The Roof You Promised
Part 74 - In My Eyes, You Are the Most Perfect
Now Herjuno is restless. He stared at the dazed Aurorae. The woman was still looking down at the glass of ice chocolate that only half contained.
Please please.
Say something else.
Don't apologize.
Herjuno continued to speak for himself in his heart. He does not want to interrupt. If Aurorae apologized, would she have heard anything disappointing today?
"I'm sorry, you must have been hurt a lot because of me."
Herjuno was still silent, not wanting to interrupt.
"I should have rejected you firmly, or accepted you correctly."
Good. There's still a chance. Sure oes.
Herjuno breathed a sigh of relief, after almost having his heart dislodged.
"In an indirect way, I prevent you from seeking happiness." this time Aurorae looked up, looking at the bead of Herjuno's eyes that had been looking at him.
"After this, do not hesitate to approach another woman Mas. I want you to find your happiness. Don't live alone any longer, it makes me feel guilty."
"It's a rejection?"
Aurorae. "I'm sorry."
Herjuno. "No need to apologize. Waiting for you is my decision, and I never regret."
"No longer feel guilty for what happened in the past. I know it wasn't entirely your fault. Like our marriage, our divorce is also destiny. So let go of your burdens, and be happy. Live happily."
"I'm waiting for you because I love you. Not because I feel guilty about our divorce."
Aurorae. His heart was pounding ten times faster. Jeez, this man even looked at her without blinking making Aurorae misbehave.
"I love you. Hugely. I never thought about looking for another woman. For what, you're more than enough."
"Mas, I-I-"
"Am I burdening you? You're.." Herjuno paused for a moment his sentence. "Love's got?" Honestly asking this made his heart feel in crumb.
Aurorae shook her head quickly. "Of course not!"
Hid. Aurorae condemns his stupidity. Does it seem obvious that he does not want Herjuno to misunderstand?
Herjuno can breathe a sigh of relief. All right, while Aurorae's talking to her, let's make the most of this. Not necessarily he will get this opportunity again, considering Aurorae always install a high wall between them.
"Why don't you want to come back to me? You, don't love me anymore?"
"I'm..." Aurorae was silent, unable to continue her sentence. Just answer right, I don't love you anymore. What difficulty.
"Aren't there just a little bit of your feelings for me left, Rae?"
Damnit. Herjuno seemed to be cornering him.
"It's not like that, Mom. Just--"
"Ah, so you still love me?" Herjuno could no longer hide his smile.
Aurorae. Herjuno's first smile caught his sight. Ah, it had been a long time since he had seen that smile when they were just the two of them. Herjuno will look so happy only with his children.
"Sad. You set me up." Aurorae clicked her tongue hard.
Herjuno smiled wider. He ventured into holding Aurorae's hand, making the woman a little surprised but not rebellious.
"I'm very happy. You still love me, that's enough. It's okay if you haven't been able to take me back in your life, but knowing I'm in your heart makes me so happy." This time Herjuno stared into both Aurorae's eyes.
Aurorae knew, Herjuno sincerely said so.
"Mas. I mean, you could've found more women than me." Aurorae wanted to pull her hand away, but Herjuno did not let go.
"I don't want to."
"Mas! You're a man, even if you want a woman in her thirties you can still!" Gosh, Aurorae can't believe she said that. What he didn't know, his insecurities were clearly visible.
"I just want you." Herjuno still continued to look at Aurorae without blinking, his hand grip getting tighter.
"After all, have you never reflected? Who's gonna believe you're forty-one?" continued again.
"You're so pretty. I don't want anything else."
This man did not end up making Aurorae wrong. Doesn't he know that Aurorae's heartbeat isn't safe now.
"Mas, I-I-"
"Just say you want me to fight more for you. It's okay, I'll try more. A hum?"
"I'm afraid of disappointing you." Aurorae lowered her head, too long staring at Herjuno was not good for her health.
Herjuno. "I've already said-"
"You know, I'm not young anymore. A lot has changed in me, in my body. I'm afraid, I'm no longer like I was in your memory nineteen years ago."
Herjuno smelled his smile. "In my eyes, in my heart, you are the most beautiful. Your body is the most perfect." He stood up, slightly bowing his body closer to the table-blocked Aurorae. "Want to prove it?"
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