
From the beginning I always had a question that kept repeating without knowing the answer, but I believed that every question must have a definite answer.
The question is like:
Who are my parents?
Between talent and ability, which is more important?
Will smart people always win? What about a fool, will he continue to suffer defeat?
Where can a person's emotions come from?
Speaking of the last question, I think I understand a little why one's emotions can always change at any time.
I've learned it, if not mistakenly called Mood Swing. It was a change in mood that seemed to one's self. One of the causes is a chemical imbalance in the brain associated with mood and hormonal changes produced by the body.
Enough to get there, the answer is still not to my liking.
But it was a pity, if I kept thinking about those questions then the sensation of stabbing pain in my head would be instantly felt. It hurts and it hurts, so I can't keep thinking about it.
Sometimes torturing yourself is not a good thing, although sometimes it can also be a good thing. It all comes back to what kind of situation we will face.
In any case, I had to get answers to all four questions that kept repeating in my mind.
I don't want to think any further but I'm curious, that's all. I think my life would be a waste if I died without getting the answer.
Emotions and feelings?
I haven't had it since I was a child, I never even cared about others and cared about myself more. As long as I'm okay, I don't care.
Where did my emotions and feelings go?
You know affection? Yeah, well, I never got that because I didn't know who my own parents were. Although I used to care and keep finding out about them, now I only care about myself.
Due to the lack of affection, it slowly made my emotions decrease, followed by the disappearance of many feelings in me.
I was empty and empty, at least that's what I thought of myself. Pathetic right? Even worse I forgot my own past and now I live with a kind man I call my father.
He is kind, but unfortunately that is all. Yeah, that's all. He didn't want to tell me about my past and it looked like he was trying to cover it up. And now, he even told me to go to Uniregular Sport School and graduate there. But even so, I still love him because he is the only one who cares about me.
I've also heard the full explanation of the school from him and I think the school is quite interesting.
Uniregular Sport School is a sports-specific school that is highly dreamed of by teenagers who want to become athletes. From what my father told me, many students who graduated from this school have won various national and international matches.
This is my last chance to go to Uniregular Sport School to get all the answers my father said. Then this is where I have to test how strong I am compared to the other students, but it is harder for me to hold back than to expend all of my Strength.
My father also told me that if talent is developed then the results will be good. He also said that the ability is not to be exhibited but better used at the right time. So he told me to always hold back and would only be serious when having a rival or person of equal ability.
If they can get me serious and bring out all my abilities, that's great to look forward to.