Winter in Hokkaido
Chapter 20: The turmoil

The desire to calm down with winter in Hokkaido actually bears the fruit of increasingly displeasure. I was met by someone who loved me, someone who took away my honor, and someone I was trying to forget forever.

Problems come in turns. When I tried my heart not to take revenge on Add, Dave appeared before me. I no longer expected to see him. Goddamn bum! Come, then go without thinking about what he did. A deed that made me miss him so much. I hate to say that I hate Dave, because what I feel is a deepening love.

The love I felt for Dave, was it worth mentioning as a normal feeling? Does not loving and being loved come without knowing gender? If I can choose, I want to love Dave as my best friend. Stop right there. Because friends will not think to be able to sleep with his best friend, right?! Hah, but Dave kissed me first.

I can't conclude Dave loves me just because he's trying to enjoy my body. Not like that bastard Add who took advantage of the opportunity to break his head. I should've just told Dave that someone had held my dick first. So, I can see how far he's jealous to measure his love.

“Ken…. Ken...” Suddenly Uncle broke my daydream.

“Iya, Uncle,” sahutku surprised.

“From yesterday you were daydreaming, not fast breakfast. What are you thinking, Ken?”

“Ng. Ken didn't think of anything,” I answered while chewing on bread that forgot to smear jam.

“Oya, Uncle look like you and Dave have known each other before huh?”

Uhuuuk.The bread I chewed was swallowed and made me choke. Immediately I sipped some water. Uncle's question makes me nervous.

“Ka. Uncle introduced us. Right, Ken's serious, Ken didn't lie.”

Uncle gawking. I try to remember what I said. You idiot! I should have spoken normally. This was the same as making Uncle suspicious.

“But as of that night Uncle look at you and Mr. Dave...”.

Quickly I cut off Uncle's talk. “Wah, it's noon Uncle. Let's go!”

I got up from my chair and walked quickly to the car. Uncle followed me. I'm afraid Uncle keeps scraping my closeness with Dave.

Last time, Uncle's statement freaked me out too. Did Uncle see when Dave fucked me on the couch? Lothawat! I should have been calm, no need to panic.

In the car, Uncle came back to talk to me about Dave. I knew my mistake. So, I've been more relaxed responding. But my heart was still pounding, afraid that Uncle was talking about my intimate relationship with Dave.

“Said Mr. Dave he attended the same campus as you and one generation anyway.”

“He what department?” I went back to the show.

“Uncle forgot to ask.”

“The name of the campus is big, Uncle. Thousands of students too. Uncle also knew that Ken was a little difficult to socialize with a lot of people. So Ken doesn't have many friends.”

“But, Uncle look at you guys seem to know each other already. The proof is that Mr. Dave deliberately came to the house to see you.”

“That's Uncle asking.”

“Uncle did not ask him to come home.”

“I mean, it was Uncle who asked Ken to accompany Mr. Dave while he was here. That time he came because i..i.want to be escorted out, find dinner. Just, then, snowing heavily.” I was nervous to find an excuse.

“Why not call let you come there?”

Uncle is interrogating me like this.

“Kan Ken at that time had not had time to give Ken number. Uncle why the hell are you wondering about that? What Uncle saw our time...” Oh, my God, my mouth is almost out of control.

“See what?” Uncle stares. “Seeing you two?”

“What's two, Uncle?” Maybe Uncle was fishing so I could tell you about my relationship with Dave.

“Ya, did you mean what?”

“Em...Em..I mean Ken, did Uncle ever see us both before, whether on campus or elsewhere.”

“Weird just you, Ken. Uncle was happy to see the character of Mr. Dave. Besides, you get along very quickly with him. Yeah, like I've known you for a long time. You are very introverted. Mayumi said that until now sometimes she still feels foreign to you. So, somehow Mr. Dave was able to penetrate the wall of ego of Uncle's handsome nephew”, Uncle obviously followed a laugh.

Oh so. Thank goodness! I thought Uncle was leading my confession. Especially so far I know Uncle when talking directly to the point. Or maybe it's because I'm paranoid.

“Uncle is also amazed to Mr. Dave. He is young, but full of ambition. He said he was struggling to be appointed director of his company. He started his career from scratch, from an ordinary employee. Now he occupies a strategic position as one of the decision makers. On the other hand, he looked unpretentious. Maybe because he found happiness by marrying the woman he loved. Plus now his wife is pregnant.” I don't know if Uncle adored Dave in front of me like that.

“Uncle is trying to compare me with him?” I was a little cynical. Who likes to be compared? Everyone has a different story and history. Even so, it is not also not learned from the success of people's lives. People live in their own lives.

“You don't bring feelings first. Uncle means it's not like that. Uncle just remembers your dad. Mr. Dave has the same nature as your father, ambitious but still unpretentious.”

“Hem...” murmured me while glancing at Uncle.

“Ken, for Uncle you are also a very extraordinary person. You are very independent from small. You never want to trouble your family. You are very devoted to both of your parents. Take care of them when sick until they are gone.”

