Waiting for First Love to Return
Fail

"Udah, now rest first." Take the paper wrap I read, and put it on the nightstand. "It's good that the clothes wake up. So now go to sleep." Justifying the blanket, and drowning my face in his chest. I felt him kiss my forehead long, then close my eyes. I closed my eyes too.

I was always comfortable sleeping in his arms. But I don't know why tonight my eyes are so hard to shut. My mind doesn't let me relax and fall asleep. Possibilities come to keep my brain working.

Reyhan's breathing already sounded slow rhythmically. Accompanied by a fine snoring that indicates he has slept quietly. I changed positions, let go of her embrace and turned back to her. Finding the best position to sleep. However, they cannot enter the dream world. Until repeatedly change the position that I think is comfortable, still can not sleep. Until late at night, the eyes have not closed. Repeatedly change the comfortable position, still does not make me comfortable.

Now I went back to Reyhan who was sleeping quietly. Look at her sleeping face. I touched his black eyebrows, until he came down, his nose, his cheeks were clean with no black spots at all. And stop being lipped. I smiled to myself to look at my husband.

You're a handsome Rey. Kind again. And most importantly you are sholeh. My brain always suggests that you're the man of dreams. But why can't your presence erase Arfan in my heart? I'm sorry Rey.

*If you had come first, maybe my feelings wouldn't have been like this. I'd prefer you over that irresponsible Arfan. But you came when my heart had been perfectly stolen by him. Do you believe Rey's old saying? That first love will never die, but that doesn't mean it can't be replaced, right? But can I love you, while the name is still engraved clearly in my heart? Is it true that you can replace her without me having to forget about her?

But one thing is for sure, Randy. I promised everyone I'd live with you. And I'll keep my promise, Rey. I will try to be a good wife to get my paradise. Even though I can't promise to love you completely.

You have to promise Rey. To not leave me even though you might later know, I made this biggest mistake. You always want to forgive me, don't you Rey*?

"Why yank? How come you haven't slept?" Reyhan's hoarse voice resuscitated me from the daydream. My touch was bothering him. Spontaneously I pulled my still cool hand down his face, turning around in shame. But he already knew my behavior, and caught me wet who noticed his face.

"Why the hell? Any other problems?" He asked gently with red eyes as he was still sleepy. Turned my body around to see it again. "The story of dong. Or want to ask for this ration? " Next with a small grin, which makes me shudder.

"Nwg." Reply quickly. Why does he think I'm asking for all the rations? What's all that stuff? She was handed over to me a week ago. Now I have my own income. Enough to eat everyday. The money from him is enough for me to save for other needs someday.

"You are not papa. I will gladly grant. " He answered with complete sleepiness gone, his eyes already wide open with a flirtatious smile. Seeing his smile I understood where he was going.

"Who said the hell? I just can't sleep." Answer pouting.

"Have to be shy. I'm your husband lo. If you want to make love do not have to be detained, do not always wait for the man who started. Sometimes I also want this time my wife asks first. You always fulfill when I want it, so when you want I will fulfill it too. Shouldn't husbands and wives understand each other?" He said that he had no idea what it meant. I was embarrassed to hear it myself.

What does this husband mean? Ask what anyway? I was embarrassed to hear Reyhan's words. Not that I don't understand the purpose of his words, only I still can't figure out why Reyhan thought I was.

"Nwgk ah. Just go to sleep, it's night." I said ashamedly, and hid my face on the chest of his field.

I heard my husband's slow laughter. But he no longer closed his eyes. Replying to my embrace tighter.Even I feel the slow strokes on my back repeating that make me sleepy. I will sleep my eyes awake again, because his hands have not only wiped his back. It has moved to a more sensitive area.

"Dad." My protest at my sleep being disturbed.

"Sheemmz.." He murmured with lips that kissed here and there.

I had no choice but to give up on her will. I was wrong to wake him up who was asleep. So inevitably obey his invitation to sports night. I'm not trying to pay back anything he did. Let the body's natural response do it.

Until late at midnight he had just finished his passion. The timepiece on the wall shows 02:33 in the morning.

"Thank you. Rest, baby." He said by tucking my forehead slowly after completing the ritual. And got up, picked up the fallen blanket and spread it out to cover my innocent body.

"Where are you going?" I asked as he stood up. It's interesting not to leave me. He's coming back closer.

"I'm gonna take a shower, baby. You rest again. You haven't slept since, have you? There's still time to rest before dawn." Slowly rubbing my head.

"Later to take a shower."

"Yes. I'll let you sleep." I lay down again by my side, and gently rubbed my head. Gentle rubbing as a sleep conductor. I was ordered to sleep. He didn't leave me before I fell asleep.

Waking up in the morning Reyhan was no longer in the room. I saw the wall clock explaining that it was already noon. It was about an hour from the dawn.

I quickly jumped out of bed, and rushed to bathe with lightning and bad morning prayers.

Just prostrated the first time I remembered my conversation last night with Reyhan.

Testpack ? Because showering in a hurry so I forgot about the thing that made me sleepless all night. Throwing a little water in the morning I've just passed. My prayers are far from khusuk because of bad luck. Why do you remember that when you pray?

Damnit. Because waking up bad luck makes me not solemn in prayer, also failed to know the positive or negative pregnancy.

I came out of the room with an upset face. Disappointed because she was not awakened by her husband. Entering the kitchen there is already a husband and Mother who are busy in the kitchen.

"Wake up, baby?" Reyhan asked who saw my presence in the kitchen. While Mommy packs a sale today. My husband is very clever. Know his wife woke up late he prepared all my duties in the morning. Except for clothes and cleaning. He just cooks and fries the food I've made yesterday, and keeps it in the fridge. Morning stay fried to sell at school.

"Udah." Ketus. Even though my husband is understanding. But I'm still angry that I didn't wake up this morning. I chose to sit down to help Mother. While Mommy is very understanding when seeing my tangled face, immediately retreat away to turn the faucet filling the washing machine. Leaving us both to talk.

Reyhan seemed surprised by my unusual tone of voice. Stop the cooked cooking, and let it stay on the frying pan. Simply turn off the stove.

"What else is it? How come that manyun? " Reyhan is sitting next to me.

"Anged." Reply annoyed. Lazy looking at the husband sitting next to me.

" Well why? Everything is done. Mother who finished it with me. Not that thanks even angry." He instead of persuading me to follow the grumble. Pointing to my work that has been done with an unsightly face.

"Why not wake me up?" Protest.

"That's it, baby. But you are built very difficult, besides like tired so much, soundly sleep times. So yes I let pity be forced to wake up. Last night I played it? hence tired. Sorry yeah. But the sun has not yet risen, the dawn has not passed. That's safe." Clearly with a face that had turned clear, explaining with a compassionate smile

"Emang why the hell? Waking up too late is too late." Added.

"Yes. Because I woke up late so I failed to take the testpack." My curses.

"Owh so? Yes, tomorrow again. If you can't wait for tomorrow to rest I interclinic not far from the school. Wanna?"

"Whatever." I'm still lashing this.

"Yes, I'll be ready, about ten o'clock I pick up. Yea? I won't let you go alone." His orders received no rebuttal. And back to his work. While this morning I chose to sit sweetly watching my troubled husband.

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