The Midnight
regrets (1)

When Regret Becomes “Saksi” and Promise Becomes “Bukti”

It was a cold night with my hello kitty blanket…

Mom's voice called me “arin?”

“iya ma? Why?” I answered with my mother's voice calling me that..

“arin, buy mama salt for a while at the tutik mother's shop, just a moment son, mama again want to give salt to mama's cooking” tell mama to me.

“lah ma? But this is already night ma -_-” cold again ma, mama kok rumuh bang night si ma come on ma, there are still other kitchen spices that mama can use” refuse me to grumble.

“ini nih young people today, a little unwilling, in this order it does not want, yes already mama buy it yourself, ask for help with his own child is difficult, really, really means the word jeng atik if children today keep the prestige. Oceh” mama who talks non-stop. But I just kept quiet and headed to go back to the room.. Because if mama talks it without dots and commas, wawa permisa -_- really too my mama -_-”

The next day June 11, 2010

Dear diary, does she still remember me? After almost 2 years we never met especially when we were together, walking together, and always telling stories when I loved grief, but. (suddenly2 I stopped writing my diary, because there's a really big noise coming from the street in front of my house)

“taaaaarrrrrr”

“allahuakabar” shouted mama

I looked at the window of my room, and there were many people gathered there and saw what was happening in front of the street. Curiously, I also saw what was happening..

Suddenly in front of the crowd was a stranger in my eyes.He was alfin, the person I had been waiting for all this time, the man who had long made me ask if he would come back after his disappearance from my life.I ran to see him, it turns out to be true, he was alfin, the person I had been looking for.. My tears were dripping little by little, the alfin on my lap was staring at me with a blood-soaked smile on his mouth and body, he looked and touched my face and said “I love you rin, but.. But I can't, saa.. At I want to go back in your life again… Time says different.. Ak... A...Ku... Darling ka...Mu...Rin” said the word as if to make my tears flow more rapidly, and at that time I expressed the feeling I felt to alfin, the same magnitude is “fin, you have to keep living.. I love you fin, I've been waiting for you for 2 years patiently fin, fin, please fin don't stayin me” my cry gets stronger as if alfin blood is flowing more and more in my hand, people around me can only be silent to see me and alfin who do not think that we love each other

“you take good care of yourself rin, someday, someday.My spirit will protect you, and lead you to find a man who can make you happy, happy more than I make you happy… Thank you rin for being the best for me, I am proud rin has you.. I love you” alfin eyes were closed for good, I screamed as loud as I wanted.. The people who saw me also felt my sorrow, the blood in my hands as if to be a witness, that my sacrifice was never in vain for alfin…

The next day after alfin's funeral, I was only able to lock myself up all day in my room. My mom tried to comfort me.. Mama said “loh rin? How do you keep moody? Already dong kiddo, if it can be, but do not overdo it, kasian loh alfinnya if arin galau mulu, let's not get sick with alfin?” mama's words also make me ask “loh? How sad alfin ma?” my many.

“iya dong, alfin sad if see the person he loves sad” said mama.

I also rubbed my tears slowly and tried to clench alfin, although my affection never knew until when it was strong to resist the departure of alfin..

Late at night, I returned to writing my diary, which faithfully accompanied my solitude.

Dear diary, it is calm in nature, how are you there? Is she happy? Said mama alfin would be sad if see me sad, I promise will not be sad fin, this is for your sake fin, I love you fin. (when writing the diary, the sound of alfin appears, alfin appears, I also stopped my writing to look back.How surprised, it turns out.Tenyata is alfn spirit, alfin promise he kept, his spirit is able to see, I can see, but both my parents and my maid couldn't see themselves alfin)

“hay :)” alfin spirits

“you? You're alfin spirit? You're a ghost, aren't you? Ghostuu...” My voice screams making mama and mama look at me to the room and ask me. “why arin?” ask mom and mom.. Roh alfin also saw me and assured me that he would not bother me, then my feelings became calm.. “enggak ma, arin was acting :d” lied to me to protect the spirit of alfin.. “ya already mama kirain why, had this mama's child there is only :)” mama and papa was back down.

“you're a real mole huh, you coward, I'm creepy ha? Make me almost out of sight -__-” oceh alfin spirit

“lah? You came all of a sudden, like a ghost, you're actually alfin?” ask me again to convince me.

“iya I am my spirit, alfin the shy alay boy, wkwk” funny alfin that is humorous.

“wah, you don't change fin, :)” my daydream with a smile.

“wah you why smile yourself rin? Wow this is because I live, crazy smiles that, miss ya :d”

“wkwk, yes fin, you are still like you who used to turn out :)”

“iya rin, I am not there, but I am still for you” joking and alfin fighting.

“ah cook? :d”

“cook cook yourself” alfin

“udah fin, you rada-rada yes it turns” arin.

Alfin looked at me, we looked at each other, alfin was not lying, his spirit came to make me happy, this is a miracle, thank God for everything.. I can feel the love of alfin again, even though he is only a spirit…

The next day…

“ah sleepy ma, just a moment longer ma”

“mama? You think mama loe cave? Wah I alfin mamen -_-” ”

“alfin?” my eyes also opened…

“bah :d” alfin's.

“wah you fin, wkwk, it turns out you woke up earlier than me. Wkwk.”

“wey, spirits don't sleep -_-”

“eh does not sleep? Something about wkwk”

“have taken a shower there, school, arentar at school you will see who the guy I promised you rin” said alfin.. I looked at her with a deep gaze, as if I wanted to say that I still loved her very much, even to replace others in the position of others in my heart this was difficult.. But I want the alfin spirit to calm down, I don't want it to disappear from my side, I don't want it to disappear back from my life just like it left me..

I took a shower and had breakfast and went to school…

While on the street I was talking with alfin spirits, people who saw me were astonished, as if they thought I was crazy, but I ignored it, because my sense of alfin was crazier. Wkwkwk…

Arriving at the school gate…

“if the road use dong” eyes said trcai guy..

“wey ordinary aja loe, loe who hit, kok loe who sewot..” angry me..

“mad chick” babble the guy.

“apa? Crazy one? This is crazy. Jegarrrr” the sound of a slap that arin aimed at the guy.

“loe... Crazy baseline..” shouted the guy while running.

“why do you tampar rin?” ask spirit alfin

“he's also looking for trouble with me, who he wants to do crazy cave, he's crazy fin” my chatter.

“haha, you are crazy right, wkwk” tease alfin

“wah wants to be slapped by death also yes kamu”

“eh don't rin, geez :d”

Arin also headed to class.The atmosphere of the class looks crowded, looks a girl who swarmed someone at a table, I curiously come to see and ask the gem…

“why eyes? What's up?” much

“ada new boy rin, handsome, tall, similar to alfin loh” (as soon as the eyes speak like that, I look towards alfin spirits, and alfin spirits just smile).

I was curious and looked at the table. What was unexpected, it turned out to be the rese guy I slapped earlier…

“ha? Elo!” my shock

“ha? This crazy girl again? Loe is not bosen-bosen his disrupt my life yes, go there and go” babble the guy..

“wey loe want to cave tabok again? Want to loe ha? Loe bener-bener”.

The cave came out of the classroom, the heart was getting hotter and mixed, my heart asked itself, suddenly an alfin spirit appeared…

“hey, daydream what? :)” alfin spirit

“tu guy was fin, kesel I” arin

“already, don't mind much :)” alfin spirit is trying to calm me down..