The Poor Girl's
Feeling Embarrassed

The night before, Elin lay her body on a worn bed made of wood measuring 2×1 meters, very small. Only fit for one person.

"My body hurts all," muttered Elin

"This is what it's like to slash the grass, so tiring." Elin remembered the abah who often slashed the grass counted 1 month once the activity was done abah.

Not intending to sleep, just want to rest the body but what happened Elin actually fell asleep, he was tired so he fell asleep without dinner.

In the morning, Elin woke up and sat down. He tried to relieve the drowsiness by occasionally opening his eyes to normalize his blurry vision.

"What time is this?" muttered Elin

"Why didn't mom and dad wake me up?" inner Elin. His eyes were pointing to the wall clock in the room.

"Nothing should wake me up, but it's too early." Inner Elin while getting out of bed.

Elin walked into the ablution bathroom and carried out her duties as a Muslim. Afterwards Elin searched for the whereabouts of her mother and brother that were not visible since Elin woke up.

"Have you and your mom been to the market? can't it feel to the market without waking me up?" thought Elin

Elin walked towards the vestibule wanting to ascertain what was right on her mind at the moment.

"All the goods are still in place, that means you have not yet left for the market." Muttered Elin.

Elin intended to go to the room to wake up abah because it was time to go to the market. Just as Elin turned around, she was about to step up, appearing from inside the house.

"Is it awake?" ask Elin.

"Elin was just about to wake up brother, Elin tau abah has not woken up because all the stuff is intact." Elin

"Yes last night I slept too late to be bad luck." Abah

"Let's go to the market, it's Elin's noon." Ask them because this time they leave late than usual. Daytime meaning sounds excessive, but it is indeed a principle if it passes from the proper time it is said noon for you.

"Is mom not up yet?" ask Elin

"It seems like, just now when I was about to come out, I heard the sound of water coming from the bathroom." Abah

"Yes let's go, we can be late Elin." Abah reminded.

Abah and Elin begin work as usual, finished with their usual work as Elin prepares to go to school.

The School

As Elin walked into the school gate, her face was gloomy and not as vibrant as usual. Elin walked away with a bow.

Bruukks

Elin who was walking down hit someone.

"Aaw." Elin screamed a little.

The powerful collision caused Elin's forehead to hurt. Elin stroked her painful forehead still in a lowered position.

"You're a big hobby, you hit me." The voice that was very familiar to Elin made Elin raise her head and see clearly the owner of the voice.

"Ranchan." Whisper Elin slowly with a dumb face.

Reyhan who could see Elin's bengong face was intending to tease Elin

"It's so nice to be a handsome guy." Tempta Reyhan smiled with eyebrows up and down.

"It's a shame, I've always been nervous dealing with Reyhan." The whisper of Elin's heart

"Call..." Reyhan said with a hand waving in front of Elin's face.

"Again...you daydream, you may daydream when I am in front of you. Oh, I know, you admire my good looks." Reyhan just kept teasing Elin.

"I'm handsome, don't look at me for too long you'll be in love." Reyhan said confidently. Reyhan who realized Elin wrong behavior more eager to continue teasing Elin.

"What the hell." Said Elin with a crimson face holding in shame.

Elin who was not used to being treated like this did not know what kind of response, in the end he passed away leaving Reyhan.

Elin couldn't stand facing Reyhan making him misbehave and she knew it was because she chose to leave. He could not control his mood.

"Maha." Reyhan laughed feeling funny seeing Elin's face flushed with it.

Reyhan's laughter was clearly heard in Elin's hearing. He felt laughed at because of his timid behavior. Instantly his heart ached feeling humiliated.

"Why should he show that he can see me wrong? why is he treating me like this?" inner Elin hurt because she felt laughed at her attitude which might look very embarrassing in front of Reyhan, so thought Elin.

Elin quickened her pace, wanting to get away from hiding her eyes that were starting to feel hot maybe soon the tears would flow profusely.

Tears dripped down at the end of Elin's eyes, the pain pushing those tears still dripping even though Elin was trying hard to hold her back.

"It's so hard for me to be ordinary when dealing with him." Elin complained to herself.

"Why am I not like the others, able to behave normally against handsome men, why should I be so ashamed?" Elin is desperate for her shy self.

Elin who is always busy with homework and school makes her not have much time to hang out with her peers, making it difficult for Elin to interact and adapt.

A difficult ecomomy and a lack of harmonious parenting relationships make Elin face a harsh life. The harshness of her life and the hard attitude of her mother to Elin unwittingly affect Elin's mental development.

The frequent parental quarrels that occurred before Elin's eyes, made her mentally squeaky. All of that was not realized by both Elin's parents or Elin himself.

Elin is fully aware of his quiet and shy attitude is like a boomerang for him, he is difficult to bring himself and difficult to adapt. But he also couldn't change it.

Elin continued to step towards the classroom, she was already a little calm.

"Hi Elin's." Ica Sapa. When Elin passed class 3B or rather class 9B.

"Hi." Elin said hello again.

"After graduation you want to continue where is Lin High School?" ask Ica to the point

"Not know." Elin answered, who had no choice. No, not have no choice but rather have not thought about going to which school.

"Where do you want to go to High School?" ask Elin to Ica

"I haven't decided yet, still confused me Lin. My parents wanted me to go to high school but I felt I couldn't afford Lin, my brain wouldn't be able to compete in a school that's all smart kids." The word Ica sounds like complaining.

"I'm tired of Lin, I think my brain is getting tired of thinking. I don't want to go to school." Ica complains that said full emphasis on the word brain.

Elin gasped with Ica's words, she did not expect there was also a child who wanted to drop out of school on the grounds of an incapable brain.

In contrast to Elin, Elin is eager to continue education but difficult economic life becomes a barrier for Elin to continue his desire.

Elin growled at Ica's words, "It's not your tired brain but your lazy one." Said Elin