WAIT FOR ME AT THE DOOR OF HEAVEN
TAPS. Section 17. Good bye, dear

"Even if the body has been separated by death, true love will remain eternally stored in the recesses of the heart."

(Bacharuddin Jusuf Habibie)

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Sister told us the worst, sister,

my legs were limp, crying, slumped on the floor.The others led you to leave but not with me.

Then Dad and Mom called me and said, "Maybe it's you that he's looking for Vi, try to be sincere!"

I also approached the edge of your bed with a very heavy heart and then I whispered your ears, "Firsty mother, if you want to go. My father was calm there. Wait for my mother there. Mother let go father go first."

Then I read you, "Lailahailaallah muhammadarosulullah."

Slowly your pulse goes down and down I kiss your forehead then say

"Goodbye, good-bye to a more beautiful place."

Then your tears come out a little and your breath slowly goes away gently and smiles and then your pulse goes zero.

"He's gone, ma'am," the doctor said.

I can't believe it. I hold your chest.

This weak leg stood up, crying unstoppably. While waiting for your body out of the ICU and removed medical devices from your body, we and our family were outside the ICU. Moments later the nurse called me, "Yusuf's wife."

I stood up and approached the nurse who was standing at the door of the ICU.

then the nurse thrust out a small plastic containing our wedding rings. My heart is broken, this heart is broken, God, can no longer be held limp, this body accepts the bitter reality that wants to wake up soon, hoping that this is just a nightmare.

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The next day.

At home Mom and Dad are now many guests to visit.....

the sadness on my in-laws face cannot be described at this time. I could only stare at your body which was now stretched out rigidly in front of me. I still wish it was just a nightmare and I want to wake up from this nightmare. A moment later now your body is ready to be mummified but before that I kiss your forehead for the last time. When your coffin was carried I could only cry out, "Where do you want to take me."

Mother and Mother who were beside me at that time they teflexively hugged me together. May you be happy there and no longer feel pain dear and husnul khotimah. See you back there, baby, you'll still be your heavenly angel. I love you so much. Goodbye my husband. Your heart is always sincere with anyone, kind, honest, and treat me always special, your prayers are never broken and always special. God has missed you. She wants you more, my most beautiful husband.The way I love you right now is my do, a never-break-up for you.

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You've gone away and I've been dead for a long time. The true love I've been looking for is with you. You are a complement to my heart, soul and life. Without you, nothing has changed in my life. This darling, this love, even this longing, is growing for you. I just felt this kind of love for you, you are everything to me in my life.

I am sincere about your departure and want you to be happy there and this heart is always yours. You are invisible but you feel in my heart.

Seriate......