YOUR LOVE IS DISAPPEARING
Chapter 34
POV Rohman
It's the second day I'm in the hospital, only the woman who gave birth to me faithfully accompanies me at this time and Eti goes home and takes turns looking after me.
Kasian is actually the same Eti who is tired of being in the classroom and then comes back here to look after me.
I stared at my tired face, my mother asleep on a small pedestal beside the bed where I was lying, but below, I could not afford to rent a VIP room for the best treatment for myself, it's a pity that the face that has begun to wrinkle now must be tired because of my actions.
I've become a weak man, to stand up I can't afford, I have to rely on a stick to support my weight.
"You're awake, son," Mom got up from her uncomfortable sleep and rushed up to me.
"It has. Why don't you come home, let me be here alone. There's a nurse who takes care of me" I said, trying to calm the woman who gave birth to me so as not to feel anxious.
"Nurse just look a little, anyways Mama does not mind to look after you," invisible coercion from the wrinkled face of Mama.
"Mom buy food first, tell Eti later to sell the jewelry in the red box in my closet" I said to Mama who was just speechless.
"But whose jewelry is it?" Mama scrunched her forehead, I smiled bitterly at the old woman in front of me but still looked beautiful.
"That's the dowry I once gave Mayang, when I decided to leave his life I took back the dowry I had given him," I said weakly, my throat choked, it felt so hard to imagine how painful the suffering I was experiencing at this time, I recalled the words of Mayang who said the oath to pray for me to suffer.
Perhaps his prayers are now being answered by God.
"Why must take the right Mayang, mama regrets having been bad and believes Tuti's words and slander from you," said the woman who gave birth to me while wiping the corner of her eyes and reached into her small bag, which she owned, then the woman I called the mother came out without excuse.
"Oh my God, I regret for abandoning the woman I was responsible for," I said, not feeling lately I was so crybaby made by the circumstances.
Some time when the doctor entered, some tools he brought to open the bandage on my right leg that only half remained.
"It's dry, the thread can come off in three days" said the doctor, staring at me.
"When can I go home to the doctor?" I asked a little bit of caution for fear of getting angry, usually the doctor was a little fierce.
"After our thread is off, after we check the history of other diseases," he replied briefly and then left me in this ward alone.
I looked until the doctor's body disappeared, in the doorway stood the little boy while staring at me.
"Ali," I said, my tears spilled back, I could not believe the news that I had an accident reached the ears of Mayang my ex-wife.
"How are things, brother?" Mayang asked me fixedly, his gaze the same as when we first met.
"As you can see, are you satisfied Mayang?" My tone rose, staring intently at the woman who had given birth to my son.
"Astagfirullah. What's satisfied, Bang?" I saw Mayang's eyes glazed over, it might just be the tears of lies like Anita let out.
"Satisfied with my situation like this, you're here just to insult my situation right?" I accuse Mayang. Usually, a person will be satisfied if the oath has been fulfilled.
"My heart never really wanted the father of my son to have a bad thing" Mayang said, wiping her eyes.
I tried hard to sit down, wanting to kiss Ali's cheek even once. Mayang tried to help me to sit down but I brushed off Mayang's hand that looked so smooth, just like when we first met.
For some reason the pounding on my chest departed from the words that came out of my lips.
"Which granny, Dad?" Ask Ali.
"Grandmother bought food" I answered briefly. Ali just nodded his head.
"Oh Rohman, why should your butts be Rohman?" Ma'am Tuti asked without caring about my feelings at all.
"Astagfirullah, the mouth is like trash. Keep Bang Rohman's feelings a little what?" Mayang rebuked Tuti, for some reason I was happy to get a defense from him even though I had never defended him at all.
"You're acting like shit. Ngelonte continues to open a game store to cover that you sell yourself," said Mbak Tuti staring intently at Mayang.
"The slander will come back to you later, Ma'am," Mayang was still calm. There is no longer a weak Mayang like before, Mayang who used to be so happy to make me follow up.
"Here, go home, if you make a fuss here," said the mother as she opened the rice packet and fed me, I took over the rice packet from my mother's hand and I ate it myself, I wanted to bribe Ali's mouth as an apology but Ali was out of the room with a man. Ah, maybe it's Mayang's future husband or Mayang already married.
A little pain in my heart, a feeling so heavy release Mayang to live happily with other men. I regret leaving a woman who loved me so sincerely first.
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A few minutes passed by and the rice I was eating was gone.
"Ma, Mayang came home." Mayang grabbed the back of the hand of the woman who had once been her father-in-law and kissed her reverently. Anita never did it at all.
"Be careful, Mama apologizes for all your wrongs and sins, Mama also apologizes for Rohman's mistakes" said the woman who had given birth to me with tears, while Mayang just nodded as if he did not want to forgive me and mama.
I looked at Mayang's back that was getting away and turned to look at Tuti's mother who was eating fried food that she brought herself.
"Mr. Is there any money?" I asked in a slow tone.
"One million dollars is stingy. Counting the money as tired of me slandering Mayang first," hardik mbak Tuti did not accept if I asked my money to be returned immediately.
"If I'm healthy, I'll be sincere, ma'am. But look at my current situation, it should be Ma'am who helps me I need it like this," I replied in a low tone, I really want my money back, because I really need it.
"You know I'm rich and I helped you" he said as he continued to chew on the remaining fried food he had in the plastic bag he was carrying, there was no intention at all to offer me.
"There is no need to be rich to help," I cite, I was forced to use the words Mayang he once said when I forbade him to give sayura for free to the neighbors.
"You're not rich, how nolong. The stomach itself is still to iket," replied Mbak Tuti did not want to budge.
"Yes, give me my money back tomorrow or the day after tomorrow, I really need it" I said, then I shuffled down slightly justifying my position, I laid my body, I closed my eyes again, but the shadow of Mayang dancing in the eyes. The series of crimes I've committed against him haunt me at this moment.
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Not always the person we help can help us when we need, there are times when God rebukes his servant in his own way.
There are times when people we hate sincerely help us without asking us to repay them.
True sincerity comes from the heart, not verbal that is just spoken, nor is always money that becomes perioritas, there is a sincere energy one day that we need.