The Time
Sweet Rich Sugar Flower

I woke up from my sleep, I don't know why it felt different.

I feel a little disappointed.

Only Mama and Mama Dinda accompany me, Nana? It was invisible to his nose.

The man I hoped would come and see me never came.

Could it be that he doesn't care about me anymore?

Or maybe he was happy with the others?

Ah I don't know, thinking about it even makes this heart feel pain again.

Sometimes I wonder why my way of life seems to be played by men, why they always play my feelings, do they not know, that women are very sentient beings.

Let alone be hurt, let alone ignored make it sad many times, especially until the heart is hurt. Uhhbtau you, the pain feels tauk.

Starting from Rayhan, ah why is he back in my mind, then Adit why is he so good.

It may be a sign that I have not found true love.

A moment later my mother approached me.

"Awake? Want to eat fruit?" Ask me softly.

Thank you God, even if you took Dad first from me, but here you gave me a very dear mother.

"Ma, Fira wants to pray." I answered in a weak voice.

"Strongly strong?" Ask Rama who came suddenly.

I nodded my head.

"You wudhu what is tayamum?" Ask Rama back.

"Wudhu aja kak, hold it to the bathroom."

Brother Rama began to take an infusion bottle that was in his pole, one hand reached my body, supporting it so as not to fall.

After finishing ablution, Mama helped me wear mukena, Because my body condition is still weak, Brother Rama suggested to pray while lying down or if strong while sitting.

I chose Salat by sitting down, a little bit I am still strong.

After finishing the prayer, my body feels fresher, not sultry and limp like before.

"Ma, don't you bring Fira's veil?"

"There's no Din, mama forgot to take it." Mom asked Dinda who started unpacking the contents of my gear bag.

"There's this, but it's not the deck's instant veil, it's the rectangular one."

"No papa mbak, please help me wear mbak."

Dinda walked up to me with her veil and penitent.

Sister Dinda began to tidy up my hair that had been messy, combing it slowly, ah it was like having a biological sister.

After finishing with the comb, Madam Dinda began to put the veil on my head.

"Try facing this deck?" Pinta mbak Dinda to me.

I also according to what Dinda said.

With his heart Mbak Dinda stuck a pentul needle under my chin, it seems like Dinda was a bit of a problem. A few minutes later the veil was stuck in my head, covering my hair that was visible to anyone who entered this room. Good thing he hasn't come yet, God, why do I keep interpreting his arrival, I can't hope for more, let him be happy with someone else maybe better.

"Cock infused hand rich rigid gini si." I asked Mbak Dinda.

"That's because you didn't move Ra." Answer someone.

I was surprised to hear his voice, a voice that was very familiar to me, I spread my gaze towards the door, I was really surprised, Brother Adit came, the person who from earlier I hope will finally come too.

"Assalamu'alaikum." Greetings brother Adit who was then answered by everyone, brother Adit kissed the hand of mama and mbak Dinda, brother Rama has gone after helping me earlier.

As if understanding the situation, Mbak Dinda invited mama to come out.

"Ma accompany Dinda to the canteen yuk."

The somewhat confused mother finally agreed to Dinda's invitation, and passed away to go out with Dinda.

Awkward, one word that can describe the current situation, there is only me and Adit Brother in this room, among us no one has opened the conversation, silent without a sound.

"Sorry Brother Adit Ra." Adit said softly, I honestly did not really hear his voice because I had been thinking about what to do to break this silence.

"What brother?"

"Where are you?" Ask back, but I'm sure that wasn't the question Adit asked .

"It's better, brother." Answer me with a smile.

I am very relieved, Brother Adit came when my condition was not disheveled like earlier, if only he saw my situation earlier maybe he would explain to me.

We spent the time chatting, the chatter was more joked, maybe brother Adit intended to entertain me, he also did not offend about the feelings, which made me start to wonder back, he said, does Adit already have no feelings for me.

Brother Adit also told me that in a few days he will graduate, brother Adit said if I am strong I must come to attend his graduation.

In my mind, I have to be strong and get well soon in order to end Adit's graduation.

"When do you come home Ra, like he's here?"

"Oh yes no brother, he wants me to go home but brother Rama has not allowed."

"What if we run away, Ra. Hahahah "

"Sister Adit wants to be scolded by brother Rama?"

"Neither Ra, brother joked."

After a long time, I finally saw him smile and even laugh cheerfully in front of me.

On the sidelines of our chat, someone knocked at the door and entered the nurse carrying a pushtable with injections and drugs.

"Excuse me, get injected first." The nurse began to open the cotton and rubbed the alcohol into the infusion tube in my hand.

I slightly closed my eyes, holding back the fear.

Maybe Adit understood with my fear, he held my hand that was not attached to the infusion, my reflexes grasped his hand to withstand the pain.

Yes, the injection did not hurt through the infusion tube, but when the medicine began to enter my body it was very painful.

"It's mbak."

Said the nurse who began to take care of her equipment, without me realizing my hand was still tightly grasping Adit's brother's hand.

"Maybe the time of encouragement for mbaknya, kemaren fitting to be injected surely his hand pulled back and forth the same mbaknya kayak kite yarn. Turn there masnya, mbaknya become calmer, let alone the grip is not released." The nurse said with a smile glanced at my other hand, yes it was the nurse who from yesterday injected medicine, uh it felt very embarrassed, especially to be caught by the young nurse.

Maybe our age is not far away, he still looks very young.

I took my hand off my hand on Adit's leg after I got the syndirian.

"Oh yes mas, this is the medicine for Miss Fira to take after eating yes." Said the nurse thrusting a small bowl filled with the medicine that I was drinking.

"Thank you sus." Said Adit, the nurse went to leave us both.

"Sorry brother, Fira reflex holds Adit's brother's hand for fear."

"Here you go, brother is happy that the presence of brother makes you calm." He said with a smile.

Her smile was so sweet to me, just seeing her smile made me forget the hurt I felt. End of his smile sweet rich in confectionery. Already dong sak smile, later I melted.

Basic me.