WIFE TO 2 MR. STEFAN
EPISODE 87

Alan was silent in his wheelchair in a balcony room with his face pointing to the sky so beautiful with the sparkling stars and soft moonlight that adorned tonight.

Alan sighed softly. To the true celestial senses was inversely proportional to his mood that continued in the thick of a muddle. Alan has tried sincerely and let go. But his heart still hurt.

Facing the fact that people who have been loved for a long time belong to others is not easy. What else if the wishful thinking is so high and sure can have.

“Why does this reality hurt God so much? And why should I be forced to accept this reality?”

Alan always wished it was just a dream. Alan hopes Stefan is just an unreal figure who is in his nightmares that will then disappear if Alan wakes up from his sleep. Stefan actually exists. Stefan has succeeded in having Hana.

Alan never imagined it would happen. Because what Alan always believed was himself and Hana would always be together in hard or happy. But once again the reality is so cruel. Alan had not flown the war flag at all but Alan had already lost before even stepping up.

“Hana.. Do you remember the time before I was in an accident? I said I'll always be there for you.. Do you remember Hana?”

Alan asked himself with a sense of tightness filling his chest. A sense of tightness that does not go away since Alan heard Hana already belongs to another man.

“You haven't slept Alan?”

Alan turned to hear a question from doctor Rania. The man instantly fell silent then shook his head.

“I haven't sleepy doctor.” The answer.

Doctor Rania smiled. The beautiful doctor knew everything. And doctor Rania understood with Alan's attitude.

“Your mother told me everything Alan. Sometimes reality is not as good as we dream. Whatever it is, we have to accept it. Because God couldn't have tested his servant without Alan.”'s reason

Alan smiled smirkingly. Alan was convinced that at this time only he was lamenting the sadness. Because basically he is the one who loves Hana and puts more hope in his closeness with Hana first. Alan was even very confident that he was the man who would always be beside Hana under any circumstances.

“Doctors don't know what I'm feeling right now. So it is better that the doctor does not need to be pretentious tau.” Alan said with a straight look ahead.

Doctor Rania laughed softly at that. The woman sighed then shook her head.

Alan swallowed. At this time Alan felt his own heart pain without anyone who could understand it. Maybe even his mother's two sisters won't know how hurt Alan is right now.

“Alan is out there still a lot of people who are much more suffering than you are right now. There are even those who live as fast as in this world and only rely on themselves to be able to stand upright without anyone who can understand and be beside him. And that person is myself.”

Alan turned his head to look cluelessly at the beautiful doctor. Alan always thought Dr. Rania's life was good. The woman has a magnificent home, a brilliant career. And according to Alan that was enough to make the beautiful doctor happy. What's more Alan is also very sure that Rania's doctor is the same as Stefan. It has everything it needs and it can get anything the beautiful doctor wants.

“I used to have a very happy and simple family Alan. I also have good friends and always help me. An arrogant but always sincere friend does something for anyone in need. And of course he did that without wanting anyone to know.” Dr. Rania began to tell her how her life process was.

“I'm also the one who couldn't afford Alan. I live far from the city. I even rely on scholarships to get to school. That's when I got to know him, Stefan Devandra. We used to be close but a little bit we never had a taste more than friends. Stefan always helps me not even mind taking me to college because my place is very far from the city. From Stefan's help I was able to stand tall with a strong sense of confidence. Until finally I can achieve what I aspire to be a doctor. But the disaster came. Both of my parents fell ill and eventually died. From that moment on I was living like Alan. I'm alone without anyone else. Even without Stefan who was only present as an intermediary for my success achieved what I had dreamed of since childhood.”

Alan was surprised but remained silent calmly. Alan did not expect if it turned out that the life story of doctor Rania was so heartbreaking. Whereas Alan thought maybe the two parents of the doctor were big business people living abroad.

“So more lucky where am I with you Alan? I have wealth but live as a country. As for you, you live a simple life but can still feel the affection of family. You still get support when you fall. You still have people who love you and are always ready to be there for you, to sustain you.” Doctor Rania smiled looking at Alan who was just silent beside him. The beautiful doctor did not mean not to be grateful for all that God had given him. He just wanted to tell Alan that it was not only Alan who felt the pain and grief of life.

“Alan, Hana may not be destined to be your soul mate. Just like me and Stefan. We used to be close but God only outlined destiny as a friend among us without any love for what else to have. Maybe it's part of socializing life, where we won't be able to live alone in this world.”

Alan remained silent. Doctor Rania's story seems to slap him so hard. Alan did not think long. He only thought about his heart and feelings that were currently being hurt and bitter.

Looking at Alan who was just silent Rania's doctor shook his head. Removing an injured person is very difficult. Everything will be meaningless when it comes to the heart and self.

“Alan basically there is no theory that humans can live alone. Even if there is a possibility that humans will suffer greatly and then die without any other humans who care. So from now on you better stop thinking that your togetherness with Hana is a failed togetherness.”

Alan was not at all. The man didn't know what to say to Dr. Rania.

“Already, you better rest. It's late.”

Dr. Rania patted Alan's shoulder gently and then stepped away leaving Alan alone.

Alan closed both his eyes. Suddenly Alan felt embarrassed because he had acted as if he was the most suffering human being in this world. While out there even near him there are those who feel more suffering than him.