
“Mual nausea? Is Hana pregnant?”
Alan, who was about to leave his room, overheard Dr. Rania talking on the phone.
Alan closed both his eyes. Her heart felt bad hearing the question of doctor Rania about Hana's pregnancy. And Alan believes the one who was talking to Rania's doctor over the phone must have been Stefan.
Alan took a deep breath and then exhaled slowly. Despite trying to give up Hana with Stefan, the fact that Hana is not her match always makes Alan's heart throb with pain.
Alan gulped and then returned his wheelchair back into the room again. Alan also closed his bedroom door slowly so that Dr. Rania was not disturbed by the sound of the door he closed.
“Yes God... Why does it still feel so painful.. Please God.. If indeed Hana is not a good destiny I will erase immediately the memory of the servant about Hana.” Alan's mind closed both of his eyes.
Alan always tried to forget all the memories of his togetherness with Hana. But Alan felt the more he forgot, the more intense the shadow of Hana appeared in every conscious Alan. Even when Alan slept, his dreams were always filled with the figure of Hana.
Alan remained as calm as possible. The man did not want to share his suffering with his mother and his two younger siblings. Alan wants them to believe that Alan is fine even though Alan actually destroyed himself in silence because of his love for Hana which is still residing in his heart.
Once again Alan took a deep breath in and then exhaled slowly. Alan was trying to shake off the pain in his heart right now.
The sound of the door slowly opening made Alan turn his head. There, in the doorway that opened with the width of the doctor Rania stood. Alan smiled looking at the beautiful doctor.
“Alan, I have to go now. There's a sudden patient I have to deal with. You don't papa do I live alone at home?”
“Yes doctor, no papa. Liver doctor yes on the road.” Alan's smile nodded slowly.
Doctor Rania smiled and nodded her head.
“I won't be long Alan.” Said later.
“Hem, yes doctor.” Alan nodded his head.
After that, Dr. Rania closed the door to Alan's room very slowly.
Alan smiled smirkingly. Hana's pregnant means that Hana and her husband Stefan really love each other.
“It turns out that the words of the wise are not always right. It is a lie to see loved ones happy even with others we are also happy. In fact, I was sick to see Hana happy with another man. I want Hana to be happy with me, just with me. And I want Hana to love only me, not Stefan or any other man.” Alan nelangsa himself.
Alan then moved his wheelchair towards the balcony where the door was still open. Alan approached the edge of the balcony staring at the red car owned by doctor Rania who started out of the spacious yard of his house.
Until now Alan still does not understand why Stefan wants to marry Hana. What's more, Hana also asked for in return for being able to get money for her operating costs even up to the school fees of Alan's two younger siblings as well as the treatment of Alan's mother.
Not to insult or belittle Hana. Alan himself admitted Hana was beautiful. But for a Stefan Devandra Hana must be far from beautiful. Alan knows who and what Stefan Devandra looks like according to rumors. Although one rumor has already proven that Stefan is not a cruel man as it is spread among the public.
“Is this possible so-called soul mate the secret of God? I was always with Hana. We spend time together every day after a long day at work. I am also very sure that Hana is my soul mate. But in reality, Hana is married and happy even love other men. Everything I dreamed of as well I expected was really not appropriate. The fact is now I feel pain even destroyed without being able to do anything. I'm powerless on my own without Hana tau.” Alan muttered again.
“Now even you are pregnant Hana. I'm sure you and Stefan love each other so much.”
Alan looked up at the star-drenched sky. In the past every Sunday night Alan always took Hana on the road and then looked at the same starry sky. They both said nothing important. They were just chatting about stars that Alan didn't know much about.
“Hana.. Is it possible that everything we've been through together has meant nothing to you?”
Alan asked himself. Wanted to ask Hana but it felt impossible. Alan is no longer free to meet Hana as he once was. Because now there is Stefan who has the status of a husband that Hana loves.
Alan closed his eyes feeling the breeze that hit his facial skin as well as his body. At that moment also the shadow of Hana smiling back shadowed him. Alan was eager to forget about Hana. But the harder he forgets, the more often Hana's shadow appears in his view.
“Kakak..”.
Alan opened his eyes again when he heard Amira's voice. The man turned his head and found Amira who was already standing on the doorstep of the balcony of his room.
“Emm.. I have repeatedly knocked on the door and called brother, but brother nyut nyaut nyut eat him I entered directly aja kak.” She looked at Alan.
Alan nodded his head then smiled faintly.
“Whose are you with here?” Alan asked Amira.
“I'm alone brother. I was from the bookstore but because it just so happened that the bookstore was also deket from here eating all of them I stopped by. Last time on the street complex also I met with doctor Rania who said she wanted to handle her patients so doctor Rania also told me to make nemenin brother until doctor Rania back.”
Alan laughed softly. The beautiful doctor was really very kind and attentive to her. Alan felt increasingly indebted to the beautiful doctor.
“Keep you home how?” Ask Alan again.
“Eem.. Easy it sis, I can take a taxi home or maybe take an angkot.”
“Taxi Up? Do you have money? Continue to ride the angkot at night is also a danger loh, what else for girls like you dek.”
Amira was silent for a moment. The cost to ride Amira angkot does have. But to take a taxi is not possible because Amira himself also knows the cost to take a taxi is not cheap.
As Alan circulates his gaze down, he accidentally finds Tristan hiding under a tree not far from the gate of Rania's doctor's house. Alan smiled meaningfully. Alan guessed Tristan must be watching Amira.
“But not papa. Most later meet your guardian angel on the road.” Tristan.
Amira frowned not understanding the intention of her brother.
“What brother mean?”
Tristan just put his shoulders together to answer his sister's question. Alan believes Tristan is a good boy and can take care of his sister properly.