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. Tio opened the door by carrying Ghava in his lap. Then, it was also seen that a woman followed Tio with a sad face when she looked at Arisa who was still sitting on her bed. Diana can't say anything after learning that Arisa has amnesia and only Tio can Arisa remember even a name.

"Don't ask who. Because I'm gonna get hurt so much." Diana said as Arisa looked at him full of curiosity.

"I'm sorry." she threw a smile. Arisa no longer knows what to say now, because she does not remember who the woman in front of her.

"Anty.." whiney Ghava who stretched out his hand wanted to be carried by Arisa.

"I think I remember." Arisa's strangulation makes all who hear become sparkling and look hopefully at Arisa.

"You remember me?" Diana asked ahead of Tio and Rayyan who had already sighed.

"No. no. But on the boy." Arisa pointed at Ghava in Tio's lap. Diana looked at Tio as if asking why could it be?

"Emm if I'm not mistaken, a few days ago I was holding her, and when I left, this child cried and called for anty." she explained, acting like she was thinking.

"It's your stupid nephew." Delik Tio then touched Arisa's forehead until Arisa herself grimaced in pain.

"already. It's free to expect you to remember. But we better get to a place where you might remember something." Tio said again as he opened the curtains and the balcony door. Arisa was fixated on some plants that were so fresh. Not even Sarah's house is this much. Then Arisa got up and walked slowly staring at the blooming flowers one by one. A memory of Tio reappears when Arisa grabs the daisies Tio once bought. The flower continued to grow as if reluctant to wither when its owner was absent.

"Is this the same flower you bought that day?" Arisa asked without looking at Tio.

"You remember?" However, Tio was again disappointed as Arisa shook her head in response to her question. Then, Arisa looked up and looked at the sky that was so bright today.

"It looks like tonight's gonna be a lot of stars." His words turned to Tio and threw his sweet smile. Tio returned Arisa's smile which she had longed for. Four years he had lived without the laughter of his beloved sister and spent the days with nothingness.

"Sister Tio. I want to talk to Risa for a minute." Rayyan softly hesitantly turned to Tio.

"alright. But don't make him run away again." Tio replied full of mockery.

"Do you really not remember me?" Rayyan asked as she grabbed the tip of Arisa's hair and gently stroked Arisa's head making Arisa slightly stunned. Rayyan frowned as Arisa retreated avoiding him.

"Why?" Ask Rayyan later. Arisa just shook her head in response to Rayyan's question which made her dizzy and unable to balance her mind.

"If we get married soon, are you willing?" Arisa looked up then looked deeply at the two Rayyan black beads who were so warmly returning her gaze.

"I'm sorry, I can't." His reply turned his face flat and expressionless. Rayyan never got this cold treatment and this kind of rejection from Arisa who obviously used to love her so much. But Rayyan realized with the word 'former' which is clearly impossible in the present. Even if it is repeated it may never be the same.

"That's how you rejected me? Don't you love me? And don't we love each other?" Again, Arisa was stunned and she sat down on the sofa to hear Rayyan's last sentence.

"Ja-don't.." - He looked at the memory of the scene that almost destroyed his life because Rayyan was already dark in his mind.

"Risa... Are you okay?" Rayyan walked up to Arisa who shifted the squeeze to the other side. He felt it was not a dream. He seemed to be able to remember how Rayyan threw his body on the bed and the memory of Rayyan and her brother's wedding plans, Oma Galuh's words that hurt his heart, then the mockery and disappointed words from his father along with the slap clearly appeared in his head. Arisa panted while grabbing her back throbbing head.

"Rise. ka-"

"Stay away from me!" His screams were the same as the events of that time.

"Risa I'm tid--"

"Rayyan, don't.!" And accidentally, he blurted out a word that didn't even come to his mind. And he himself was astonished at what he had just said. Suddenly Arisa can not control her emotions and thoughts are increasingly chaotic.

Hearing Arisa's cry from the balcony, Tio and the rest of the family rushed over to Arisa who was sitting squeezing in the corner of the sofa. His breath gasping and tears creeping made Tio panic.

"Rayyan what are you doing?" Shouting Tio grabbed Arisa into his arms.

"I didn't do anything, brother. Suddenly Risa-"

"She's gonna fuck me." Arisa replied quickly by interrupting making Rayyan go silent for a moment.

