The Poor Girl's
I Don't Want to!

Elin heard Nina's question immediately turned her head to look at him with a sharp look.

"Shush." Ketus Elin's

Nina grimaced, "Lin, why don't you look like that?" asked Nina pretending to be stupid

"You ask what you know the answer to" said Elin

"Yes I know, I think you changed your mind after you got close to Rico," Nina said what was on her mind.

"You seem to like her, she also seems to like you, shouldn't you get closer to her?" nina's assumption makes Elin not like it.

Elin looked at Nina dislikefully, then said, "i've told you, if I wouldn't have had a romance or a date before I finished High School!" resolutely Elin

"While you like someone?" ask Nina to make sure

"Yes!" reply Elin

"If someone likes you and asks you to be his girlfriend how? you still don't want to?" asked Nina who was astonished by Elin's colossal thoughts.

"I promised myself I wouldn't date in school. I will not break my promise!" said Elin steady.

"It wasn't easy for me to get to this point, it was difficult for me to continue my education in this school. The hardships I went through made me determined to focus on learning. I don't want a love story or romance to make me not focus on learning. I don't want that to bother my mind." Obviously Elin

"You're serious" said Nina

"I thought you'd falter because you're in love?" ledek Nina's

"You don't know, I've been in love for a long time. You don't know that. It's even deeper than I feel right now." Inner Elin

Elin remained silent. Recalling the love, the shadow of Reyhan's face flashed through his mind. The memories of Reyhan when he first became acquainted with the man flashed through his mind.

The moment where he started getting close to the man, going home from school together, until the last time he met Reyhan when the man left to continue his ideals. All of it revolved in his memory, making his eyes glaze over as if he wanted to bring out something stuck there.

Nina who was watching Elin waiting for a response to her question hanging frowned at the change in the look on Elin's face. The face suddenly showed sadness.

"Hey, what's wrong with you?" asked Nina in surprise.

Elin jumped a little surprised, yet she tried to cover up. "Why what?" elin asked pretending to be stupid even though he was sure it would be very noticeable.

Nina snorted, "cheek, you're still pretending not to know?" timpal Nina

"I could see your face just now, there was no reason to turn sad. And that's your eyes like they're gonna water?" Nina who is as is says what she sees.

"What are you thinking?" ask Nina curiously

"You're turning sad when I ask you to make sure that your principles will waver after you've fallen in love?" tanya Nina repeated her question.

"Do you feel stuck because of your principles?" nina Cibir

"You should have thought long before you actually promised yourself. We do not know what will happen in our next life, do not be rash to make decisions. It's not a crime or a mistake, there's no need for you to stick to that ridiculous principle of yours!"

"What principle is that? there is nothing wrong with having a relationship with a man. If you're afraid it'll affect your grades, it depends on yourself. How you're reacting to it. Look Yuna, she's beautiful, she's accomplished, she's got a lover but see what her performance is going down? no, right?" nina's light by comparing someone who is in love but still achieves.

"I don't feel stuck at all with my principles!" elin answered firmly staring at Nina

"That's what I do to appreciate my struggle. I was just on my guard and didn't want to take any risks when it came to the heart. My heart is weak, fragile. I don't want it when my heart is sick, weak and frail it makes me unfocused on learning and I'm afraid it affects my grades.

I know about myself. School for me just to learn, I don't want my mind divided for anything else that could break my focus." Obviously Elin

"As far as you go" replied Nina who was fed up with Elin's words

"I'm not a hypocrite. Honestly, I want to be like everyone else in a relationship with someone I like, I want someone to express love to me, I want to get the attention of the person I like. But it was just a wish," Elin spun far ahead silent for a moment

"Until this moment not a single man has expressed his liking to me, nothing. Even though I like someone, I can't express my love. I'm a woman who doesn't deserve to do that" Elin said in a sad tone at every word she said.

The words slide as his memory recalls the story of his closeness with Reyhan that had been intertwined even if only for a moment.

Nina was stunned to find Elin's expression. He did not pay attention to every word that came out of his best friend's mouth.

"That convinced me to remember my promise" Elin turned to look at Nina

Nina blinked slightly in disbelief hearing Elin's statement.

"If someone were to say they like you, would you change your mind?" asked Nina once again to make sure

Elin sighed, "nothing if, I don't want to wonder" replied Elin

"Jawab only!" pinta Nina's

"No way," replied Elin

"Hey, you just have to answer. What's difficult?" ketus Nina

"I don't want to, don't push!" resolutely Elin

Nina sneered and threw away her face, Elin did not care about it. He chose to continue his writing duties.

Nina grumbled, "dad, it's bad to talk to him" Nina grumbled

The conversation ended with those who were silent to each other.

The bell reads a sign that the study hours are over, the time shows at 13:00 the time for students to go home.

Elin and Nina seem like the usual way together, although the debate does not make them stay away from each other. For Elin and Nina it was a common thing between the two of them. Arguing then made up as if nothing had happened before.

Elin had arrived at her yard. As her feet were treading on the floor of the house right in front of the door, she faintly heard a screaming sound from inside the house. Suddenly his body was limp, his chest tight, his heart ached.

His weak body brought Elin turned his body in an indiscriminate step, his mind drifted far away, his heart shattered. His eyes are heating up sore! it felt like tears were about to fall but she held it back.

His feet kept moving away from the house. Don't know where to go, right now his mind is fucked. He wanted to complain but to whom? he wanted to spit out the grievance of his life full of pain but to whom? who cares?

"Is there someone who cares about me?" inner Elin