
A boyfriend?
What kind of thing is that?
I've studied it, although I still can't practice it because of my own nature.
Dating has several stages that can go up levels.
Firstly, approach. Second, kisses. Third, this is optional and depends on each person dating, that is, being one.
That level of courtship will go up if they are more serious in the relationship that will be established, I mean they will go through marriage and live happily together forever.
The optional choice or third choice can be done while still dating or married, which is why I say that everything depends on them.
"Satomi, you keep looking at me. What's up?"
"Sorry, can I hold your hand?"
"Huh? Eh?! Why sudden? Well, I don't mind anyway."
Fisa is undergoing a test from me without being noticed by her. I'm going to test him because he's very attractive to me in terms of appearance and personality.
Her smooth white skin was now slightly flushed, then her deep black short hair was perfectly suited to the type of girl I wanted to date.
I think Fisa has something in common with me, the only difference is that Fisa is more alive and more worthy of being called human.
"If you don't want to, then it doesn't matter."
"I didn't say it like that, now. Here's a.."
Fisa immediately offered her right hand to me, then without a second thought I accepted it. In short, our two hands are grasping each other now.
His hands felt smaller and softer, this also made me feel calmer.
Very good, she is indeed a mature girl whom I need very much to get my human side.
"Your hands are so rough, Satomi."
"Is that so?"
"Yes, I've never held a man's hand before. So this is the first time, and I didn't expect that man's hand to be so rough either."
"Not all men have rough hands, forget that. Now can you explain the exam?"
"I still don't know the details, but I still don't understand why you should pair up with the opposite sex."
"That's weird because the school's always having a couple's exam."
Doing activities together as a couple, does sound suspicious.
"Satomi."
"Yes?"
"You know? My life feels quite different from my classmates because I always keep my distance from many men. They're terrible, I can only think that."
"Then why did you come near me? Aren't I scary too?"
"Satomi, you're different. I can feel a different feeling when talking to you."
Although I have never dated before, I also have an interest in the opposite sex with a certain type.
This type of adult girl with short hair and a timid manner of speaking was very much described by Fisa now.
I think I'm interested in him, as the opposite sex. I will continue to approach Fisa while hoping that she can cultivate other feelings and emotions within me.
One feeling had come out clearly, my heart was beating very fast when I saw Fisa's face, plus we were both sitting side by side and hand in hand.
Feelings of love, feelings of attraction as the opposite sex. Just a few minutes ago Fisa had already brought up that feeling in me, I think she was more useful than Lina and Elaina.
"Fisa."
"Eh.. What's up?"
I stared hard at Fisa's face and she had an unpredictable expression, maybe she was embarrassed or nervous, I don't know either. Yes, this is exactly the kind of boyfriend I want.
"Can I know everything about you?"
"Huh? Eh?! That..what do you mean?"
"That's how I want you to tell me about yourself."
"Yes.. I know that, but.. why do you want to know? I was just a selfish girl, many of my classmates hated me secretly and some were blatant. Even so, I'm still happy to be able to interact with them."
Selfish? Indeed I had expected Fisa to say it, she was self-conscious of her selfishness and felt guilty. I will never be aware of and care about them.
"You interact with men too?"
"If it is necessary, I must do it. So why do you want to know?"
"I want to know because, how to say yes. I seem interested in you."
"Pullied?"
"Yes, as the opposite sex."
Fisa's face put on a confused expression then blushed very quickly.
I'm saying. If Fisa understands she'll know that I'm going to ask her out.
It's too early to tell me my true feelings, so I'm ready for the worst possibility of being rejected by him.
"What the fuck?! You serious?"
"Of course, I'm very serious and very interested in you, Fisa."
"Wait, wait! It's too sudden."
If I was rejected by her, then I just thought that I deserved it, it was because I had already refused and hurt Elaina's feelings.
"It doesn't matter if you reject it, because it's too early."
"I'm not against you, but are you sure? Interested in someone like me."
She did not put on a rejecting expression even on the contrary, Fisa smiled thinly and looked pleased. It's a good opportunity, my hunch says I have a chance.
I got up from this bench and lowered my head in front of Fisa, letting go of the hand that had been going on for a while.
I put Fisa's hands together and then held her, I could feel her hands very smooth and soft.
While looking down and holding Fisa's hand, I also looked into her eyes and she also looked at me.
