should you do? But you answered that I had to get out of your life first. I can't do that, Nara. If going by what you mean is my life, maybe I can do that to be able to get an apology from you. Forgive Papa who woke up late to be able to save your Mama, this is Papa's fault that can not protect you.

Dear Nara, if time can be turned back, Papa also does not want to lose your Mama. Papa doesn't want to abandon you two at all, and Papa doesn't know what hardships you've been through all this time." Rifki said with pain.

"Don't say it again, Om."

"Let Papa tell you everything, before Papa's consciousness is gone, Nara. Thank you for letting Papa hold you. Nara, this pain isn't worth the pain you've been enduring all along, Papa knows it."

"Om, don't do something like this. Unhand me!"

"Is it hard for you to call me Papa?"

Rifki's question immediately made Kinara sculpt, and Rifki could only sigh. Rifki knew that it was very difficult for Kinara, especially to acknowledge her as her parents.

"I'll never force you to call me Papa, because I don't deserve that call from you. If you need anything, Papa will do anything to fulfill it. Papa it doesn't matter if you don't want to think Papa exists, but don't ever kick Papa out of your life, son."

"Take me off, Om. You'll bleed out like this,"

"Nara, you need to know one thing. I love you so much, if I could choose, I would sacrifice my own life to keep your Mama alive. You're the only person Papa cares about right now, you're Papa's flesh and blood, son. How can Papa hate you, Nara? There's only love Papa has for you."

"You lied! You're liar!"

"What do you need to do to make you believe? Does Papa need to sacrifice Papa's own life for you to believe? Kill Papa, son. If that's your will, let Papa catch up with your mama." Rifki's breathing began to hunt, and her heart rate accelerated.

"I told you to stay away from me, not ask you to lose your own life,"

"Rather than stay away from you, it's better for Papa to lose his own life, Nara. There's Nadhira's blood in your body that has been fused with mine, let me feel Nadhira's presence in your body."

When Rifki was about to fall, someone suddenly pulled him from the arms of Kinara. The man held Rifki's hand to his neck, and the man was none other than Bayu who had just arrived at that place.

"What are you doing, Nara? You tried to kill your own father, huh?" Bayu asked in a high tone when he saw a limp Rifki accompanied by a lot of blood on his shoulder.

"Not me" said Kinara softly as she dropped a small knife from her hand.

"Bay, don't get mad at him" said Rifki.

Kinara was crying looking at the weak Rifki, it was all her fault that it made Rifki look like that. Lia also approached Rifki and helped Bayu.

"Nara, I hate how much you hate your father. He's still your dad anytime, and there's no such thing as an ex-Dad, son."

"Tante, we'd better get him to the hospital first." Bayu's advice is because he feels that Rifki's body is starting to lose its balance.

"Wait for Bay."

Rifki tried to be able to stand with his stand without refutation from Bayu, he was standing in front of Kinara who was crying as much as he could when he saw Rifki. Rifki wiped Kinara's tears slowly, and even Kinara did not reject Rifki's gentle strokes.

"Nara, thank you for the hug. Papa is very happy right now, and as Papa promised, Papa will never bother you again. May you live a quieter and happier life, Papa will keep Papa's promise. Take good care of yourself, because Papa is not on Nara's side," said Rifki as she rubbed her child's cheek gently.

Kinara could only cry, as if her voice could not be let out at this moment. He still did not think that he had injured Rifki, even his own hands were now drenched in blood, blood belonging to Rifki.

"Pa," Lirih Kinara but not heard by Rifki.

"Akhs..." Pekik Rifki's.

Seeing Rifki's body that was about to collapse, Bayu immediately caught it. Bayu also draped Rifki's hand on his neck, the two men immediately took Rifki away from the place.

Kinara wanted to stop them, but his steps stopped when he remembered Rifki's words. Their goal is to bring Rifki to treatment, and he does not want to prevent Rifki to recover.

The departure of the three people from the house, immediately made Bu Siti out of her house. He did not know what was happening, because he went to the stall for a while to buy a drink but there was chaos.

"What's this, Nara?" Ask Bu Siti when she sees Rifki being hired to get into her car.

"It's not me, Grandma. He's the one who stabbed himself," Kinara said in fear.

"What did you say!" Ms. Siti was so surprised to hear Kinara's words.

"I didn't do anything, Grandma. Trust me,"

"You're so late, Nara. All this time he's been very kind to you, you'll understand if he's gone and not coming back. When that happens, there will only be regrets in you."

*****

In the car, Rifki leaned her head against her car seat. Rifki stared at the road that was passing through her while holding her stomach that was hit by a small knife, her gaze straight ahead as if it would be empty.

"Bay, let no one know about this incident. I don't want anyone to blame Kinara" Rifki said but can still be heard by Bayu and Lia.

"But what about your wounds, Rif? Everyone will know if you get hurt like this,"

"It's not very deep, Bay. I can still hold him back, assuming this never happens."

"All right, Rif."

"Ma, please keep this a secret, okay?" Rifki said while holding Lia's hand.

"Until when are you gonna pretend to be strong like this, son? Kinara really has crossed the line."

"Ma, this is all Rifki's fault not Nara's. Rifki was too stupid to let them suffer all this time,"

"Have nothing to say anymore, save your energy until we get to the hospital and treat your wound."

Rifki could only nod her head slowly, she also felt that her body was very weak at the moment. Bayu drove the car quickly so that Rifki immediately get treatment, and so that the wound does not occur infection.

Arriving at the hospital, Rifki was immediately laid on a carcass that had been available in the emergency room. There, Bayu immediately helped him remove the suit worn by Rifki, as well as the shirt he used.

The doctor was immediately on standby to deal with Rifki's wounds, and throughout the treatment Rifki could only feel the pain of his wounds. Bayu always accompanied Rifki throughout the treatment, without leaving him even for a moment.

"It is fortunate that the wound is not too deep, only about 3 inches. So no need to worry because it has been given wound medicine so as not to infection, it only takes time to heal and can move back." Said the Doctor to Rifki and Bayu.

Lia was still afraid of blood-related things, so she chose to wait outside instead of waiting for Rifki in the emergency room. After the treatment is completed, Rifki is allowed to go home, and Bayu immediately memapah Rifki back to get to the car.

"Bay, for today I'd like to stay in a hotel. Let no one at home know, if they ask you to answer if I need peace," said Rifki after arriving at his car.

"Alright Rif, I'll follow what you want. Let me take care of everything, you don't have to worry too much."

"I can only rely on you all this time, Bay. If there's no you, I don't know what to do,"

"We've been best friends since childhood, Rif. You, me, Dhira, and Susi will never be separated. Even though Dhira left earlier than us, I believe we can reunite with him someday when in His heaven."

"I can't say anything else, Bay. You're so loyal to me, always there when my likes and sorrows, and always understand me."

"What the hell don't I know about you guys? It's not just you I know, Rif. Same with Nadhira and Susi. I will do anything for you, as well as you who are willing to do anything for me."

"Thank you, Bay. And sorry for everything...."