
My body feels so crumpled and tired.
I was so tired of serving the guests that were present all day.
After praying isya nervously I lay on a bed that is so typical as a fresh flower with a white rose patterned bed sheet.
My room has now been turned into a bridal room.
And I am his bride.
Waiting for the bridegroom to enter the room and begin our duties as husband and wife.
"YES ALLAH.. I blelum siaaappp" I screamed in my heart.
I tilted my body against the wall and tried to close my eyes.
"I had to go to bed early before Brother Hafiz came into the room" I whispered in an increasingly thumping heart as I imagined that there would be a man lying next to me starting tonight.
"Astagfirullah." I repeatedly tried to erase all my bad thoughts.
"Tok.. "
"Assynolajet.. "
"Kreekk"
The door of the room opened, the greeting of Abang hafiz was clearly heard in my ear.
I can't pretend to be asleep.
I'm very nervous.
"Waalaikumsalam" I answered and then immediately rose to take a sitting position leaning against the bed wall and fixed the position of my hijab to get back neat.
My hands and feet are very cold.
I'm too nervous.
"Not slept? " ask her while sitting on the side of the bed.
"Just want to sleep" I answered briefly.
"Well prayers? " ask her again.
I nodded my head.
"Sleep.. I want to pray first!" he said it then left me who was still sitting stuck to hold back the nervousness.
I went back to sleep and closed my eyes.
Somewhat feels a little uncomfortable because they are not used to sleeping using the hijab.
Usually every time I sleep, I always open my headscarf and stroke my hair on the pillow.
But this time it's possible.
There's a stranger in my room and I'm so scared.
My eyes cannot compromise.
My heart was getting tighter when I heard Abang Hafiz's footsteps approaching.
It means that he has finished doing the isya prayer.
I felt his body very close to me.
He lay right next to my body shivering from nervousness.
I really-bensr can't sleep.
Even my throat was very dry.
"YES ALLAH... How'this?? " i am in my heart.
"Goddess... Have you slept? " ask her slowly to me.
"Not yet" I answered briefly with a sleeping position that remained on his back.
Suddenly I felt Him Rise up and position his body to sit on the bed with a pillow supporting his neck.
"Goddess.. We are now officially husband and wife.. You know Halimah must feel very foreign to you.. Especially before we didn't know each other.. Honestly, my brother felt very foreign and nervous once. "he said again to me who still did not budge from my sleeping position.
"Let's learn to know each other.. We start all over slowly.. Do you want to try her? "ask him again to me.
"Yes.. Halimah wants to Bang" I replied slowly.
"Thank you... Good night and good night" he said again.
He put his body back on the bed.
My throat is really dry.
I'm so thirsty.
I can't hold it anymore.
Inevitably I ventured to rise from my sleep slowly.
And when I turned to him, the meeting of Abang Hafiz had fallen asleep.
I was amazed to see him.
For a long time I looked at his face carefully.
"He is now my husband... The soul you sent for me, O ALLAH.. Help me be a worthy wife to her.. Help Me, O ALLAH.. Cultivate a sense of love and sincerely live a destiny that you have surmised for me, O ALLAH.... Aamiin" my prayers in my heart.
My eyes are so warm.
A drop of tear fell unstoppable.
"Astagfirullah." I said when I woke up and immediately took a glass of drinking water that had been provided on the nightstand.