The Steel-Cared Rose
LDR

The long distance relationship, Sinta and Dylan's marriage and Dylan's relaxed attitude face Sinta's fragile attitude.

Make Sinta have space to process all the things that happen to her.

Dylan also helped her hire a psychiatrist with house services. So that Sinta felt comfortable and did not feel that she was treating her shaken soul. I experienced a series of events that happened to him.

Megan is a home-sharing psychiatrist hired by Dylan to cure a shaken Sinta.

"Why did you hire a psychiatrist? I'm not crazy!"

"Psychiatrists are not for the crazy. It's wrong to think so. Psychiatrists are like doctors. Curing disease. It's just that doctors treat our sick bodies. Psychiatrists treat our souls who are shaken or wounded."

"You're overreacting."

"I'm not overreacting. Your anxiety disorder increases when you think of everything that happened to you. Plus our marriage. While you yourself are still confused by your previous marriage."

"Should I attend my psychiatric treatment session?"

"Yes, you have to hold him. So that you can continue your life comfortably. No doubt, sensitive, confused, anxious, afraid, sad and angry. You have to be able to face and manage all your negative emotions."

Megan helps Sinta to understand the reality she is facing.

"Your desire to get divorced first is highly unlikely to weigh up the situation."

"But I feel guilty. I feel like I have two marriages. I can't serve Dylan because I feel I'm still somebody else's wife."

"You haven't served your husband before since you got married. Technically you've never been husband and wife."

"But the marriage is still there because we never divorced and I'm still alive. I committed a series of crimes, unwilling to serve my husband, faking my death and remarrying." Sinta's crying. Take out all his emotions. He felt very shaken.

"Do you want to tell me everything again?"

"I have to tell you again? It all hurts me so much."

"For you to better understand the reality. I'm not forcing you but it doesn't seem like you understand or accept reality the way you should."

"As I said, the reality is that I'm committing various crimes."

"You're building a perception of yourself very negatively. You have not yet added to it the concept of sin. It makes your condition more severe and dilemma. Do you understand the concept of polyandry?"

"Have two husbands."

"Have what? What if you have two husbands and you only serve one of them called polyandry?"

"Poliandri is having two husbands. It's a matter of whether you serve both or not. Or just one of them doesn't matter."

"Who said it wasn't a problem? Polyandry is related to a particular culture and religion. Some are indeed polyandry and they do have more than one husband and serve him in turn. It's not just having a lot of husbands without rights and obligations in them."

"I don't feel better with our conversation. I feel like I'm doing justification."

"If you want to recover from your illness. You have to understand the complexity of your problem and focus on what it means to do, not the perception you're building, so it's not like a tangled thread."

"As I said I did polyandry and faked my death." Sinta was crying again.

"Poliandri served two husbands at the same time. You never served your ex-husband. Right now you also can't carry out your duties as a wife because of the perception you're building."

"I don't want polyandry because it's a sin. The religion I'm following forbids that."

"For I can escape the circumstances that have befallen me. It can no longer be controlled. Saving my mental state."

"If you have realized that you must indeed escape from circumstances that are already out of your control. That means if it's normal, you're likely to file for divorce if you want to remarry?"

"Yes you're right."

"Do you think your fake death could be likened to a divorce papers or a "death divorce"?

"should have. Because I made it so I could cut off my relationship with my past."

"Why are you still hesitant or hard to accept?"

"Because I still feel I'm a politician."

"Only you alone can rebuild your perception with proportionality. And make peace with the reality you're living. I can't help you instill that perception. Because you can never get out of your gloom if you don't unite yourself between perception and reality. You have to do it yourself. Because this isn't brainwashing or thought-grafting. You have to process it well. Like food. I can't force food into your mouth. Especially if you can't accept, chew and swallow it. You regurgitated the food I gave you. Or you're picking it up. And mocked him. Can you understand the parable I gave you?"

"Yes. I have to process everything myself. You just helped me give stimulants."

"Yes. You're actually very smart. Can process everything well. But because you experience emotional shocks and feelings make your situation complicated and dilemma."

"What am I supposed to do? Everything that happened was pressing me." Sinta was crying again.

"Understand your limitations. Do you have a choice or not?"

"What do you mean?"

"If you have a choice and you don't do better. It's natural you feel guilty. You could've divorced your ex-husband but you didn't. But if you don't have a choice, you have to think more practical and realistic."

"You mean that I'm not in a state of escape. All normal circumstances. I didn't ask Dean for a divorce and marry Dylan. That can't be allowed?"

"yeah. Although there are also people who survive their marriage officially for reasons that are not technically formal they are still married. For example, for child reasons. Having a joint debt that must be borne and settled together. Don't think of more complicated conditions. Before you get completely healed because it will add to your confusion. Focus on your own problems."

"To be honest, I don't really have a choice. I can't possibly file for divorce. I couldn't possibly survive in that condition either. As Dylan said. My character and mentality will be devastated. It's too heavy and hard for me to handle."

"Yes, you've told me in detail. I also thought there was no way you could survive in such a state. You are running away from that situation. Your soul is still very shaken let alone survive?"

I want you to think about this and not think about anything else. Understand the decision to fake this death what is the purpose? Because if you do polyandry then you won't try to decide on one."

The session was stopped because Sinta was still very shaken and could not yet fully unite between perception and reality that must be faced.

"What makes you confused is that you build your own perception of ignoring reality. You want to do everything perfectly. But your condition is very limited and you don't have the choice you want. As long as you clash your perception with reality, you won't be able to move on with your life and always have doubts."

"Can we continue tomorrow? My mind is so tired. Processing all this makes me drain all the energy and emotion I have."

"alright. We'll continue next time. You want me to accompany you on a horse?"

"I want to ride alone."

"alright. I'll be back now."

"Megan, thank you."

"Yeah, I hope you recover soon. You just have to feel confident about things that you already understand the consideration of the condition well."