Waiting for First Love to Return
Rena's Heartbreak

Day by day has passed. Even the week has changed. Time goes on for sure. No matter how we fill in and get through it. Time moves as it should. Want to be happy, sad, excited, or future, time does not want to wait for us to rise and be ready to continue the steps. Want us to walk in place or step forward, or even when we step back , time does not matter. Time keeps moving forward.

Even now a month has passed. Marta was again busy with her final assignment, and her spirit doubled when she allowed her to marry the man of her choice, as long as she finished her studies first. Plus Johan is now increasingly often say hello and give a word of motivation through chat or phone. Which makes Marta more excited. Although still not given time to meet.

Although David? He returns to being the cold, workaholic David. Although occasionally still had time to enjoy the night on the beach as usual. It's just that the time is getting late. Trying to forget Tasya which turned out to have been owned by others by looking for busyness. But in fact it cannot. The shadow of his face and smile never disappeared from the eyes.

Like tonight. Time has shown midnight, although the road is still crowded vehicles. Many traveling sellers have returned after peddling merchandise. The beach is empty. There are only a few groups of young people who are still chatting. Just the rhythmic crashing of the waves, racing with the horn of an impatient vehicle.

David sat staring at the darkness. Only a roaring voice was heard. A fate that is not on his side.

"Had my heart broken this much, I wouldn't have taken the time to find you, Tha. But regret always comes too late, right? My hope of spending the rest of my time with you is gone. " Murm David in solitude. His eyes wet lamenting loss. Losing a woman he could not.

"Before, even though I was away from you, but it didn't feel this bad. I always had hope of coming back with you. But the hope I had built had collapsed. " Let her tears melt down. It was dark, no one would see, or no one would care about his solitude.

"That. Are you happy? Why did you marry another man? I still see love in your eyes for me. And why have you changed now? You look lethargic and sick, you also look thinner even though your covered clothes hide it. Are you unhappy, Tha? Do you have to marry another man? Is it possible that I still have a chance to make you happy?"

"Will I be that evil, who will take you from your rightful husband? But I don't think I'm willing to have another man. Just imagining it is painful. What if I see it directly? But, don't I still have no right to have you? You must be forced or iklas undergo marriage.

David breathed a rough breath. Folding the legs dispels the cold that begins to puncture the skin. Look at the dark sky without stars and moon. The wind blew the cold. Signs of rain will fall.

"Mas." A voice that was familiar to him. The voice that lately also began to disappear from his days, because he who did avoid and did not want to be found.

David only took a quick glance, and looked back at the sky. Swiping his cheek that left a trace. I didn't want this girl to notice her crying. The girl wore a long nightgown and wrapped in a long jacket to ward off the cold. He seems to have come here intentionally. Not coming back after work as usual. Rena. Yes the girl is Rena who always persistently approached David.

"Where are you going? I haven't seen mas in a long time. They rarely come here either. Every evening I come and wait, but I never see you." Ask Rena in a soft voice. He showed that his heart was a happy shelf. "It turns out to be a time change?" Laughing with hiding wounds.

"Is there a problem? " Task Rena who sees David as usual. It doesn't seem okay.

"You need a storymate, I'm ready to listen. Tell a story. Sharing that story even though it does not always find a solution, at least make the burden feel light. Well, maybe it can reduce chest tightness." Said Rena again, sitting sideways facing David who was still at home looking ahead.

Although actually Rena's heart is also very tight need a place to vent. Pain when repeatedly rejected and ignored by the person who is fighting for. But anyway, this is his choice. Rena understood from the beginning the consequences.

"But if your problem is a disgrace and a secret. Keep it to yourself, don't tell stories. Because I can't promise to be able to take care of her, even though I always try. Because sometimes speech gets out of control when emotions get out of control." Rena died when David was silent. Looks like his efforts won't work.

Rena looked at David's eyes. Look at the white froth that rolled up, then disappeared. And then another wave. Only faint movements of the waves in the dark.

Rena again saw David who was still sculpting beside her. If he was waiting for David who would express love, perhaps it was a futile wait. Wouldn't it hurt if the woman revealed the taste first? Rena doubt. Weighing to talk, or enjoying togetherness in silence. But what's so cool about being quiet like this?

"Mas, I'm sorry I was so sassy. I'm sure you also know the meaning of my attitude and attention all along." Rena tried to speak her heart. Better not to get an answer, right? Than to get painful rejection? But what's wrong with trying? Will it be answered with rejection, or acceptance? Or just be silent? Try it first.

"From the beginning I saw that I was interested. Unhappy meeting that will never be forgotten. Cold and indifferent attitude makes me curious, to make me feel like and affection. I feel comfortable and happy when I'm at my side. Comfort which I mean love. I'm still happy even though I've always been indifferent to me." Curse Rena with a forced smile. Is it really happy? It was happiness that made him sad when he thought about it.

"I don't know if I misinterpreted this feeling. But I definitely consider it love and affection. Until the first night we met here, I thought I had a little hope. I was happy when I started talking and answering my questions. I was happy when I started to respond to my words. To make me sure, if I can make you fall in love.

"But my beliefs were wrong. I don't even want to see me now. Always dodging when I come. I feel like I have nothing wrong. Or am I the one who doesn't realize I made a mistake? But now I realize. I think the only hope for us together is that I have, whereas I never want to realize my expectations. Though I repeatedly mentioned the name mas in my prayer, but it did not work. Maybe not a soul mate yet?" Rena's story ends with a big laugh. Laughing at himself who talks about privacy.

"But be calm, my. I won't force you to live out my expectations. Because I never had the power to do that. I can't force someone else's heart to love me. It's just, let me keep enjoying the taste that I have. Maybe someday, if the heart is tired of waiting will stop hoping by itself. And turn away without coercion."