Unsaying Words
CHAPTER V - Chris' Regret (1)
Back to the present.
Chris' past memories of his wife leave him with no desire to go back to sleep. He moved his posture and prepared to get out of bed. Her memories with Rina began to make her feel hard to breathe for no reason. He needs fresh air.
Suddenly Chris felt his body sweat and his stomach was nauseous. Blowing, the man ran to the bathroom as fluids in his body forced him to come out. While squatting, he spewed out some of his lunch into the closet. Looks like his ulcer is back, because his diet began to fall apart a few weeks. Usually Chris does not worry about his illness when his wife is still diligent in cooking, but it seems that from now on he must return to his previous routine.
After feeling his stomach improved, Chris slowly got up from the floor and washed his face. He saw a clear dark circle under his eyes. His lips looked pale. It looks like a living corpse. When was the last time he looked like this? He can't remember. It seems like decades ago, when her father was caught cheating on her from his mother and left them both behind.
At that time, Chris felt his life was destroyed because the figure of the father who became proud turned out to make a mistake. And the mistake was fatal, because he was playing crazy with his wife's own friends. How nauseating. From that moment on Chris swore, not going to be like his father. Although their relationship eventually improved, even he loved his step-sisters but the wound still remained, and it will never go away.
Chris finally decided to prepare a bit of food for himself. It seems like he had seen some boxes of cereal that were still unopened in the kitchen cabinet, and also a box of milk in the refrigerator. He felt grateful that his wife still left him dry food. At least he won't starve tonight. While heading out to the kitchen, Chris brought with him things from the bed. He wanted to know what his wife had written on the piece of paper she had left behind.
When he felt that he was starting to improve because of the stomach that had been filled, the man opened the documents he brought. He knew it was a divorce document, and as expected Rina had affixed her signature. There are several articles that were crossed out by his wife, and all of them discuss the division of property from Chris to Rina. All the graffiti were spiked paraf, which stated that the graffiti was done by Rina consciously. For some reason, Chris' heart ached and his eyes began to water. He immediately closed the document and slightly slammed it on the dining table.
Next, Chris stared at the white paper nanar that was in front of him. He did not know what it contained, but he would bet that whatever was written in it would make the man regret everything he had done so far. Closing his eyes, Chris had never felt this scared in his life. He is a rational and logical man, believing that every problem must have a solution no matter how difficult the problem. But this time, he was really scared. He did not want to read it, but knew he had to read it.
Chris clenched his hands tightly until he felt ill, remembering how depraved and fatal the mistake he made to his wife that night.
Flashback 4 weeks ago.
Lina looked at her marriage book with Chris with mixed feelings. On the one hand, he feels happy to be able to get married and successfully live it for 1 year. But on the other hand, he feels his marriage is on the edge. She recalled what Chris said a few months ago and pulled the damned document out of her dresser drawer. Lina has not signed it, and never will. As long as he can, he will try his hardest to maintain his marriage to Chris. Lina knew and was sure, her husband was a good person and would be aware of her feelings. She did not believe that during her 1 year marriage with him, her husband did not have any feelings for her.
Returning everything carefully into the drawer, Lina prepared to throw a surprise party for Chris. She's gonna make her husband do his duty tonight. Lina wanted them to be able to have this marriage normally, just like any other couple. However, she is a normal woman and wants a partner who can provide satisfaction for her. Rina's face flushed red considering the thing she was going to do tonight. Out of nowhere her courage, but seeing the example of a happy husband-wife life from her parents, makes Rina determined to carry out her plan.
Lina pecked herself in front of the glass of her wardrobe. Just this time she reused the gown from Chris. All this time, as much as possible he did not wear it because he felt uncomfortable. She felt the dresses were not her and were mostly too revealing. Like the black dress she was wearing, had a low neckline and showed her cleavage. And although long up to the ankle, but has a high hemisphere up to the middle of his thigh. If not for her plan, it seemed like even a lifetime of Rina would not be willing to wear it even if paid for.
He also realized that his face was ordinary. The thing that made him different was probably both his big eyes and his pretty thick lips. Because never wear excess makeup when working, makes Rina quite surprised when she realized that she can look sexy if you want to dress a little thick. Another gift is his porposional body shape, with a medium height and both assets that were not realized by him. This dress really brings it all together. After being satisfied with his appearance, he came out of his bedroom.
In the dining room, Rina had prepared her own wedding birthday cake and various other dishes. He deliberately took a leave of absence from his office to prepare for this special day. Lina looked around her with a happy feeling and felt that tonight would go smoothly and pleasantly. He will try to get Chris to enjoy the dish, talk from heart to heart and finally live a full married life. He even went to the spa this morning to make his skin smell good and look brighter. Impatiently, Lina sat down on the living room sofa to wait for her husband to come home.
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Second by second passed into minutes, from minutes to hours, from 1 hour to 2 hours, and then until the wall clock showed at 11 pm. Chris has not yet returned home. Rina started to feel anxious, because Chris had never come home this late. Her husband will be home at 7pm, and at 10pm at the latest. Never was this last night. With doubt Rina tried to contact Rich. She never dared to contact her husband, because her heart was still not ready to face rejection.
"Hello." Rich replied, and his voice sounded tense.
