Winter in Hokkaido
Chapter 12 part 1: Doubt

I don't understand Ken's attitude. It can change very suddenly. Sometimes he shows an attitude that seems to reciprocate my feelings. But lately he has been avoiding more often. What does this have to do with Add?!

From the beginning of seeing Add staring at Ken in the parking lot that morning, I could feel him putting his heart on my idol. This can't happen. I don't want Ken to be affected by Add's feelings.

I decided to go to Uncle Yamada's hotel to see Ken. I wish he was in place. A few days ago, employees at the hotel said Ken was always out with his male friend. Not wrong, that must be Add.

If Ken walks with a woman let alone that woman is prettier than me, I might be able to back off. But this is with a man. The man I suspected from the start had an interest in Ken.

Women are not easily deceived. He has a high sensitivity in identifying feelings. I know the “Penganggul” guy put his heart to Ken.

When I arrived at Uncle Yamada's hotel, I saw Ken chatting with Add. I quickly accelerated my steps. At the very least, I got an explanation as to how close he was to Add.

Just saying hello, Ken immediately pulled me and took me away. In front of Add, he said there was an appointment with me. I was both surprised and happy. Ken's taking me out to lunch, it's like a dream. He also held my hand tightly. I want time to stop so I can capture this moment longer.

At first, I wanted to respond by saying when Ken had an appointment with me, but he gave me a look that seemed to signal that I would agree to Add.  For a few days he was very cold. He was always with Add, and when talking on the phone just said as necessary.

Is Ken really covering up his feelings? Sometimes I feel like he's tied to the past. Uncle Yamada said the same thing. He said it was the first time Ken would stay in Japan for a few days even to a time he did not specify. Previously, asked to take a vacation for a day or two, he always conveyed a thousand reasons. Uncle also said he often saw Ken daydreaming like he was thinking of someone.

When Uncle Yamada first asked me to be introduced to his niece, I was hesitant. Not out of fear that he did not live up to my expectations, but fear that I was not in accordance with his expectations.

I could hardly believe that the man in my imagination was in the real world when Uncle Yamada sent Ken a picture. My father and mother had introduced me to some men who were the children of their colleagues or friends, but none were suitable. Some already have lovers, some even ask me to serve their passions on the first date. You guys, my friend said he wasn't rude, he was gay. However, I'm sure Ken is the exception between those two categories.

I fell in love when I first met him. He is more handsome than the one photographed by the camera. He is also kind, polite, and intelligent. Although it looks stiff. But isn't that nice? Some of the men my parents introduced were so aggressive, and it turned out they were average playboys. So, Ken's stiffness to me is a sign that he's a loyal person.

I didn't realize I was sitting in the car. It's so happy for me to remember the first impression of meeting Ken.

“Ken, why not just use my car?” I was shocked when the car I was driving was not my car.

“You didn't give me the key. Yes already, wear his seat belt”, he said smiling while crossing the seatbelt on my body.

Ken is more active. He's even more attentive. I couldn't hold back my love and happiness.

In the middle of the journey, I who usually talk a lot just so confused to present what topic. I don't even care where Ken took me. Want to travel a lifetime, as long as I'm with him, I'm ready. In fact, I didn't want to arrive at a destination other than to be with her at the wedding altar.

“May, what to eat and where?”

I still can't believe he's getting more attention this afternoon. Am I the one dreaming? If this is a dream, please no one will wake me up.

“May...” He swung his hand in front of my face.

“Wherever I want. It's up to you!” The heart beats almost twice as fast as normal. I tried to pinch my cheek. It hurts to the point of unconscious screaming.

“May, you why?”

“Nothing.” I was totally misbehaved.

“So, where are we going?”

“Ke anywhere.” I can't stop smiling.

“I don't know this place yet. Can you give a recommendation?”

Ken seemed to think. I was suddenly confused to make a lunch recommendation.

“I want to try Wagyu Beef Steak. I tried it at a Japanese restaurant in Jakarta and it tasted good. Maybe in the place where it came from it will taste very good.”

Eat whatever you're with nothing bad, Ken. Because I believe that good eating is not only from food, but from a happy mind. The thought is certainly present with whom we enjoy the food.

“In the city center, next to the mall. There is a delicious Wagyu Beef menu.”

“Oke.”

A romantic song by Ayumi Hamasaki titled “Dearest” was played on Ken's radio. It's so perfect. Maybe this is also the answer to my persistence to get her heart.

Upon arriving at the restaurant, Ken immediately ordered a steak, as he wished, plus Shabu-Shabu, and Gochujang Beef. Seeing her eagerly ordering her food, my happiness grew to be fully-charged.

“I order it all yes, May. What did you order?”

I always keep your heart for me. Can you, Ken? Suddenly wanted to seduce him, but of course this is not the right time. I should be able to, at least, maintain this affection. I can't make Ken's mood break.

“I order Sureiku only.” The waiter left after I delivered all our orders.

While waiting for the order, Ken's phone kept ringing. But he let it go, then turned off his phone. Realizing that I noticed, Ken just smiled. I actually wanted to ask who called her so many times. My guess is that call from Add. Because if Uncle Yamada or his Aunt were in Tokyo, Ken couldn't possibly ignore the call. Thankfully, that means Ken has no interest in Add.

Seeing him eat voraciously, I felt full. That's how women are, very hearty. He could feel the food filling his stomach just by watching his beloved eat so deliciously. Especially if the food consumed is the result of his own cooking. All right, I know Ken's favorite food. From tomorrow I will learn to cook this menu so that I can serve it to her every day or whenever she wants.

Wagyu beef is known as the most delicious beef with premium quality. The price is more expensive than ordinary beef, and the taste is very appropriate to the price. The special feature of Wagyu Beef is in the high amount of marbling content. That is what gives it a juicy and melting taste when it enters the mouth. Marbling is a fine streak of white fat in the meat that gives the taste delicious, sweet, and makes the texture of the meat soft.

“This is so good.” Ken showed a face that was so satisfied with the dishes in this restaurant.

“You added, Ken?”

“I've eaten a lot. Next time we come back.”

Ken pointed to my half-food. I get the point. Soon I will spend it, after being satisfied to see the good looks of Ken who every day does not stop increasing.

“May, I'm sorry a few days ago was a bit indifferent to you.”

I was surprised to hear Ken. So, he was actually aware of his attitude towards me.

“Ken, no need to apologize. I understand when you explain that you are helping your friend to become a model in his shooting.”

“Thank God then.”

“Oya, indeed today there is no shooting.” I honestly wanted to ask you that on the way.

“It's done. I was just helping. After all, I felt less suited to the job as a model.” Ken has started to be able to tell stories with ease.

“Why? You are handsome, sweet, tall, your physique is very supportive for the job. In fact, I thought you were originally a.” model

He laughed in response to my words. His response made me very anxious to hug him.