"Lied. And you. argghhhh. hugged me, but.... Sis. I don't understand everything I see." Rengek Arisa stared questioningly at Tio who still did not know what happened.

"Risa... do you remember anything? What you're saying isn't happening right now, but it was our last meeting before I actually accepted Raisa. You recall? You and I promised each other not to leave, but in fact you left me alone. And you asked me not to chase you. Do you remember too? When you screamed like that, right then and there I realized that doing that would only get everyone into trouble." It was obviously Rayyan who grabbed Arisa's hand and stared expectantly.

"Then why did you slap me? Did I make a big mistake then? To this day I feel like a hand is hitting me hard on the cheek. I'm sensing. It hurts so much." Said Arisa while grabbing her cheek slowly. Hearing that, all who stood in front of Arisa were not there to cry, not even Rayyan wiped the dew on her eyelids, and Yugito quickly grabbed her youngest daughter whom she really missed.

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry, Aris' father. If only I could understand how you feel, you couldn't have felt that pain."

"Why do you remember that's just Aris?" Lirih Tio sounded desperate.

"I don't know. And I don't think I want to remember. Because the more I try to remember, the more my head and chest will hurt. I don't know what you've done, I don't care. Just don't try to make me recall the bad memories that made me like this." Lirih Arisa was no less desperate than Tio when Yugito let go of his embrace.

"I feel so lonely, and it feels like someone's gone from my life. Half a soul, or love. And I don't feel any feelings for you at all." He looked coldly at Rayyan. Raisa shook her head in disbelief, how could Arisa who loves Rayyan so much say this painful thing? Rayyan was really sculpting when she heard Arisa who was clearly talking about Rama. Although he did not remember it at all, Arisa's feelings for Rama are so great. Until he was amnesiac for many years, Arisa still felt a feeling of love for Rama. Then, what does it mean from the goodbye kiss that Arisa once gave to Rayyan as if Arisa herself did not want to lose Rayyan.

Rayyan screeched then passed by without a word she left for Arisa.

"Aris what are you saying? You and Rayyan love each other." Said Raisa who followed Rayyan to the front of the house. Arisa narrowed to see Raisa who was so painstaking in persuading Rayyan not to get angry at Arisa, Rayyan occasionally turned her head up and looked at Arisa who turned her face away from Rayyan's gaze. And at that moment, Rayyan again refrained from venting her emotions there because she thought that Arisa had completely forgotten her and also her feelings were so deep.

. Arisa walks down every mound of earth decorated with dried flowers and gravestones. Two men looked at each other and seriously prayed a prayer. Dimas facing Citra's tomb, and Gilang facing Rama's tomb. Arisa frowned as she stared at her name engraved neatly on a mound of earth with a sprinkling of fresh flowers.

"Well, it turns out I'm dead." His casually made Gilang turn his head and wide with a suddenly stiff body. Gilang tried to force his body to move and pat Dimas who was still so focused on praying.

"B-b-bang D-dimas.." call Gilang so frantically without taking his eyes off Arisa who looks at him in surprise.

"What Lang?" Asked Dimas without looking.

"Bak Aris bang."

"Why Aris?"

"What kind of prayer?"

"For the tranquility of Aris Lang."

"Bo-lie. A-babang must have Aris alive again." Hearing that, Dimas flinched and then he looked back down as if agreeing with Gilang's words.

"Tuhhh kannn."

"Indeed, ken-waaaaa" he suddenly shouted as he turned to Gilang, but instead found Arisa standing before him.

"A-a-aris.k-are you still alive?" Tanya Dimas shifted her body like Gilang with a face of fear. Arisa just looked at him flatly and slowly approached those who continued to dodge.

"Woaaaaa don't come any closer." Shouted the brothers in unison.

"What do you think I am? A ghost?" Asked cynically and deliriously, very far from the attitude of Arisa that Dimas was familiar with.

"But you walk on the ground." Cetus Dimas looked at Arisa's foot and continued to walk towards him.

"Are you really Arisa?" Dimas asked again still could not believe what he was seeing at this moment.

"Who do you think I am? Why do you know me? I just don't know you." Delicateness.

"Did moving the world make you forget me?" Dimas was no less delirious and instantly he realized something.

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