The Marriage Tragedy Mixed
Chapter 51. Two Choices.

"Find another place to walk." Joshua held Jana's hand to his old car parked beside the market entrance.

"Seriously?" jana asked with sparkling eyes.

Joshua nodded. "I also need some fresh air."

"Come on!" sahut Jana is excited. "Where?"

"Kerry Park."

"Okay" said Jana. Although all this time he had never been to the place mentioned by Joshua.

Joshua drove his car into the main road. Sometimes he glanced at Jana who looked so happy. Threw Jana's left hand, then gripped tightly. Joshua's one hand was guarding the wheel.

Arriving at the destination, both were treated to views of the park in front of the Hudson river that refreshed the eyes. Although the trees are predominantly gray, they still look amazing.

"Great view," said Jana while circulating the view around her.

"Sorry, yes, I never take you to places like this." Joshua invited Jana to sit on an empty bench.

Joshua sat next to Jana who was enjoying the view of the park.

"No papa. It'll be here again" jana joked.

"I haven't enjoyed this atmosphere for a long time like a normal human being" Joshua said, stretching his muscles and breathing cold air.

"Life is beautiful, yes, Josh."

"You're right, Jana. Life is beautiful. It's just that sometimes we don't realize the beauty around us." He looked towards Jana. The girl's smile never disappeared from her thin lips.

Seeing Jana who was so happy, Joshua's chest suddenly felt pain.

"Why is that?" ask Jana.

"Because, many people are unwilling to open their eyes to the beautiful things that are nearby. So, they're looking far away. For example, I, who never noticed this beautiful thing beside me."

Jana. "What's so beautiful next to you? Me?" He pointed at himself.

Joshua nodded with a smile. "I'm sorry, yeah, Jana. I've made you a lot of trouble."

Jana tilted her head. She looked at her husband's serious-looking face. Jana could see the honesty in Joshua's words.

Joshua took a deep breath. "I'm being too selfish."

Jana grabbed Joshua's hand and held it. "I don't need you to say you're lazy or anything. I just want to look ahead. The future, Josh."

"Give me time to put things together, yeah, Jana."

"Whatever it is, Josh. Just be good, just do it."

Joshua stroked Jana's long hair. Then, the back of his hand stroked the girl's cheek. His blue eyes were so intense.

Then Joshua cupped both of Jana's cheeks, then clenched her tiny lips gently.

Again and again.

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Jana slammed into Joshua's arms, clenched her lips, pushed her sturdy chest softly and pressed her against the wall.

Joshua did not want to lose, he blocked Jana's arm, wrapped it around the neck, then turned their position until now Jana who was pushed to the wall.

He drenched the girl's neck with light kisses. Both of his hands stroked Jana's waist gently, then climbed onto her back.

Somehow, the two had now been on the bed, in their room which had been so cold for some time. The two of them took off the clothes that were attached to their bodies.

The lips of the two are reunited. Attack each other with small bites on the sidelines of the pagutan. Joshua pushed slowly Jana's body until her back stuck to the bed. Joshua looked at that sweet face.

"Allow me to go inside you," he whispered as he kissed Jana's neck very gently.

Jana nodded. It felt like he wanted to cry at the request for permission that was spoken from Joshua's lips. For the first time, the husband treated her like a queen.

"I love you, Jana."

Jana's eyes glazed over. This is their most blue unification. It felt like all the burdens that were inside Jana's chest, were revealed instantly. Disappeared.

It is not the napsu that dominates. But the love that rises, until the two reach the top together.

Jana stroked Joshua's bare chest and made random patterns there.

"Bat wings, what does that mean?" Jana stroked the tattoo that filled Joshua's chest. During this time she did not pay much attention to the carving on her husband's body.

"This is Lucifer's wing. I just like it."

"Oh." Jemari Jana again moved through the parts of Joshua's body that were engraved with tattoos there. "If this?" Jana touched Joshua's left arm. "What is this beast? Cerems."

Joshua chuckles. "Name Barghest. Giant dog with big teeth and claws. Mythological Beasts of Northern England. He grimaced, mercilessly when he finished off his enemies. Maybe sometimes it describes my personality."

"Hmmm ...." Jana muttering. "If the back is?"

"Jaguar, right? Time you don't know?" kekeh Joshua while scrambling Jana's head.

Now he stroked Joshua's flat, firm stomach. There was a scar that seemed to have been a long time ago. It was strange, all this time he had never noticed the scar there.

"I've never told you the details of my past, have I?"

Jana changed her position. His body was now on Joshua's chest. Both of his arms he crossed under his chin.

"Udah, but not much. Come on, dong, now the detail story," pinta Jana.

"Hmmm ...." Joshua stroked Jana's shoulder gently. After taking a few breaths, Joshua told me everything that had happened in his life. There was nothing he was hiding. Except one. The existence of Risa and their future children in the womb of the woman.

Jana listened to Joshua's story carefully. He felt sorry for Joshua. Truth be told, Johsua is not a bad person. He was caught in a difficult situation. Which forced him to act recklessly.

"Josh ...."

"Yes?"

"I want to form a normal family. A happy little family. Even if your job isn't good, I won't sue, as long as what you're doing isn't dangerous."

"Yes, I know. But, what can I do here? All work requires skill and experience. Me being?" kekeh Joshua's.

Jana stroked her chin. "What if you work in a shop?" tawar Jana's.

"Your booth and Mira?" ask Joshua.

"Yes. You can try it first, baby. If it doesn't fit, it's okay."

Joshua nodded. "I can try," he said.

Jana's eyes sparkled at Joshua's reply. She kissed her husband's lips. "I love you so much, Josh. I always had a dream that our lives would be happy one day."

Joshua stroked Jana's innocent back. Then kiss her forehead a few times. Next, he hugged the tiny body tightly. Comfortable. Really comfortable.

It was never expected, being close to Jana would be this calm. Jana is like a medicine for heartbreak. Unfortunately, the medicine that was already on hand, it was wasted.

His heart is weak now. Confusion. It is between two choices.

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