The Steel-Cared Rose
Jasmine

Sinta's heart becomes troubled, Dylan learns of a fake account he created for Dean.

Does he think I am unfaithful to him? I feel so guilty seeing Dean. I caused it that way. If only I hadn't faked my death?

Sinta did not intend to create a fake account until he saw that Dean was very sorry for his situation.

Photos of his funeral. When a fire breaks out in prison, Dean's social media accounts fill in.

The expression of Dean's feelings and heart made Sinta very satisfied. It lasted for months. Even until finally Sinta decided to create a fake account to ask Dean's situation and try to help him out of his condition.

Why do you always remember your dead wife?

Sinta asked through the chat box to Dean. Using a fake account named Jasmine.

I made a mistake with him. I haven't been able to fix it. He's gone away, forever. Answer Dean.

But he was calm in the afterlife. You shouldn't burden her by always remembering and mourning her.

Sinta re-typed in her chat box.

I just realized that I love her so much.

Please read the reply Dean sent to him.

If you love her, you will continue your life. Your late wife won't be able to calm down to see you like this.

Sinta re-typed her answer to Dean.

I betrayed our marriage. She forgave me. Our relationship improved but he just left me. 

Sinta researched the photos that filled Dean's social media accounts. Photos of his funeral. Memories of the two of them during their marriage.

It's not Dean's habit to share personal things. 

Moreover, pouring out his feelings was also his mind. It seemed like his mind was completely muddled, sad and down.

Getting a woman is not difficult for him. Even Dean cheated on me when they got married? Why does it look now, she's like the only woman for Dean?

What do you regret? Your wife left you when your relationship improved, didn't she? No one can guess it. Your wife didn't leave you on purpose?

Dean typed the answer. After reading Jasmine's reply.

You know, you don't know how much you lose until you feel the loss itself. When we were together, I didn't respect my wife and didn't want to be patient with her. Just thinking about my own interests. Not understanding her fears or anything she went through. I chose to be unfaithful and betrayed him. I regret it but it's too late. After he left, I felt a loss I had never felt before. When we were together, I always doubted everything about him. Now she's gone and I feel, she's the only woman who can fill my mind and heart. She felt so real to me when she left me. I can't replace him with another. Because he was the only one in my mind.

Sinta is back to writing. He understands the source of Dean's problems. Contrition.

You know, you're raising a problem. Your wife is dead. That means you are not meant to be together. You betrayed her in marriage. That's proof that she's not the only woman in your heart and mind. What makes you like this is regret. 

Dean read Jasmine's flowing sentences addressed to him. Jasmine never included any information or photos but instead made him become very interested in accepting her as a friend.

He had a moment to think, is Jasmine a man? The more they communicate. She was very sure that Jasmine was a woman.

All the mysterious things about Jasmine made him very interested.

Why is your name Jasmine? What's the real name?

The answer he read convinced him that Jasmine's figure was indeed very mysterious.

Sure didn't. I really like jasmine flowers.

Oh so….

They are friends and friends online. Dean told her about Helena. A story she could never share when she was still a wife.

Tells how their meeting and how the affair began. 

Tears flowed down both sides of Sinta's cheeks. Listen to the story Dean told him.

You obviously love your affair….

Sinta typing with emotion.

Our relationship is in trouble. I don't know what Sinta was going through at the time. Why did he change after we got married. I lost my patience. I'm khilaf.

Sinta read the sentence Dean sent him. Guilt was in his heart. The transmigration. The impossible could be told because Dean or anyone would accuse him of making up stories. But it all started with transmigration.

In every marriage there must be a phase that makes both husbands and wives in trouble. It requires patience from both. I think, that makes you regret why you didn't try to survive your marriage dilemma the right way. But it's all over. There's nothing to regret. The affair proves you can replace your late wife with anyone ….

Dean typed the answer with a sore heart and heated eyes.

That is not true ….

Regret doesn't just happen to Dean. Sinta felt it too. He also thinks everything that happened to Dean was his fault.

Very selfish and reluctant to serve his duties as a wife. All the misfortune starts from there.

Dean simply demanded that she carry out her duties as a wife. No problem with the rest.

Why am I so selfish? Why is transmigration so hard to go through? I was able to serve my duties as a wife when I married Dylan. Why couldn't I have done it at a previous wedding?

With Dylan everything felt light and weightless. Enjoy her role as a wife and soon she will be a mother.

There is no ambition to pursue or maintain. No image to build. 

Free to do whatever he wants even if only trivial and simple things.

His previous married life as well as the position he had to carry made it like carrying the earth and the rocks on his back.

The betrayal adds to the burden and trauma.

Helena, the woman who can replace her function as a wife. Failure in her married life. His defeat as a wife.

Heard the news of his death. Doesn't make him happy or get his revenge off.

Until at any time, the woman had been a dark part of her married life in the past.

Sinta hopes that Helena will still be alive. Perhaps, Dean will find his happiness and not be tormented by his fake death.

Had Helena been alive you wouldn't have suffered this much.

Sinta typed and clicked to Dean.

I stopped talking to Helena before she died. He was just after my wealth. I'm very disappointed. Sinta is very different from Helena. Sinta protects my family's wealth while Helena does the opposite. Sinta never wanted anything. He just wanted me to be patient with the changes he was going through but I was unable to be patient.

Sinta was pensive for a moment before writing down the sentence she was about to say to Dean

You are stuck in memories and regrets. It's all not real. Go on with your life, and you'll be happy. Trust me!