
I slowly opened the bag my mother-in-law gave me.
A letter, A set of jewelry and a cracked couple watch.
A watch that leaves me with a deep wound.
A watch that bears witness to the tragic story that took Abang Hafiz away for good from my life.
I'm sobbing in memory of all the past memories.
At that time I felt very happy because I could spend all day spoiled with Brother Hafiz.
The couple watches we wear on our wrists make the look of Brother Hafiz's face so radiant.
Brother Hafiz was so handsome that day.
I cried sobbing at the thought of all our memories coming back.
"Why is it so short, O GOD?" I am sorry in the heart.
Such beautiful memories are painful for me.
A marriage so short.
very tragic.
I cried all night to wake me up.
My body ached all over, my eyes were swollen and sore as well.
"Astagfirullah.." I said repeatedly as I slowly nodded my dizzy head.
I woke up and immediately started the morning prayers.
Then between conscious and not, I felt approached by Abang Hafiz who was sitting right next to the right, wearing all-white clothes complete with Hajj skullcap and sarong cloth wrapped so neatly on his body.
"Abang.." I slowly looked in the direction of the money smiling so sweetly.
Brother Hafiz nodded slowly.
"Smile.. Be sincere. and be patient.." he was heard echoing in my ears clearly.
"Abang.." I said again softly and began to cry.
"Halimah....!!!!!!" I heard my voice calling me so loudly on the left side.
With weight I tried to open my mulit eyes.
"Yet.." I said slowly waking up from my fainting.
"Are you okay, son... ?"mother asked worriedly while continuing to rub eucalyptus oil on the tip of my nose.
I nodded slowly.
My consciousness is recovering.
I remember everything that happened.
I fainted just as I stood to open my face after the dawn prayer.
"Mother.." I said slowly grabbing Mom's arm for me to hug.
I cried sobbing.
Mother defended me lovingly.
"Istigfar Halimah." said the father who was right next to the mother.
"Astagfirullah.." I said again repeatedly and then tried to calm myself down.
I also told him everything I had just experienced.
Mom and Dad hugged me tight.
Swiping my shoulders, as well as my crown.
"Goddess.. It's time you got up from the slump, son.. Do not let yourself continue to dissolve in sadness.. Hafiz was already happy on the side of the Khalik.. Later, we will also follow him there.. Nothing is eternal in this world, son.. Make sure that you are calm in the afterlife.. Be patient.. GOD has the best plan for you... Ikhlaskan Nak's... Ikhlaskan.." Father's advice is still while stroking my tubers.
I nodded slowly.
"I'm Forgiven by ALLAH.. Forgive me for being too late in grief.. Forgive me for blaming your fate for what I thought was unfair to me.. Forgive me.." I said in my heart.
"Put my late husband on your best side, O ALLAH.. Put yes in your paradise.. Yes, with those who are dear to the Prophet Muhammad.. Put yes in your paradise without a hishab.. Now I am sincere, O ALLAH.. I'm sincere about all your provisions.. I am ridho of my hodup that you have outlined.. Strengthen Me.. Give me your lead.. Forgive all my sins.. Give me a clear path in your service.. Aamiin.." I pray again in a hopeful heart.
"I'm Sorry Halimah Well.. Buk... Halimah had made Father and Mother anxious, "I said and kissed my parents' hands.
Ayaj and aibu nodded slowly and Kamipin then replied to each other with a haru smile.