
I'm Halimah.
An ordinary girl who grew up in a remote village far from the great world of the city.
I was born into a small, simple family.
In my abode, customs and religion are still very strongly held by all communities.
Today all my ideals and hopes were destroyed.
The desire to be able to continue school to the college level is now just a story.
I have repeatedly begged Dad to let me go to the city.
But of course the big rejection I received from Dad.
" dad.. A promise to keep the good name of the family... Halimah went to Koa just to continue her school.. Halimah please... Allow Halimah.. The promise won't trouble Mom and Dad.. Halimah will fight alone there to meet the needs of Halimah's life.. Halimah has been accepted and has received a free scholarship for tuition until Dad finishes.." I asked Dad to be given permission to go to the city to pursue my dream of becoming a student at a college that had received and given me an outstanding scholarship.
"No Halimah.. Stop begging.. I've repeatedly told you. You can't continue your school to the city. Live your nature as a woman whose main task is in the kitchen, wells and mattresses. The woman's her place at home. Being a good wife and a sholeha who obey their parents and husband.... Enough school to reach the SMU level only" said Dad fiery to me.
I could only cry hearing her words so dull. My father still holds fast to his old custom. Education is not important for women. The woman is only a wife and mother for her children. So there is no need to go to school and aspire too high so forget the nature as a woman.
I really gave up.
There is no hope of continuing school.
It will never be possible to create.
Ivu was unable to do anything to help me explain to Dad the importance of education today.
I was further crushed when my Walikelas with the Headmaster came home to try to convince Dad about my achievements to be the best student in school.
"Halimah is a smart child, sir, He became a selected student who received a free Scholarship to graduate without the slightest fee" said Ibu Nurul Walikelasku.
Dad just kept quiet with a reddened face like he was going to be furious.
I was very nervous to see his reaction.
"Once again I say thank you for the arrival of Mother and Mr. Headmaster. But I have unanimously not given permission to Halimah to continue her schooling to the city. Halimah will soon I marry Kyai Rifa'i son who owns the Darussalam boarding school next door" replied Mr. Shocking me.
"But Halimah doesn't want to marry Dad.. Halimah is young.. Just 18 years old Dad.. Halimah is not ready to be a wife, "I said I refused the matchmaking from Dad.
"Everything is not ready, inevitably, you have to marry the man you've been betrothed to. Remember Halimah, if you want to survive and not be an ungodly child follow my orders.. I know exactly what's best for you.. I want you to be a sholeha child and a sholeha wife too.. Understood it! " father snapped at me in front of the welkelas and the visiting Headmaster.
I'm so ashamed of it.
I ran into the room and cried.
My ideas will really be buried.