Un - Break My Heart
36. Difficult

"How was your meeting with Reyhan?" Farrel talks to Jessyca, whom he's forced to meet tonight.

Jessyca snorted in annoyance, fortunately Jonathan allowed her to meet with her cousin Farrel who sucks in her opinion. She had to promise not to talk about Shinta, her husband's favorite sister to Farrel. Jessyca can't believe Jonathan knows Farrel is Shinta's ex-boyfriend.

"You can go, but don't say anything about Shinta to Farrel. I don't like him interfering with my sister's happiness" Jonathan said before allowing Jessyca to meet Farrel.

"Do they have a relationship?" Jessyca pretended not to understand what Jonathan was saying.

"No need to lie, you helped her to hate her husband, because you also hoped Reyhan would accept your love" Jessyca could not say anything back then. What Jonathan said was all true, even Jessyca told Farrel about Cindy. So Farrel invites Cindy to work together to separate Shinta and Reyhan.

"Jes" Farrel's voice draws Jessyca's memory during her clearance with Jonathan.

"As you know, Reyhan only thinks I'm his best friend" Jessyca explained.

"I'm just asking you that Shinta hates Reyhan, Jes. Is it that hard?" ask Farrell again. She still hopes Shinta returns to her, she has also gotten rid of Cindy who messed up her plans. If only he hadn't been drunk, he wouldn't have slept with Cindy. Now he asks for the help of his cousin who happens to be visiting Indonesia, which he also knows as Reyhan's best friend.

"It's hard, it's hard. Even your woman was not angry when I hugged her husband tightly" Jessyca explained.

"Is that how she believes her husband?" farrel's murmur Jessyca can hear.

"Farrel I want Reyhan to see me as a woman, not as a friend. But I think it's very difficult. Moreover, Shinta is my husband's beloved sister"

Farrel looked at Jessyca with a questioning look, what did her cousin just say. "You mean?" tanyakanya.

"The shinta, my husband's foster sister, more precisely they're cousins. Even Jonathan has threatened me if I ruin his beloved brother's happiness. Jonathan loves Shinta so much, I can see from the way he's protecting Shinta. So I'm asking you not to involve me again with your problems. I didn't want my parents to use me again because of Jonathan's anger"

"Jes, don't you love Jonathan, neither does he. What do you keep from your marriage?" farrel asked, she really felt like her cousin was really stupid. Just because she did not want to live hard, she was willing to sell her family to the man who bestatus her husband but never wanted to touch him. Where lies the happiness that his cousin wants, if forced to live with people he does not love and also does not love him.

"I can what?" answer Jessyca. He was tired of finding a way out of his family. Therefore, when Farrel asked for help and got an offer by getting Reyhan who somehow since when he liked his sahabt, he did not refuse. But seeing Reyhan who loves Shinta so much, as well as Shinta who loves Reyhan so much, plus a threat from Jonathan, makes Jessyca retreat, before she falls into a more difficult problem.

Although Jonathan does not love her, but she can live well thanks to her husband. At least Jonathan treats her well and appreciates her as a wife, unlike his parents and brother. Although Jonathan does it because he wants the woman he loves to be treated well by other men, so he will not hurt the woman he is close to.

"I know you're under threat from your parents, but at least you think about your happiness" Farrel tried to give Jessyca his advice.

"Farrel, if I could help you would you help me stay away from my family?" ask Jessyca.

"I can help you right now, and then you help me"

Jessyca was not so sure of her decision. Surviving or leaving, that was what he had always thought about for this one year.

"Farrel, actually I'm not so sure about how I feel about Reyhan. I just felt sorry for her, seeing her left behind by Cindy without a trace. I used to want Harem a lot, but that guy was very difficult for me to reach even though we were close as friends"

"Why Shinta, what a special woman is until all the men I know are very considerate and glorify her. Reyhan, you and Jonathan, and maybe some other guy out there" Jessyca said.

As Jessyca was silent, she remembered her conversation with Harem this afternoon.

"Jessy, I find it very difficult to get a woman like my family wants. Then I found him, but I had to be disappointed, because he was already attached to someone, and I knew that person very well" when it looked very disappointed in Harem's face. "I'm off or I'm grabbing him?" she continued, and Jessyca saw her eyes sparkle when she saw Shinta.

"Even Harempun admires Shinta" murmured Jessyca.

Jessyca returns to the hotel at ten o'clock in the night and goes straight to her room to meet Jonathan. Right now they have to stay in one room, pretending as if their marriage is no problem. They don't want Mr. Smith knew the truth, that they had never slept together.

Jonathan had laid his body on the sofa in the hotel room to coincide with Jessyca coming out of the bathroom. Seeing that her husband had not slept, Jessyca approached Jonathan.

"Jo, can I talk to you for a second?" ask Jonathan.

"I'm so tired, what do you want to talk about?" jonathan answered without seeing Jessyca.

"How can I be like Shinta?"

Hearing what Jessyca asked made Jonathan undo his intention to sleep faster. He sat staring at Jessyca, trying to figure out what was going on with the woman in front of him.

Jessyca who knew the meaning of her husband's gaze tried to explain. He sat on the bed staring at Jonathan.

"I liked someone a long time ago, but I couldn't get her heart because of the differences between us, so she always rejected me when I expressed my feelings. He said he could love me but not his family. Because he loves his family so much, he can't love me. I wanted so much to be loved by him and his family, who turned out to want a woman like Shinta" Jessyca explained.

"What is Reyhan?" Jessyca shook her head.

"Then, is he ready?" jonathan asked curiously.

"Harem" the name just came out of Jessyca's mouth, though she was actually very embarrassed in front of Jonathan. But unexpectedly, Jonathan wants to help her.

"I'll help you so Harem can love you, but you better be yourself, not like everyone else"

"Tomorrow come with me" Jonathan laid back on the couch.

"I don't like to attend meetings with your colleagues, so let me be at the hotel" Jessyca said.

"If you want to be like Shihta, you have to get to know him better" Jonathan replied and then covered his face and body with a blanket. Let Jessyca think.

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