I saw Uncle's eyes glazed over. I was sad when I remembered my parents were gone. Sometimes because I'm used to being away from them, I think they're still around. They were waiting for me to come home from overseas.

“Uncle, don't discuss it first huh!”

“I'm sorry Uncle, Ken! Uncle so make you sad.”

We were silent for a moment. Both are trying hard to accept the fact our loved ones are gone forever.

“Oya Ken, about when are you and Mayumi getting engaged?”

Bruckk! I stepped on the brake suddenly. Uncle's question made my mind lose control and almost made us wretched.

“Ken!!”

“Sorry, Ken accidentally stepped on the brake.”

“Sini let Uncle drive!”

“Iya.. Yes. When did this handsome Uncle's nephew get married? When do you want to make a woman hope and then heartbreak?”

“Please if Uncle wants to drive.”

Maybe if Uncle drives he will focus on the streets, no longer asking the things that make my heart beat as fast as I drove this car.

“Ayo walk! Uncle wants to sleep for a while.”

It's better, I said in my heart.

After driving Uncle to the inauguration of a franchise owned by his friend, I went to the department store. Actually Uncle asked me to accompany him as well, but I refused subtly. I can't be at an event whose people I don't know. The show takes all day.

The plan, I want to buy*********, formal trousers, shirts, and jackets. I didn't bring many of those items, because I was planning to buy them here.

After shopping for clothes, I was worried about where to pull over. Actually I'm kind of bored to the hotel, because sometimes there's not much I can do either. On the other hand, I couldn't possibly ask to be positioned as an employee. I'm afraid of shifting Uncle's existing employee's job. In fact, I was already determined to find another job that could develop my potential.

Suddenly my phone rang when I just started the car. I think Uncle asked to be picked up sooner. Apparently not.

“Halo," sweep. However, there was no response from the caller. I waited a long time for him to speak, but it was me he upset. There was not a single word he said.

The number is also hidden. At least, if the number comes up I can tell where the caller came from. Just makes me curious.

He called again. I lifted up and in a furious tone immediately asked for his need. But still no answer. Who's trying to prank me like this? Not many people know my number. I hung up again.

He called again. I let it go, because I was annoyed at it. Along the way, my phone kept ringing five times. I looked for a safe parking space and picked up the ninth phone.

“Hello. You made me piss off. What do you want?”

“Hello, Ken! Who pissed you off?”

So, who called Mayumi?

“You called?”

“No, Ken. I just called you.”

I looked at the name on my phone screen. Yes, it says Mayumi. While the number did not appear. I've been wrong.

“Sorry, May. From earlier someone called me many times, but when I picked up he did not answer.”

“You called back? Or send the number to me, later I track who the owner is.”

“Number is hidden.”

“What might be your friend from Indonesia?”

My friend in Indonesia? Dave's? I wish I was, but it doesn't feel like it. Dave doesn't know my number. No one else knows but Uncle, Aunt, Mayumi, and Add. Just the four of them. Is it possible Add? But I blocked the number. But could he be trying to terrorize me with another number? Fear comes when you remember that bastard. I don't want to see him around me.

“Ken... Ken... You are silent?”

“Oh sorry May, I was in the car because.”

“You're driving?”

“No, I've parked. What's up, May?”

“Where will you be going?”

“Ngot going anywhere, in hotels only.”

“I went there ya all want to talk about job vacancies from my mother's friend in Tokyo. Looks like it suits you. You will ever tell me you want to find a job in Japan.”

“Iya, May. Thank you very much in advance.”

“Sama-sama. See you!”

“Ya.”

I actually wanted to find a job without the help of anyone else. However, I also can't just refuse May's efforts to help me. Just look at it later!

I continued my journey back to the hotel. Just arrived at the car park, my phone rang again. Huh! Still from the previous terror.

“Add. I know it's you. What was your purpose in terrorizing me like this?” I scolded him right away.

“I know you miss me, Ken. The proof is that you can recognize this I.”

“Don't till I find you, then kill you!” He made me say a word I thought was taboo to say.

“Please! It is with pleasure that I die in your arms,” her satire followed by laughter.

I guess he's really gone. Apparently he only disappeared for a moment. Now I feel surrounded by problems.

“ASSFUCK!!!” He has boiled my blood.

“I know you hate me, but I'm also sure you love me. You just reject your statement of feelings, because you don't want your family here to know that we've had each other's pleasure together.”

I just turn off my phone. Goddamnit! He has been harassing me so much. His words made me really want to kill him.

The quiet life I want still has to be fought for. Forgetting Dave, confronting Mayumi, and avoiding Add are the things that are alternating in my life now. They seemed to be spinning, circling the wheel of my life, but the speed of the spin I could not predict. When one problem still rests, the other problem is already greeting waiting for a welcome.

Add is very confused. I don't know what else he wants, but what is clear is my good prejudice against him is far off. I regretted admiring his profession, and forgave his depravity. It turns out he doesn't deserve to be forgiven. I think he's either out of Japan or out of town.

I'm restarting the car engine. I think I should just change the number so Add doesn't terrorize me anymore. I drove the car into the middle of town to visit the mobile operator's gallery.