The Unusual Highschool Days
The innermost feeling

Being in the Loop, Eric is now trapped in an imaginary space that alfian created in his own mind.Nathanael's voice that had earlier led him is no longer heard. The figure of Julia repeatedly appeared in front of him, and Eric tried to pursue the figure.

Sia vain, not overtaken.

Every time Eric chased the figure, Julia always disappeared in the room following him. then reappeared from the opposite direction to the direction of Eric's run before his.

Eric paused for a moment and started looking around. In times like this, in imaginary space that cannot be understood by logic, the first thing he should do is calm his mind.

In the infinity room, Eric sat quietly. Leaning his body against the wall, and staring blankly at the sky of the sky.

The figure of adult Julia running in front of her, she let it pass by just like that. If this was Alfian's imaginary space, perhaps Julia's untraceable figure was Alfian's form of concern for her relationship with the girl, the existence of a problem that Alfian cannot solve.

“kak Alfian.. Toxic relationship rich gini why is still continued anyway? you think I can't see a fake stale smile on your face or what?” fr Eric.

“based on my experience, a relationship where one of you still finds many secrets.

            Eric was surprised to find Alex Gildereich sitting next to him.

“Papa?” eric said in disbelief. Eric immediately shook his head.No, this is not the real Alexander Gildereich. This was just a projection of what was in Alfian's subconscious.

“Eric... What if you go back to Indonesia and enter Santana High School?”

            Oh, here's what Alex said when he asked her to leave America. This time what? why can Alfian's subconscious create something that even Alfian doesn't know about?

“Be careful with the Journalism club, especially the core members. And if you can, don't want to deal with El diablo. Only a really troubled student who was sent there” another voice appeared, now coming fromMr.Arthur who arrived was already in front of Eric.

Another hallucination?

Several sheets of paper appeared from the sky. Headline of the school bulletin that says

“PUTRA OWNER SAINT CORP DEFEATED BY ORDINARY GIRL”

            Eric got up from his seat, a loop in the alfian subconscious seemed to mix with the worries he had. the worry that Eric seems to realize has been a burden on his mind all this time.if this continues, it is not possible that his past trauma will also appear.

“fucking!!”

Brak!!

Eric banging his head against the window glass.if this reality is created from worries in the subconscious Alfian who slowly mixed with worry in Eric, Eric, then the easiest way to get out of this place is to fight his own worry.

“Papa can just enter me here, but what do I want and how do I keep running my life here, I myself who uncertain!”

Brak!!

Eric banged his head against the glass again.

“Mayuin the Core? Hindarin El diablo's? I used to probably do that but.. Elvira already sorry me. so it's okay if I nge remove my guilt over the incident?”

Eric again banged his head.and this time, fresh blood flowed from his injured forehead.

“What is it, if I stop hating everyone's expectations by being a submissive child?”

The cracks in the glass widened

“from now on, I will live my own way!”

The window broke.The figure of Alex, and Arthur who suddenly appeared, suddenly disappeared just like that. Outside the window, Eric finds little Julia in the schoolyard, just below the window he broke.

the girl looked up at her hand, gesturing Eric to jump.

At the next moment, Eric jumped out of the window.

***

Eric's body, which had weakened a few days ago, now began to stabilize. Eric took a deep breath in his sleep.

“Eric, can you hear me?” ask Nathanael.

“ya, I can hear” replied Eric quietly.

***

Eric arrives at the reality of his other iamjiner, an old church ruins where it rains heavily.

“I'm in the ruins of the church.. It rained heavily” Eric describes.

“Good, you are in the right place. Alfian must be around situ”

Eric put his foot up, and looked around. It was raining heavily, but he did not feel wet or cold at all. The sky was gray, since coming to this place, never once had he seen the sun.

“who are you?”

A young boy was standing before Eric. He was wearing a black robe that covered almost half of his face. The boy unfolded the hood of his robe.His face looked similar to Alfian's.

“I have never seen anyone like you enter this imaginary dimension.Even in any other memory space...I never saw your figure where” The boy said. “but, I never saw you, Alfian knows you. If Hiraeth leads you here, then you're not a dangerous person to Alfian”

So the boy called little Julia in Alfian's subconscious Hiraeth. The term to describe the feeling of wanting to go home that never even existed. To Alfian, the figure of Julia when the two of her first met, might seem like it.

“you managed to break free from the loop, that's good. If you get caught up in the madness inside the Loop, Alfian might be troubled about having to get you out of there, and it drains her inner energy”

The boy sat himself on top of the coffin where Alfian was.

“accessing Library’s of life at a very young age, this child is really vulnerable to various types of psychic disorders”

“sorry, but... its rich I have to be flatfooted Alfian deh.”

The boy wore a witty smile typical of children.

“you sure you want to just leave? This place was full of all the information Alfian knew. While he's asleep in this crate, don't you want to go around first?” the boy offered.

Eric shook his head.

“gak deh, anyways it feels. Alfian sister no longer hide something from me”.

“oh yes? But maybe Alfian knows something about what you're looking for right now.Your goal is called to Santana Senior Highschool missal?”

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