When she heard Rich's voice, Rina immediately let out a sigh of relief.
"Rich! Mercifully. Is Chris with you?"
"Yes. We're heading to the apartment." Rich answered briefly.
Sayup-sayup, Rina could hear the voice of Chris asking Rich but did not hear what the question was. Without saying anything else, the phone was decided by Rich's side.
Feeling that something is wrong, Rina decides not to call Rich back and will just wait until Chris gets home. Rina starts to feel nervous, but she remains determined to do her plan no matter what. While ******-**** his hand restlessly, he repeatedly looked at the front door and slightly jumped up from his seat when it finally opened.
As Chris walked in, Lina felt a different aura from her husband. Her husband looks a little... Is it scary? His face looks tangled, the suit and shirt that is usually still neatly used is tangled, with a tie that has also been loosened. Chris's hair is usually still neatly gelded, looks disheveled. Even more sinister, Rina saw both of Chris's fingers flushed and slightly bleed. What exactly is going on?
Not Chris' intention to vent his anger on his wife, not Chris' intention to hurt his wife, not Chris' intention to not appreciate Rina's labor to prepare everything. But for some reason, the sight before him fed up and subconsciously made him throw the wedding cake that his wife had painstakingly prepared onto the floor.
"Girl!"
Unknowingly, Lina screamed. She looked angrily at her husband, and saw his hard work all day become a lump of trash on the floor. Vain everything.
Hearing his wife's voice made Chris turn around. And when looking at Rina's appearance, her emotions became even more heightened. Uncontrollably, he uttered a very rude remark to his innocent wife.
"Do you want to be a prostitute?"
Lina looked shocked at Chris's words. Slowly, the hue of his face began to pale.
Seeing the silent Rina, did not make Chris' emotions subside. He began to walk closer to his wife in a threatening position.
"Say! Do you want to be a prostitute?"
Aware of the danger, it was too late for Rina to escape.
It was easy for Chris to carry his wife's body and take her to his bedroom. And then Chris kicked the door of his room shut and threw Lina's body on the bed. The frightened Lina tried to get out of bed, but Chris pulled her dress until it was torn. As vigorously as Rina tried to escape, yet what power her husband's large and strong body easily managed to keep her confined under him.
With teary eyes, Rina glared at her husband.
"Conscious Chris!"
Chris chuckled over it. He began to haphazardly remove all his clothes, revealing parts of the body that Rina had never seen before.
"Conscious? I realized it soberly."
Rina tried to squirm to get out of her husband's confinement, but with no results at all. Her efforts even make her dress more open and messy. This sight made Chris even more angry and his libido began to rise. He had just wanted to teach his wife, but his wife's body that he had just seen for the first time made his maleness instinct seem ignited. For 38 years of his life, he had never managed to break a goal. Is it time now?
True as his friends say, the section************** is indeed a jerk. Chris felt his common sense begin to leave his brain when he finally touched Lina's body violently. Lina started screaming in fear as Chris' hands started to sway over her. Her body finally began to respond to her husband's touch, because she loved him. But Lina's heart aches immensely when Chris finally takes her rights as a husband by force.
Throughout the night Chris braved him many times mercilessly. It is like he never felt satisfied. When her husband finally exhausted, he collapsed on his wife's body. In his thin consciousness, he could see the face of his wife who looked in pain with her eyes closed and teary-eyed. Regret began to creep in his heart, and he tried to hug his wife's tiny body to comfort him. But what power, fatigue began to eat away at him to enter the dream world.
When he saw Chris was sound in his sleep, slowly Rina got up and with the pain, began to pick up the remnants of her dress that had not been shaped. After making sure there were no marks left, Lina left her husband's bedroom to her own room in limp. Her femininity was painful, and she saw some traces of kisses and crusts that began to turn blue on her chest and stomach. Resisting the nausea, he felt disgusted with his own body.
Rina tuned the shower faucet with a strong flush and a fairly hot temperature. He rubbed his body firmly and while crying moaned in the heart. This is not what he wanted. This is not what he wanted. This is not what he wanted. Lina finally stopped rubbing her body and sat on the bathroom floor squeezing her hair tightly. He finally hugged his own body and coiled like a ball while continuing to say quietly, "This is not what I want. This is not what I want..."
After cleaning her body, Rina returned to the kitchen and forced herself to clean up the mess her husband had made. She doesn't want her domestic problems until Megan's mother notices her tomorrow morning. All the dishes he had made earlier this afternoon were thrown into the trash. When finished, the kitchen was very clean and looked like nothing had ever happened before.
Trying to calm herself down, Lina made a hot tea for herself and sat pensively at the dining table. With the rest of his common sense, he tried to examine his married life so far. What he initially felt confident about maintaining his marriage, began to tuck into doubts especially with the events of tonight. Rina feels only that she feels that their married life is real, while from Chris' side she does not feel confident. Rina also began to open her eyes that had been covered with love, that Chris never showed the same desire as her.
Lina turned her head up as the tear circles started to fall on her cheeks. The more he tried to hold back his tears, the more his tears came out. He finally realized that Chris hated himself. Her husband never liked her, and it never will. In addition to her background and social status, she is also aware that her marriage is based on something wrong. Right now, Lina felt defeated. He felt it was time to give up. It was time to stop hoping...