I'm getting a pretty good moment, so I'm going to shoot Fisa in this quiet place right now.
"Anu, Satomi? Why?"
"Fisa, it's too early to say. I love you, will you date me?"
"Huh? Are you serious?"
"very seriously. Hows it? Do you want to?"
He opened his mouth even if it was just a little, it seemed like Fisa was going to say something.
"Hmm. anu."
"How's it?"
"I was surprised at your invitation, but I'm sorry Satomi. I can't date you."
I was rejected by her, I was indeed prepared for this possibility but still, it felt like there was something strange inside me when it was rejected.
"Yes, I get it. Sorry for suddenly shooting you."
"You don't want to know why?"
"I don't think it's necessary. Yeah, that's how it should be. I've been rejected and I'll never say the same to you again."
I took off all my touches on Fisa, I no longer looked down on her either. But I'm still under Fisa now.
"A heartbreak is that easy? Whoa, sorry cool-boy. I'm just kidding, let's have a love affair for the future."
"..?!"
I was just speechless and confused while looking at Fisa, so I was accepted? I still feel confused.
"Why shut up, cool-boy? Come back to sit in your place."
"Ah, fine."
Sitting next to each other like before, I could only look at his face without saying anything.
"Listen, Satomi. I'd like to date you as long as you don't mind if I call you a cool-boy."
"So that's it?"
"What's? You want additional terms?"
"No, okay. Call me as you like."
"That's great, cool-boy. Please cooperate for a few days, months, maybe years ahead!"
Fisa's face approached me.
"Emm..?"
Then quietly kissed me, of course I was surprised.
Our mouths touch each other now, in other words the second stage is happening, that is how my relationship with Fisa is going so fast.
The approach phase takes just a few minutes, and then we've linked each other's lips. I felt a soft sensation from Fisa's lips, it was very soothing.
After a long time we kissed, Fisa finally let go of her kiss with a reddened face.
"You don't seem to trust me anymore, so I kissed you right away so I could get your trust back. By the way, this is my first kiss."
"I think this is also my first kiss, thank you Fisa. I'm already dating me."
"You want to do it again?"
"Eh, what can?"
"Yes, I don't mind. I'll take it seriously this time, I hope you're serious too."
"So you weren't serious?"
"Don't ask much more, now let's do it!"
"Ah, fine."
Our hands clasped together and then followed by our faces that were close to each other with the same goal, namely the lips.
"Cool-boy, I love you."
"Fisa, I love you too, far from my heart."
Finished with words that were not guaranteed the truth, Fisa and I immediately linked our lips in a longer time than before.
Our tongues are not moving and overlap only, I think it's natural because it's still the beginning.
My feelings at the moment?
Of course it's calming, so I want this to go on for as long as possible.
Finished with a serious kiss for quite a long time, we finally let go.
"Thank you Fisa."
"I'm grateful, too, but I'm sorry. Rest is running out, I'm going to the gym for my next lesson."
"Yes." Yeah."
We both got up from the bench and left together for a moment and then separated because the intended path was opposite.
I was intending to head to class and Fisa was intending to go to the gym, the path was opposite so we were completely separated there.
"You passed."
"What do you mean?"
"No need to think about it, then until later. We'll meet again, thanks for accepting my feelings!"
"Umm. well, see you later. Cool-boys!"
That's where I parted with him.
Very satisfying, this was the first time I was able to bring out clear feelings and emotions within me. Moreover, the first feeling of love appeared, of course I was immediately attracted to Fisa and shot him bluntly.
At first he refused me. Even if I was joking, it still hurt. But in the end Fisa still accepted my feelings and a love relationship was established between me and her now.
The first kiss?
I think I lied to Fisa that this was my first kiss, because I had kissed a person of the opposite sex in the past.
I can't remember the girl, even her features I don't remember anymore, really a strange past.
Where was my memory?
Maybe like a sacrifice?
I gave up my past memories for the sake of excellent physical and academic abilities beyond many people.
No, it's impossible and beyond human reason, I'm overreacting because I've been thinking about something like that.
Sorry, Fisa. I'll try to be your good boyfriend as an apology.
What about Elaina?
I will still protect her but it seems like I will not fall in love with her, so I guess this troublesome situation will be fine.
Fisa Campbell, I will take care of her with all my heart.