The Path of Love Halimah
Eoisode 42's

Umi's advice and such sincere concern for me made me think long into a deep night.

"Astagfirullah.." I said a thousand times.

"Punish Me, O ALLAH... Forgive me for blaming you... Who is desperate for my life right now... Forgive Me, O ALLAH.. How weak and thin is this faith, that your great trials have made me so shaky and frail, O GOD... I fell too deep in taste.. Until I forget that all are provisions that I should have lived with sincerity.. Wouldn't everything alive come back to you.. I just need to fight and keep trying to get closer to you..?!" my words speak for themselves.

"Astagfirulah... Forgive the sins of the two parents of the servants, O ALLAH.. Strengthen this heart.. Spill it.. Guide to ALLAH." I said softly with another cry.

"There are many people who love me.. I am not alone in this world... There's nothing I should be afraid of... Is not the LORD my true refuge?? This earth is just a stopover... There's nothing I need to worry about.. Strengthen Me, O ALLAH.. Heart willing this to face all your conjectures.. I beg the LORD." I pray again in one third of my night.

"Aami... Aamiin yes robbal alamiin.."

The long prayer that became my reflection finally made me decide to reorganize my heart and spirit.

There are still Umi, Abi, Kak Wulan, Kak Mirna and difficult santri like my close family. There is nothing I need to regret continuously.

My path is still very long, I have to get back up.

Back to life, living a happy and colorful life with the people around me.

I must be sure that ALLAH will give the best for his servants.

"Bismillah... Halimah Spirit...!!" my own words encouraged myself before leaving for school to teach after 40 days and one week I've had a day off work and even shut myself off from everyone.

While walking on the sidewalk I started smiling again to say hello to a bright morning.

Some of the students who are cool with their respective activities, greet those who pass by in their dormitories with a friendly.

I try to give them my sweetest smile.

"Sir Halimaah.." cried wati with his distinctive hoarse voice running towards me.

"Die.." I said standing up straight waiting for him to come closer.

"Alhamdulillah... I'm sorry brother dek.." I said grabbing his hand.

He shook his head strongly.

"Wati understands.. Wati will also probably do so if Wati is in the position of Halimah's sister." she replied with a smile.

I grabbed him in my arms.

We hugged each other for a long time to let go of the burden.

I'm so grateful to have Wati whom I've taken as my own sister.

He loved me like his own brother.

"Yes, Brother Halimah wants to go to school first.. Afraid late.. For a long time not in teaching, Halkmah had to meet with Mirna and Wulan first intjk apologized" said I to wati after loosening our arms.

Wati nodded back strongly.

"See you again, sister." she said she greeted me and then let me go away.

With a step gontai I set foot by foot on the road to the school where I teach which is not too far away.

I re-imagined the happy face of Umi and Abi when I apologized and expressed all my feelings to them at dawn.

Even Umi drove me to the yard when I was going to go to this oagi school.

Umi was so happy to see me back excited to live life.

"Thank you, GOD.. You made Umi and Abi a substitute for my father and mother.. Always bless them, O ALLAH.. Aamiin" I prayed in my heart while still walking slowly towards school.