THE OWNER OF THE HEART ROOM
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"You feeling better now?" richard asked Nawang with a gentle smile.

They are stopping at the gas station to refuel and also all ashar prayers and buy snacks at the minimarket there.

Two of their children even fell asleep when they finished congregating at the POM mosque.

It seems that both of them are exhausted because they continue to chat and sometimes argue the coachman relentlessly along the road after they came from the house of Bu Halimah.

And now, only half the way home both of them have fallen asleep in the back bench while hugging the snacks they chose themselves in the minimarket.

"It's normal.". replied Nawang with a confused look.

Nawang clearly saw Richard frowning in wonder.

"Emang why?" ask Nawang confused.

"Not so light after us from there?" asked Richard in astonishment.

"I feel ordinary. I don't have a problem with Mom, neither does Dani. So meeting them is normal. Why anyway? Something wrong, huh?" asked Nawang confused himself.

Richard looked at Nawang with a view that Nawang could not translate.

There is a question that is like being held, there is a look of disbelief, also a confused look.

Hhhh, Nawang was even surprised by that.

"You don't believe me? Doubt my words?" asked Nawang after they chose to move the arena by sitting in the back of their car, having previously opened the back door of the car so that air circulation is maintained with children in it.

Although Nawang asked in a soft voice, but Richard clearly felt Nawang emotion speaking at this time.

"That's not it.." replied Richard floating, clearly showing doubt.

"Trus what if not that?" asked Nawang while looking at him, still with a suppressed tone as usual but with eyes that began to sharpen.

Waduuuh, wrong opening as it seems. Can runyam.....

"don't know. I don't know why I was like that. I just feel like you were very forced to go there. There you were not after kayaking usually at home. You are quieter and look less comfortable. Is it because you still remember everything that happened there? All the painful things that happened there? You haven't forgiven everything?" asked Richard in a soft tone and a little doubtful.

Nawang breathed heavily. Confused what to answer.

As a result he simply looked at Richard with a look of despair.

It was obvious that he would not be able to forget the painful things that happened there, at least not so fast.

If the Goddess had to show her nose, I don't know what she would do to the woman.

Luckily the goddess did not appear.

But even so, being in a place that once hurt him, feeling very stupid, and feeling very unappreciated still unknowingly makes him less comfortable because his subconscious is still very hurt.

Suddenly Nawang felt very guilty to Richard.

At this time, the man must have felt that he did not fully have his feelings.

Perhaps Richard felt Nawang had not completely abandoned his past.

"Sorry." said Nawang, touching Richard's arm, which was hugging his own knee, hiding his face between his knees.

The man was bowed lethargic and silent, matching what Nawang had done these few minutes.

"Why?" richard turned his head in an incomprehensible look.

The highlight of his eyes turned into a look of guilt when he saw the mist in Nawang's gaze at him.

"I'm sorry that you feel I haven't been able to move on completely" Nawang said then lowered his head, hiding tears that jostled to slide from his eyelids due to the guilt that pressed his heart.

"No. That's not what I mean, honey." said Richard softly and then hugged his shoulder softly for a moment.

Only a glance Richard hugged him because it might soon be realized that they were in a public place even though in fact their position was quite hidden from the general gaze because behind them was a wall and left right they were cars parking is enough to go back.

"Really, I don't have the same feelings as Dani. If that's what you're worried about. I wouldn't want to walk with you if I hadn't been able to clear my heart. Especially until you accept your application. In a matter of weeks we will be married. There's no way I could do that if I still let my heart fill up with another" Nawang said in a reassuring tone.

Richard was silent.

Nawang seemed to have misunderstood.

This is why the hell?

Richard was confused by what was happening right now.

"Yes, don't need to be discussed anymore." Richard finally made a unilateral decision.

This will be a complicated conversation that will not find the tip of the base if it continues.

"Do you need to talk about it anymore?! I don't want you to think weird about me. Make me uncomfortable." said Nawang with a grumbling face.

Richard took a deep breath and then exhaled slowly.

Trying to gather patience so as not to get carried away by Nawang's emotions.

"I believe you're done with Dani. I really really believe. I had no tendency other than to worry about you, your feelings. That'sallthatis. I just want to always see you comfortable and calm. That's it." said Richard very slowly pronouncing word for word for Nawang to take a serious look.

So that Nawang immediately understood what he meant and did not go back to misunderstanding.

Nawang lowered his head then nodded in understanding despite not returning Richard's words.

"I'm still trying to forgive everything. I want to calm down. I also want to forget, but I can't" said Nawang finally.

Richard returned Nawang's gaze - one that looked deeply hurt and regretful - with an affectionate and understanding look.

"It's all going to be over with time. Your wounds will heal over time. Let everything flow as it should. If remembering the past makes you hurt and hurts you, you don't have to remember it. The important thing is that you keep trying to forgive any mistakes in the past, it will be a relief. The rest let the time work. You'll be fine with me, I promise." said Richard softly.

Richard grabbed Nawang's fingers and grasped them gently but felt steady encapsulating Nawang's fingers.

Making Nawang so feel safe and protected, also believe.

"Let's go, Mas" said Nawang with a voice that sounded lighter in Richard's ear.

Like there was relief in that voice.

Like there was confidence in the gaze behind those glasses.

"Please forgive me if later my attitude irritates you. Please tell me that my attitude hurt you. Yea?" pinta Nawang while tightening their hands.

"Yes. Without you asking, I will always be able to forgive you. You also promise yes, do not hold your own if you do not like my style of treating you later. Aja protests. Usually not papa. You still have to be yourself. You have to be a happy wife and mother. Promise?" pinta Richard with a gaze that makes Nawang like to be the only world for Richard.

Being the only one that should always be okay for Richard.

"But I'm fierce, jutek, bitch. Can I like that with you? Later you turn in the cultivation of spoiled nyari, give in, and treat you like a king." said Nawang.

Richard chuckles.

"You have been very principle-keeping, very good name-keeping, very self-sustaining. Until I got dizzy PDKT with you. Sebel knew that?" sumbang Richard pura sebel.

"What the hell?" kekeh Nawang while stabbing Richard's upper arm.

"If not fierce, not jutek, not indifferent, I can not even recognize you. That's what makes me so sure you're my Nawang" Richard said, twitching flirtatiously at Nawang, making the woman chuckle softly.

I can catch this guy.

"Stay like you I know. If we have to change, we will both change the same, not just you, not just me. You'll fix me, I'll fix you. We won't feel lost to each other because we've changed the same." said Richard still gently, making Nawang's nudity stalled, re-riggered.

"I still feel like everything that's happened lately in my life is a dream. Sweet dream. Is this really just a dream, Mom?" nawang asked as he looked at Richard.

"If it's true this is just a dream, at least we enjoy this beautiful dream both of us. With the people we want. We just need to keep falling asleep so that this dream doesn't end" Richard said with a smile.

"Mother.....!"

"Lord....!"

The voices of Darren and the Star from the car door made their smiles widen even more.

"It clearly shows that this is not a dream." whispered Richard before rushing to his feet.

"We are here." said Richard with a smile and approached the two boys who will accompany throughout the history of his life later.

A jewel that will never be replaced.

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