The Path of Love Halimah
Episode 41

It is our regional tradition to always hold 3 nights, 7 nights and 40 days to commemorate each of the deceased.

Similarly, the memorial of the deceased and the deceased of my parents who were held in the residence of my in-laws who were kind to me.

My situation feels very different now.

I was empty and devastated.

Losing my brother Hafiz and future baby was enough to make me almost destroyed, then I tried to get back up.

This time fate seems to be playing me so cruelly.

Just now it felt like I was trying to enjoy my new life, but with a moment my happiness was taken back so suddenly.

The parents that I loved so much, I loved, my place was spoiled, my place was propped up, my place was groaning, my place was quiet, now gone forever.

They just left without saying goodbye to me.

Leaving me who now has to walk alone without direction anymore.

It seems that there is no point in living this life.

I'd love it to feel like I'll catch up with them soon.

Wishing every night death would come to pick me up too to meet them soon the loved ones whom I so long for.

But I am not a God who can manage time.

Even if this pain feels almost kill me, but still my body is still firmly grounded on this earth.

"What a heart you let me here.. You guys left without taking me along.. why?? I want to come with Dad.. Mother.. Please take me with you.." I cried in my heart.

"Dad... Mothers... Halimah... Miss trramat very... What should Halimah do now without you??? There's no point in Halimah in this world, Dad.. Take Halimah with you... Halimah wants to come with you... Halimah longs.." I said again with tears that continue to flow do not stop.

"Goddess.... Can Umi come in, son??" said Umi in front of the door of the room that I closed tightly.

"Come on Umi." I said as I wiped the tears immediately.

"Goddess... Eat yuk son." take Umi to me.

"Halima is still full Umi." I refused.

"Goddess... Did Halimah know that Umi and Abi really love Halimah?? Do you know that Umi and Abi consider Halima like our biological children?? You know that, right?" ask Umi.

I nodded strongly.

"Goddess... Umi knows Halimah's feelings at this time.. Umi did not forbid Halimah to cry and grieve for the loss of her parents.. But son.. Lamenting people who have died is strictly prohibited in our religion, son.." Umi advised me.

"Halima must know, there are still Umi and Abi who love Halimah so sincerely.. Umi and Abi do not want Halimah to dissolve lamenting the death of Father and Mother Halimah son.. There's still Umi and Abi here, son. beside Halimah.. Umi and Abi are now feeling very anxious, even feeling almost broken Asa saw the current state of Halimah son.." said Umi with a trembling tone holding back tears.

"It's been 40 days son... Already when Halimah stood up straight and reorganized the life of Halimah.. There's Umi and Abi here baby.. Umi and Abi will replace Halimah's parents in this world.. We are ready to be the backrest, where Halimah complains, indulges, asks, and even we are ready to give our lives for you son." he said again with a cry that began to break.

"Umi.." I answered briefly and hugged her tightly.

"Umi loves you, son.. Love you so much, please don't torture yourself like this.. Believe me son, all that happens is by the will of ALLAH alone.and ALLAh gives this trial to Halimah, because ALLAH is sure Halimah mamou faces it.. There's still Umi here, son... Umi who will take care of Halimah until later Umi's turn will also be picked up.. Believe son.. Let's get back up.. Jkir returned your beautiful smile.. Your spirit and all your future hopes.. Umi and Abi are here by your side who are ready to fight to help you through every obstacle.. Believe me." said Umi Senbari stroking gently the top of my head.